ken wilber integral spirituality

[daniel695]

i basically feel what his describing, i feel like when i think something it happens and i caused it. it basically feels like there no separation between me and the surrounding area around me like people, places, basically earth. so is my development level low because theirs not that feeling of separation. i feel like a doer   thats doing something. basically scared of my thoughts coming true when i perceive them as unfashionable. the core issue might be being scared of being different. as i was writing this post i did something and my brother gasped like "uhho" or "wow" and i interpreted the thing i did to be a bad thing. where is my development level.background information when i was on low medication i became aware of the duality we experience. like i became direct aware of duality, you know how people become aware of non duality well i became aware of non duality. it made sense but there was a lot of anxiety. it was almost like culture shock. have any of have or had direct awareness of duality?