Changes in 2021 - Timeline!!

[Preety_India]

This year is great for me. 

I already know. 

 

Edited April 6, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Timeline 

 

The first major change was dealing with 2 breakups. 

October 2020. 

One with Joseph that happened some time last year after we got back together for a short time. 

November 2020

I discovered his cheating.

 

February/ March 2021

Second break up happened with Andrew this year. We had issues for a long time. 

 

 

December 2020 

 

I was going through intense emotions of trauma and suicide. Rough period. 

 

January 2021

 

I was still trying to heal and move on from Joseph. 

It was a brave struggle. 

Finally I could let him go. 

 

 

Edited April 6, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Since December 2020, 

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January 2021

 

I was still trying to heal and move on from Joseph. 

It was a brave struggle. 

Finally I  let him go. 

 

February 2021

 

February 21 

It was my birthday and Joseph texted me to wish me on my birthday. 

I told him to get lost and never text me again. 

I wrote him a bunch of hate messages and told him off 

One week relief after that. 

 

Someone from Joseph's camp contacted me. It was a tense conversation. 

I told them I don't want to talk about it. 

 

March  2021

1st week 

Joseph contacts me again. I block him. 

March 25

I decide to finally forgive Joseph. I text him and leave him a message telling him that I forgave him. Blocking him again. 

March 19

I break up with a friend on Actualized. Forum. I was very furious and nervous. 

I begin to search for new friends on March 22. I make a few friends. Not a great start. 

April 2021

1st week. 

 

 

Edited April 6, 2021 by Preety_India

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January 2021

Dealing with depression post breakup with Joseph. 

Tried to distract myself on the forum to stop focusing on his thoughts 

 

February 2021

Constant engagement on the forum to forget Joseph. 

 I contact a psychologist regarding my depression. 

February 12  2021

I'm diagnosed with PTSD. For the first time. I have been given a bunch of therapy session dates. And the diagnosis is grim. Psychiatrist tells me to not take it lightly. I'm having continuous nightmares and insomnia. My health is impacted. 

I start acting erratic.

 

March 2021

1st week 

A horrible incident happens in my family and I end up injured. 

I go through bouts of depression, insomnia and extreme panic attacks for the next full week. Unable to sleep out of fear and anxiety. PTSD symptoms get worse. I try to cut myself. 

Last week of March

I begin to feel better but slightly stressed out by all trail of past events. 
 

April 2021

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

Last week of March 

I begin to realize the importance of acceptance. I write about acceptance and liberation in my journals. 

I also forgive Joseph and let it all go out of my system 

The level of maturity I gain in this week is quite significant. I really feel like I outgrew a lot. This is a whole new dimension of me that I never discovered

 

 

Edited April 6, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

 

1st week of April 

After breaking up with Andrew, I declare myself as single and not interested in relationships anymore. 

I begin to see the misery of romantic relationships and all the drama and baggage they carry and how much they destroy life. I want no part of it because there are better things in store for me. 

Massive awakening about romantic relationships and the level of destruction they cause meanwhile offering nothing much in value. 

 

 

 

Edited April 6, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

 

April 2021 

A few resolutions 

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[Preety_India]

 

April 2021 

 

A few resolutions 

 

⌾ main objective is productivity 

 

 

○ wholesome people. Wholesome relationships. Wholesome conversations. 

 

○ learn more. Sharpen skills 

 

○ invest in motivation 

 

○ increase maturity levels. 

 

○ develop a concrete life purpose 

 

○ implement spiritual goals 

 

○ work on self care, and self development 

 

 

[BornToBoil]

20 minutes ago, Preety_India said:

develop a concrete life purpose 

Do you have any ideas of what your life purpose could be?

[Preety_India]

@BornToBoil something revolving around spirituality. But not formulated yet. 

 

[Preety_India]

Dreaming bigger stuff