My Nofap one month report

[Danioover9000]

I've accepted the Nofap for 90 days challenge because I used to watch porn/ had sexual fantasies and fapped 1-3 times a day. I wanted to know if all these benefits are either true or false. I'm posting what I've discovered for 42 days of hard-mode Nofap and I'll be posting weekly what I discover. Before the journey: I'm 25 years old, currently living in the UK. I sometimes feel ill once or twice a year. I exercise once a week. I suffer from laziness, fatigue, feelings of defeat and depression. I have little to no contact with people outside of my family, I'm introverted, I'm unable to focus or listen to people.

So far into the journey: I haven't felt ill at all, especially the cold I usually get in November-December time. I don't feel as lazy as I used to feel, I'm more productive. Feelings of defeat and depression are significantly reduced. While I somewhat still feel introverted, most people I come across I don't feel as bothered by. My ability to focus, listen and articulate my thoughts has significantly increased.

These are some of the benefits I thought were not possible to experience:

week 1: I felt more energy, confidence in myself and more sex drive. 2-3 days felt stressful, but I meditate my way through it.

week 2: I felt more energy, confidence, more mental clarity, more present, more appreciation of some things, felt more self-control.

week 3: I felt the horniest I've ever felt! I felt more energy, more confidence, more present, more mental activity, more grateful, more self-control, more willpower, I felt my dick and balls are larger, I felt more strength and endurance to the point I nearly injured myself doing too many exercises, more emotional, and less tired at night.

week 4: Overall the same benefits, except I feel stronger, endure more and feel pressure on my forehead. I felt more alert, present, and could visualize things more clearly, more grounded, more emotional, more happy, more mindful.

week 5: I felt more energy, more confident around people, less sexually aroused yet more random sexual feelings arise, more mental articulation, more joy in hobbies and life, more self-control, more discipline, and motivation. 

physical effects: I sometimes have harder, random erections are more sensitive and harder from random arousing thoughts. My hair feels smoother, my skin is slightly smoother.

Side effects: I felt I was going through a strange flatline, had weird dreams, I struggled to relax while sleeping, sleeping less, and I overdid most of my arms and some of my legs and core and had DOMS almost all over. And headaches, headaches everywhere! Been slightly lazier, depressed and had weird dreams.

Week 6: all the above, more amplified that it scared and amazed me a little. I really felt so much happiness, creativity, and proper philosophical to the point I could focus, contemplate, self-inquire and meditate so much more powerfully! I've lately picked up new habits like drawing, doing tai chi, and listening to new music. I usually don't like remixes, but lately I'm liking them, especially the Luna Remixes and that artist's music. I could easily create loads of stories and drawings and even start having ideas of making animations and not being bothered at all!

 

[Milos Uzelac]

Really glad for you that you accomplsihed the goal that you set for yourself and that has changed and helped you become a stronger, more caring, productive, creative and aware personality.  I broke a commitment and didn't accomplish a goal that I set for myself that I won't fap till the end of now last year when I relapsed 23rd of December 2019. after a month of basicly restraining myself not to cum, waste semen, cloud my mind, weaken willpower and overall body energy in order to avoid experiencing these costs for abusing my penis for instant gratification, on a journal on this forum thread. This happened because I cowered and panicked due to stress of being late for a college presentation on which I procrastinated on before and didn't effectively prepare and finish and wanted to escape from the stress and responsibility it by binging on porn that night. Since then I relapsed here and there these two weeks and tonight by faping twice on repressed sexual fantasies due to avoidance of thinking about stress and being focused and efficient in studying on an upcoming exam. 

I am asking you for a short advice If you have the time to answer on this relatively old thread what techniques and habits helped you stay on a committed path successfully this long and having the vision for you without needing mastrubation and not succumbing and being tempted to get instant gratification and pleasure when stressed? I personally have a sort of an anxiety of needing to start a a no fap commitment again in order to be able to be at all focused, last, reduce waste time and regret thought loops and be successful in  the whole next semestars plethora of new subjects and those that I transfered from last year in sociology that I study in college that include a lot of mathematics and being focused and committed on studying and being interested in understanding it. 

Also I feel that we are in a similar life position in terms of similar age I am 21 and in terms of having the most interactions and dependencies in and around family and relatives and personality wise since I am to quite introverted most of the time around and towards people (though I am becoming to see it as more not having much to share in terms of quality experiences and not thinking about and caring enough about other human beings and not taking their problems and struggles nearly enough in my life into account) and being dependent financially on my family (I don't know if thats the case with you if you are more mature and developed than me in that sense). 

I apologise for the long post If you have time to respond I would greatly appreciate it if not I completely understand this only a part of the issues that put myself into and haven't resolved yet this year to hear your advice and  more details on going and being committed on the no fap path for the last 6 months. 

Edited January 4, 2020 by Milos Uzelac