I have abnormally low motivation

[tenta]

For the past 2 months I've been procrastinating, knowing what I should do, but not doing it, falling into negative thinking and having a pessimistic outlook my on life

I have also been thinking that maybe I will ever, ever change, and will be low willpower forever, regardless of my past times when this wasn't the case, I've also been feeling like if I don't do everything right, then I'm a failure and imagining successful people's lives as utterly effortless from start to finish, never having to put in effort, never doubting themselves, everything going smoothly while they have free, unlimited willpower effortlessly - meanwhile I feel too depressed and low on dopamine to do anything

[kingroboto]

Seems like just normally low motivation to me