meditating while getting a tattoo

[UNZARI]

like most people in america i live i very overly comfortable lifestyle. i have a strange obsession with fantasizing about suffering, not in a fetish type way lol but ill say to myself "i wonder what it would be like to get mugged right now?" cause i wanna go through and experience that pain TO LIVE.

anyway

after taking molly, acid, and shrooms my body has become very sensitive.

i went to a homies house to get a big tattoo on my chest. i had got my first tattoo months before and almost CRIED AND PASSED OUT from the pain. 

but after doing psychedelics and contemplating fear and pain, this time was different. as he starting tattooing me i just observed the pain. IT WAS EXCRUCIATING, but i didnt care at all, it was just there and i had no reaction.

my skin was bleeding cause this was a two session tattoo so this was the second day i was getting it, my skin was already irritated from the day before.

he said i was a gangster for not crying or passing out lmao. it really boosted my self esteem because im a very sensitive emotional guy

BUT I CAN TAKE SHIT HAHHAHAHAHAH 

Edited February 24, 2019 by UNZARI