Mental masturbation!

[Someone here]

What's the problem with discipline?? 

Short answer.. Because there is no one who can be disciplined or not disciplined.  That's the root cause for all our failures to be disciplined in life.  Who is being disciplined or lazy??  No one.     If there is a center of your being "ego" who is the creator or source of thoughts and actions.. You won't have a single problem with being disciplined in life.. Why would you?  If you are the source of everything you do and think.. There is no possibility of failing at losing weight or kicking any bad habit.  But since it's not "you" who is creating your thoughts and actions.. The results are always random as random as these thoughts and actions.   

[Someone here]

the human life in a nutshell is nothing but a doomed to fail helpless attempt to freeze  formlessness into form and to avoid dissolving into infinity. 

[Someone here]

So I've been going through what I would call a radical identification awakening.  As a result of intense meditation sessions and self-inquiry.  The seperate sense of self and doership is completely collapsing.. The veil has completely broken and I'm aware that I'm not the ego.. Who thinks it's doing stuff. I'm not the body or mind. Or the world.   The body is seen as the world.. Not me.  A complete understanding has occurred that I'm pure present.  At the center. What's surrounding the center is none of my business. The body mind and the world. It will unfold naturally as it's always done.  But I as pure present nothingness is just a vessel for it. None of it is in my control.   

This point about control is very important.. Because it leads to the discovery that you are not who you think you are. You think you are separate entity. You are a specific thing. You think you are the doer.  You're not. When thoughts arise.. You are not thinking them. When the body moves internally or externally.. You are not moving it.   You have as much control over your body as you have over my body.. Zero.  If you raise your hand.. You are not doing It.      This is important because that means you are not the body.. And you are not the seperate self who is in control.   

So what are you? 

Edited September 17, 2020 by Someone here

[Someone here]

There is a huge peace that comes with discovering that you are not in control. These days I'm walking around with a constant mild smile in my face.. Observing the show and completely seeing it for what it is. 

[Someone here]

"Our desire for liberation shows that freedom from all limitations is our real nature. "

-Ramana maharshi. 

 

 

[Someone here]

.Buddhism in a nutshell. 

The four noble truths.. 

1 life sucks. 

2 life sucks because you are an idiot. 

3 it is possible for life not to suck if you stop being an idiot. 

4 you stop being an idiot by wanting nothing. Desiring nothing. 

[Someone here]

The real 4 noble truths tho... 

1 life is suffering. 

2 life is suffering because of desire. 

3 it is possible for life not to be suffering. 

4 the end of suffering is the end of desire. 

[Someone here]

Breaking news.. 

The universe might end this very second..that's a fact.  You can't prove that everything won't just disappear boom gone this very second. No you can't.  You want to believe it can't. But it most certainly can.

What the fuck is holding everything together anyways?..

Just a creepy thought. Pulling it out of my stuffy subconscious.  And be sure you can find thousands of such creepy thoughts. 

When you understand this you might want to consider to let go of a lot of bullshit that you think you know. 

Edited October 14, 2020 by Someone here

[Someone here]

Fears. 

What are you afraid of?  I'm gonna expose and explore some of your and my deepest fears.. Full on exposure.. Full nude.. No cosmetics..

Don't read if there you have emotional sensitivity or you get easily traumatized... Lol 

Are you afraid from the idea of falling forever.. An endless free fall? 

Or maybe you are afraid from the idea of being stuck inside a room with no doors.. Just four walls.. You stuck between four walls.. For eternity? 

What about the idea of these four walls starting to get tighter and tighter untill they crush your body into pieces? 

But then you will die.. That might be a refuge.. How about the four walls getting so tight just enough to make you almost crushed.. But not fully yet.. Such that you can't move and will be stuck like that... Forever? 

How about being conscious inside darkness forever?  Losing your sight?  Are you afraid of going blind? 

Are you afraid of the idea of hell.. Being stuck inside a lava chamber burning and suffering unimaginable amounts of pain forever? 

You are afraid of pain basically.. Right? All kinds of pain.. How about all kinds of pain possible all at once for endless time.. Are you afraid of that? 

As a male..you sure have some castration anxiety no? 

As a female you are afraid of breast cancer right?  You are afraid of infertility right? 

As a child you are afraid of losing your parents in a car accident no? 

As a grown up..you are afraid to die alone or to spend your last years with the company of no one? 

Are you afraid of regret? Of failure ?  Of realizing at your death bed that you did it all wrong?  That you fucked up big time? And that there is no going back?

What else are you afraid of?  Infinite more things.. Right?   You scared little flimsy being. No wonder you look so lost. 

 

 

[Someone here]

Tips for overcoming suffering.
From personal experiences and understanding at this point in time.
From learning Buddhism and just following the spiritual path for a quite a while. Just wanted to share few concepts. If you can apply them in your life...you can save yourself a lot of otherwise "free" and unnecessary suffering.

Drop your expectations.
Of yourself and of the world. Stop thinking that the world is other then the way it should be. Remove this "should" from your vocabulary. It doesn't make any logical or illogical sense. The world is always exactly as it "should" be. Because it's unfolding from the start. Not a single atom moves randomly. It's all planned out. Like a script or a movie. Drop all your expectations. All of them. Strive to be okay with whatever is going on. Notice that whatever is happening is exactly what should happen. Stop resisting life. And the easiest way to embody is to quickly become conscious that everything is predestined. When you raise your hands and scratch your head.. That's predetermined. So is everything. So what are you complaining about?

You are not free because you aren't separate . you don't exist as an entity in and of itself disconnected from environment.
Let go of this nonsense that you are in control. You have absolutely zero control over your life(as a little ego) . The more you become conscious of that more suffering free you will become. You don't control jack shit. You don't control your thoughts.. your actions.. your breath your heart beat.. Your digestion. It's all been done for you. You don't even exist the way you think you are. . You don't control other people or other objects. The sun the moon the solar system the weather etc basically the whole universe including so called your body. It's one seamless inevitable flow Just let it flow. Get out of gods way ffs.

Don't seek happiness. See the more you seek the more you reinforce the illusion that something is lacking. What could be lacking in wholeness? What is lacking in perfection? Yet you always believe that something is wrong somewhere. Why you do that? Because that's what motivates you to take action. To accomplish. But it has been my experience as well as your experience that nothing can make you truly happy.

No attainment.. no accomplishment, no goal.. no matter how many hoops you jump through.. no matter how well you do in the rat race.. no mater what great product you buy.. or how shiny it is.. or how much better then the neighbor’s it is.. nothing’s going to fix that sense of inadequacy. Cause that sense of not being good enough, cannot be fixed by anything… I won’t even say anything ‘out there’.. I’ll just say any thing. It’s not a thing that’s being wanted; it’s not a thing that’s needed. It’s not a thing that can make you feel adequate.. good enough.. give you worth. Because this sense of worthlessness.. this idea that you are a me that’s not good enough… is not true. So since this lie is a lie.. you can’t solve it. The lie will persist. Nothing can bring down a lie because it can keep lying. It’s not reality. So you can stick something in the hole.. but the hole itself is not really there; it’s a lie. And the only way to be free of being the slave of this lie.. and having your entire life standing for jumping through hoops to try to sooth this sense of inadequacy.. the only way out of this rat race, is to stop telling the lie.. and admit the truth. That this person, this me, who doesn’t compare, who is not as good as he or she should be, is just an idea… is not even who you are… doesn’t even exist in reality. 

Edited December 23, 2020 by Someone here

[Someone here]

Why would real I create a unified stream of information that manifests an ego mechanism or any life form. Would there be a desire or out of desperation or perhaps "why" would not be the right question and questions may not be the right way to ponder this truth as this real I is perhaps beyond whys and why nots?

I guess that's the real "why" because that's how reality is. 

Yes.. pure potential (reality) is beyond whys and why nots.. yet it manifests identities that ponder why and why not. The answer isn’t validating.. so identities are not usually satisfied with the explanation.. and keep looking for something more self gratifying.

There isn’t any objective reason. All of this is imagined into existence from static potential.. and there is no powerful entity governing it.

 

[Someone here]

Why is there something rather than nothing? 

There isn't! Tada!! 

So that's the universe's ultimate question. Let's dig into it. And prove that reality doesn't actually exist lol 

 

 

Ponder this : how is it possible that a physical universe made of physical actual "real" matter can exist at all in God's earth?  Yeah its impossible. Notice that your experience right now is an impossible phenomenon. Infinity is the impossible made possible as Leo calls it. 

Might there be no objects at all?

Or a possible world where there are no objects at all?

Well.. that’s the thing. There are no objects at all.. nor any world. There is. however.. an appearance of objects and a world..which is not at all what it seems to be.

Asking why there really are not ACTUAL objects is an understandable question. Contemplating the actuality of an object is similar to wondering if images on a filmstrip are actual objects. An imagination projects these seemingly “actual objects”.. but they don’t have a fixed shape.. they don’t have a location.. they don’t exist in any time.. they don’t have identities.. no inherent purpose.. and are not substantiated through any external objective medium because such a thing is just not possible. Dig it? ... "reality" is NOT Possible. Only awareness of an appearance of reality is possible. 

. It’s not necessary to think about objects existing or not in relation to “worlds".. There can not be any worlds without objects because a world itself is an object. So it cannot be rightly said that a world can exist without an object..in the basic sense of what we know and define as an object.

Moreover.. any world in and of itself is not a singular entity. Even on a barren wasteland planet, there are a multitude of factors that combine to make up a landscape, each factor only maintaining a station due to its relativity to a series of neighboring contributing factors.

This brings us to the example of the simple tree. The tree is only a tree due to many many things that are not tree. The soil..the nutrients in the soil.. water..sunlight.. animal activity..seasons.. pollination.. and so on. And so this takes away the possibility that there may be a world with no objects at all, or even a world that contains only abstract objects. If the world is indeed a world, then just by meeting the criteria of being considered a world, then it cannot only contain abstract objects. An abstract world with abstract objects would be a more accurate possibility to consider. Such a world could be in your imagination right now..but to meet the definition of being an actual world..it would have to have the capacity of being experienced. Such a world could be said to exist in your dreams when you sleep at night..because you experience them existentially...yet they are completely abstract.. that is to say..you are not grounded there.. you have not laid down attachments to anchor you there with more density.

The methods to awakening is necessarily a destructive road. Our essential essence is what is real. And everything else that is added to this essential nature are false imagination . They are additions. Facades. So in order to find the original essential essence.. it is necessary to negate.. or subtract.. these false imaginations .
Let's subtract everything and anything that is not true reality.. that is.. the original essential essence.

Ponder this :

1. There could have been finitely many things.

2. For each thing
that thing might not have existed.

3. The removal of one thing does not necessitate the introduction of another.

4. Therefore, there could have been no things at all.
So how the fuck does any "thing" exist at all? Well that's the whole point. Nothing exists! At all!!
 

No “thing” exists independent of awareness. Things exist only existentially as they are being experienced . So it’s not a matter of things that could have been.. or might not existed. None of these possible concepts matter or have any relevance without an awareness of them
They cannot be actualized without such an agency. Taking away an object and not replacing it with anything of itself is incorrect. Any such object is not isolated.. nor does it’s underlying building blocks go anywhere if you take away its appearance. All appearances...fine or dense.. solid or flimsy are made of the same stuff. You could call it energy. Nothing new can be introduced with this.. nor anything taken away. Only projections made out of energy.. take on appearances and fade away.

So getting the attention stuck on appearances and then from this snapshot, postulating that you could take away these appearances one by one until you have an empty world.
is overlooking the underlying truth. A world cannot ever be considered empty. And taking away objects doesn’t take away anything other then an appearance. A better consideration would be, what would the removal of the energetic morphing substance that takes on the appearance of all things.. What would that leave in it’s absence?

Awareness or consciousness. The source of all things. And it  doesn't look like anything. It’s not energy. Its not empty. It’s not a void. It’s not an appearance. It’s not comparable to anything in your so called world. . And from this consideration. there is no thing existing anywhere. Consciousness just does what it does.. and it doesn’t rely on any of its manifestations to do what it does. And that's all.

Edited December 24, 2020 by Someone here

[Gesundheit]

Awesome insights, man! Thanks for sharing.

[Someone here]

@Gesundheit your welcome! 

[Someone here]

Why you don't see God????? 

First of all.. Recognize that you take this present moment for granted. Recognize the miracle right before your eyes that you take completely for granted. Because you think it came from a past via a mechanism somehow from somewhere at some when. All these are groundless. =the present moment is completely mysterious and unexplainable. It just is what it is. 

You think it's not fresh it's not the "first" present moment. But it is. Also you take it for granted because you have some nice bullshit stories that explain it away. You think you are living on a earth.. In some solar system.. In some universe.in some multiverse.. . In God knows where.   but you don't recognize that this infinite regress is indeed infinite. Which means you are again "nowhere". Just now here. 

Going in nature can be quite insightful. If you pet some trees. You can notice the connection between everything. You can see how these trees are literally yourself. Try to say hi to the trees as you walk past them. People will call you nutcase but say hi to them too

. Try to notice everything as yourself. It's easier to try this exercise in nature. Plants. Trees. Animals. Sea etc because these things are beautiful and attractive. Try to feel into the beauty of them and notice that this is YOUR beauty. This is your creation.  This is YOU Period. Now imagine If you can train this capacity to include the whole universe. Such that you cough love into everything. literally every piece of existence is yourself. It's one thing to hear this or to understand this and it's different to actually grasp this in your own experience via your own method. Do whatever it takes to get there but you gotta get there. 

[Someone here]

Do you need a body? You can exist without a body. You do that in deep sleep and you don't seem annoyed at all. But this body seems to bring you a trouble after a trouble isn't it? 

Edited December 26, 2020 by Someone here

[Someone here]

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[Someone here]

The most direct path to enlightenment is to simply realize that you are already enlightened. There is no path towards who you already are. 

 

Edited December 30, 2020 by Someone here

[Someone here]

As addition to that..  perfection is not found in the world of change. 

The ultimate.. Happiness.. Peace freedom.. Love.. Joy.. Perfection.. Etc what all of us deeply crave and is the ultimate aim of all our seeking is NOT found in the relative world. That is to say nothing in the world of time and space.. No object in time and space or feeling or experience no matter how fulfilling it is.. Is going to make you liberated. Because it's also subject to time. To impermanence. To loss. To time and space. Everything in the relative world.. Is relative! If one seeks the absolute one must step outside of time and space... Forget about the world of form all together forget about all your thoughts and judgments and likes and dislikes.. Meditation is the only way to go. Only through total and complete let go of one's sense of self and judgment is it possible to find perfection. The present moment already is perfect and it's never going to be anything else. The mind comes in and spoil that with judgements and fear to keep your ego alive. Which is the barrier to realize that you are already free.. Already perfect. Already whole and complete. 

[Someone here]

Value to work on :

Letting go of judgment. 

Noticing that everything is already perfect instead of constantly chasing to change our experience into a "better" one. 

It's necessary to adopt a serious spiritual practice to get there. One cannot achieve that through theory alone.a practice That constantly trains you to drop your sense of ego. I like the sufi /Islamic mysticism practices. The constant chanting and prayers  and uncontrolled body movements (including rotation) is supposed to give you an experience of losing your sense of self and oneness with your environment. So you are no longer the one who is chanting.. You become the chant itself. You are no longer the body that rotates.. You become the rotating itself. You become one with Allah. 

 

Edited December 31, 2020 by Someone here