it is so fucking hard deconstructing one's need to be perceived within social norms

[Guardian]

it is so hard to speak that which is considered taboo, be cringe, expose one's shames or be '' inappropriately'' impulsively honest all intentionally ( without being unethical of course )

or just speak to advocate for what one believes to be the higher good of that which is not normal.

actually in real life in sequences

to friends  to strangers 

feels like being alone against most.

i'm going to take a break.

Edited October 21, 2021 by Guardian

[Guardian]

but then what else will i want to do with my life

[Rilles]

Just take a step at a time, no need to completely break down all the norms, I would say if you work hard at it might take you 10 years to become truly authentic.