Euphoria, And The Road To Self-Discovery

[Vincent S]

Had a profound Awakening to Euphoria and an Eternity of Love, a Final Resting Place
for the Eternal Self.
I attended a Psychedelics Retreat, a few months back.
Where I had set the intention so explore who I Am.

And through first Ayahuasca Ceremony, I felt my Divine Feminine side, a side of me that wants to
receive Love, a part of me that is the Background to Everything in Creation. A side of me that I had
abandoned in many lifetimes...

The very next day it was time for a Bufo Ceremony (5-MEO).
The ceremony was so beautiful. I was the last person to receive the medicine. I was seeing
everyone else passing out one by one, lying on their mats.
The facilitator lastly came to be, My heart was pounding at this point.
She told me to breathe and just relax.
I was so nervous that I messed up, and didint inhale all the smoke,
But she was so preciously loving, so she loaded the pipe and gave me another dose for free even (later I am undestanding
how loving and giving God is) Without me expecting it.
I took the second dose and immediately were thrown in to this, Beautiful Space of White Light.
I was lying down, with my eyes open, I couldn't see the room at all, I was seeing a tornado of Souls and finite creations of God,
Swirling so beautifully together, merging and dancing, soaring and basking in The Infinite Union.
At this point, there was no "me" Only what is happening. But the only thing I could feel, was Peace, FOREVER.
But still, I came back to this reality (now I see that there is no distinction between them)
Because a part of me wanted to see the Infinite Beauty in this reality.

The third and last day, we were given a San Pedro Ceremony,
Here is, were I saw my true Masculine side, The Divine Masculine.
I saw that I was  pure Potential, I was the Magic of Creation, (But I sort of felt that something was missing, there was a piece that was missing)

Later that day, we loaded up on another dose of San Pedro, and at the very peak of the ceremony,
I decided that I wanted to go for Ayahuasca again. (Part of me knew that I left something there)

And when the Aayahuasca started doing its Magic. I felt a feeling like never before, But I knew this feeling from
somewhere.
I gave myself up, and completely drowned in a pool of Love, that the Divine Feminine and The Divine Masculine
created. My two polar opposites became One. And I got plunged back to the Euphoria I felt on Bufo (5-MEO)
I couldn't see a thing, I was back in the Tornado of Unity and Oneness. And the only thing I could feel from
my physical body was a sound, some kind of moaning and drowning sounds.
I couldnt sleep at all that night, I went to the rom I was sharing with two other guests.
And that room had a perfect window in the sealing. And that night, the sky was filled  with stars.
And I felt God speaking through me for the very first time. I was aware that I was God, but a part
of me didnt even want to accept the fact that I was God, speaking through my finite form.
So I started asking God to tell me about how She created everything.
And it was such a sweet conversation.

"The Divine Masculine, in it's core, It wants nothing but to see the Divine Feminine in Everything it seeks, observes and does.
The Divine Feminine wants to feel loved by its reflections but cannot see or feel it, until its polar opposite is reflecting the love or loved sensation back to the Divine Feminine. Meaning; The Divine Masculine is actually The Divine Feminine Transmorphed and Disguised as The Divine Masculine, in order to feel Loved by itself.

Everything is in reality, The Divine Feminine, but for balance to be in place, The Divine Feminine has to Divide itself in to two seeming opposites, for the polarities to function.

Love is love, just like a flower emitting its fragrance. But love cant love itself, like the flower cant smell its own fragrance, so what Love does, it splits itself, in to a part that loves, and a part that is being loved. And Ultimately, to be able to Love itself Forever and throughout all Eternity"
 

Fastforward a few months (feels like ages ago) I have been trying integrate my experience from the retreat.
But I have been making smaller retreats at home, time to time, contemplating, surrendering, reading, meditating, trying
to understand my existence.
Going through mushroom experience after mushroom experience, LSD experience after LSD experience.
Every time waking up from one dream layer.
And yesterday, I took some LSD. My body wasnt really feeling it. I just recovered from being sick.
But I did it anyway.
And before I got to the peak, I went and spread my arms out and completely let go of myself on the bed.
I kept asking, what Is True Awakening? (which now has been shown, Its a map, a nonlinear map of Infinite Awakenings.
And there I saw myself, surrendered on the bed, and a question arose, Kill him? I asked kill who? And there ofcourse, I understood
perfectly, myself, my finite self. And I was just about to blast off, and willingly I said, yes, I will even Love that.
Let there be no me, And ofcourse there God showed me, I gave myself, the ultimate gift. One-ness... And there came peace...
A peaceful, unfolding every moment...

 

One last thing I would like to share to the collective Oneness, is my love. Thank you,
And Leo, you have done so much for me...Thank you.

 

PS: Try this song with your psychedelic experiences, preferably with 5-MEO

 

[Adamq8]

Really beatiful and profound awakening ?