Oh The Paradoxical Nature Of Human Interactions

[Heart of Space]

15 minutes ago, Mal said:

@Mal Dont play mind games with me.  I'm more than passive aggressive, I'm openly aggressive, especailly to fuck wits who try to use concepts they know nothing of to shame me or others for their own screw ups.

If you think I'm some kind of passive new age type who will take being walked over or had a problem with conflict, think again.

Here is the tread where your nightclub drunken asshole behaviour got the better of you.  You've already been suspended from here for posting nonsense.  I will happily hound your ass to get you banned from this site if you pull any more disrespect.

 

Nah, you're pretty passive aggressive and only now are you really becoming openly aggressive now that I pointed it out.  Anyone can go read your posts and see how you were putting on your holier than thou mask on when talking to me.  I poked holes in your mask and you became more and more aggressive and openly angry the more I did it. 

Who said you're a passive hippy?  I actually think you're pretty smart, you are just letting your anger towards me get the better of you. 

In terms of the thread you quoted.  Yea, I kind of spontaneously said that and it was out of lack of self-awareness that I said that.  I fully admit.  100% my own fault and no one else.  I should have just said:  "The elevation which one practices self awareness does not make ones perspective any more valid and I would like to hear the actual content of what is being said."  I made an error there.   But hey, I can take responsibility for myself.  Seems you struggle with that a bit as much as you like to make passing comments about how incredibly mentally developed you are.

And I have a question.  This is not an attack.  Are you kind of old?  Cause that would explain a lot. 

Edited June 25, 2016 by Heart of Space

[jjer94]

53 minutes ago, Mal said:

But, I'll ask again, can you calm down with the childish excessive profanity and nonsense about taking a dump please

 

12 minutes ago, Mal said:

I'm more than passive aggressive, I'm openly aggressive, especailly to fuck wits

 

12 minutes ago, Mal said:

Here is the tread where your nightclub drunken asshole behaviour got the better of you.

 

12 minutes ago, Mal said:

 I will happily hound your ass to get you banned from this site if you pull any more disrespect.

[Mal]

7 hours ago, Heart of Space said:

Don't delete them, Ayla.  It's fine.  Topic resumed. 

[Heart of Space]

@Mal Not sure what your point is.  That I changed my mind? 

Edited June 26, 2016 by Heart of Space

[Mal]

Again, I don't know where you get the idea that there are people walking around without a social persona, and that they don't respond negatively when their values are being direrespected? 

Perhaps in comic books you may find people like that. 

But, besides all that, what I see is a person in you who enjoys making people upset. That to me is narcissism. Going by the rest of your illogical behaviour too I would hasten my assessment of you is correct..

Now, it needent have been this way, as most mature and developed people don't test people for reliability to "see if their advice is worth listening to". That is a bit binary, most have something decent to share. 

Anyway, I am no longer going to keep you in your supply by feeding you more attention. 

Warmly

Mal 

[Heart of Space]

8 minutes ago, Mal said:

Again, I don't know where you get the idea that there are people walking around without a social persona, and that they don't respond negatively when their values are being direrespected? 

Perhaps in comic books you may find people like that. 

But, besides all that, what I see is a person in you who enjoys making people upset. That to me is narcissism. Going by the rest of your illogical behaviour too I would hasten my assessment of you is correct..

Now, it needent have been this way, as most mature and developed people don't test people for reliability to "see if their advice is worth listening to". That is a bit binary, most have something decent to share. 

Anyway, I am no longer going to keep you in your supply by feeding you more attention. 

Warmly

Mal 

I don't think there are people who lack a social persona.  It's just someone who heavily implies that they are "awakened" would have greater self-control over thoughts and feelings and not let it cause them to lash out in such a childish way as you did.  What did you call it again?  Oh yea, stuck in the development stage of the "terrible two's?"

And to be fair, you kind of sought this argument out after I annoyed you by constantly responding to me and acting childish in my threads.  I was ready to end this cordially several times, but you kept it going.  Did you get what you wanted out of this?  I hope so. 

Man I just flung so much poop with this post.  I'll be impressed if you don't respond.

Edited June 26, 2016 by Heart of Space

[Mal]

@Heart of Space 

It's fine that you think high development is about control when ones values are being disrespected. 

Development is about a widening of perspective.. You don't just get angry for the self, you get angry for all selves.  I've felt sorrow for you, anger, regret. All sorts. 

There's more emotion and values going on here, plus moments of no self, shadow work and coming to terms with disowned parts of myself too. 

There is a lot going on.  And I feel lots of emotions reading people posts. 

I'm not a paper person who sits on emotions. I'm developing myself. I'm sorry if that doesn't fit in with your schema. You might want to re-consider aborting development because you will feel MORE pain and sometimes lose it with all this going on. 

Sorry to disappoint.  The real goodies are I can feel more pain, but also at the same time transcend it.  But I'm no doormat, that's part of the territory of growing up, you don't let teenagers who know nothing of what you're trying to do walk over you.  

Mal

[Mal]

@Heart of Space

Another problem of what you're doing here is in my view you are destroying something.  You could have my help, but nobody who understands themselves will help a person who disrespects them. I still make this mistake today. I did it with Charlie because some of his words created strong reactions in me.  But he also helped me have an awakening a few days ago, I'm so grateful and also regretful. 

He may not help me out, that's a pill I have to swallow.  But on here I post my own experience and use it to journal, so what people are getting from me is genuine things from my moment to moment experience. That's high development and awakening.  Awakening is a process for me, it unfolds in stages.

The more I go over you messages the more I sense your rancour and belittling nature. I'm fine now, I talk from my heart and I'm at peace.  But of you think you can poke then brand on certain reactions then youre pretty clueless.  

Edited June 26, 2016 by Mal

[Heart of Space]

3 minutes ago, Mal said:

The more I go over you messages the more I sense your rancour and belittling nature. I'm fine now, I talk from my heart and I'm at peace.  But of you think you can poke then brand on certain reactions then youre pretty clueless.  

Nah, I'm done doing that.  Your last posts spoke from your heart and I can appreciate the honesty about your experience a lot actually. 

Can we stop being at each other now?  I'd prefer that. 

[key]

Can I just inappropriately tack on here and give you @Heart of Space & @Mal a round of applause *clap* *clap* 

Wonderful exchange of words, It was woefully beautiful, ultimatley meaningless, nevertheless entertaining, much mind goo.

Just again my highly inappropriate butting in, but Mal you're sounding more and more like Charlie lately. Heart, oh dear boy you are very very sneaky. It's wonderful! 

Yes my post is meaningless, no I don't expect a response, but language is such fun!

Regards

Another mind 

[Mal]

@Kenya Go away

[Heart of Space]

29 minutes ago, Kenya said:

Can I just inappropriately tack on here and give you @Heart of Space & @Mal a round of applause *clap* *clap* 

Wonderful exchange of words, It was woefully beautiful, ultimatley meaningless, nevertheless entertaining, much mind goo.

Just again my highly inappropriate butting in, but Mal you're sounding more and more like Charlie lately. Heart, oh dear boy you are very very sneaky. It's wonderful! 

Yes my post is meaningless, no I don't expect a response, but language is such fun!

Regards

Another mind 

I get the eerie feeling that everyone who visits this forum was reading this thread with a full bag of popcorn.  Glad me and Mal could create a little entertainment in your life. <3