Someone explain what just happen?

[d0ornokey]

I was in deep sleep, 3h of sleeping

Suddenly woke up

my ego goes " not now, not now, not now, why now why now"

my shadow is being shown to me 

so I go, perfect opportunity, "SHOW ME WHO YOU ARE. DIE" 

and i felt i got hit by a truck, and i regressed

i try again, and more excrutiating pain

i see who i am. its so scary. 

i literally cant handle it, and completely regress

i think i shoved it down, the pain was too great

i think i saw part of my deepest shadow. that bugger is fucking hidden. 

i actually dont want to recall what exactly i saw, as the pain was i think, the most intense ive ever felt. but if i had to guess, i think i was confronted with the fact that im insecure 

i questioned if i was alive after several times. i had to make sure by looking around

it felt like a near death exp. like i saw my life about to flash away

but it also felt like i was j looking at my shadow 

my left arm is a bit numb from the pain still

Edited June 27, 2018 by d0ornokey

[molosku]

No one can tell but you. One can only speculate. 

[Guest Quanty]

You had a glimpse of the real you, the shadow, the pain one feels when the matrix you creates for yourself in the body starts to melt down.

[d0ornokey]

so you think it was the truth? im thinking moreso, i saw my deepest secret about myself 

[Guest Quanty]

It will come a time when you will constantly have this experiences. 

As you go deep, you will notice that what you call now the truth is a walk in the park, was only a sensational point of view of the mind. 

It is very nice, go deep into your meditations. The truth will come every time you do it, in a new light, like an accumulating bank of precious jewels and stones.