My brain is like "you will fail anyways eventually so why even try"

[saish]

Has anybody here drastically changed entire course of their life ? I mean like massive changes in life ? I want to change but I have tried in past so many times and failed that now my brain is like "I will fail anyways so why even try" and I just dont even try anymore. I want to quit porn I do that and then after a while I relapse. I have tried to quit it for last 4 years n failed. This has spilled in other areas of my life too. I just dont feel like working on myself or taking action cause it feels too much and I feel I will just fail anyways. I was a great student but now I am a mediocre I tried studying daily I did that few days n gave up . I can give many examples like that for exercising ,meditation ,reading etc. I meditated, exercised and reading for 2 years and gave up that too. I have seen so many failures that I just dont feel like doing anything cs I know I will fail.  How should I deal with this situation ? 

Edited June 15, 2019 by saish

[universe]

You are too hard on yourself.

Meditating for 2 years is great!

You need to be very inspired and motivated to fail many times.

 

What do you even want to change?

[Yasser]

There is no situation here 

there is just you being lazy. and giving up to yourself to keep up the default mode of living 

Leo never said it is easy 
the better thing to do, is to do daily programs and stick to it. 

trying to fix all things at once will certainly fail, I've been there, to an extent still in it

but to do list for every day works fine 

because it is just one day 

and it is not hard to complete the list.  while you're doing so everyday, you'll be happier by seeing the progress you're making, and luckily you'll become addicted to working on your list. because when you beat the day you'll feel satisfied