Stopping To Unenlighten Myself

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Hi! 

 

It comes and goes!! 

 

Asking the right question?... 

 

"What do I do to stay in the awakened state? 

the right question is what makes more sense is to ask how you unenlightened yourself what is still held on to? what is still confusing? what can situations in life get you to believe things that aren't true and cause you to go into contradictions, suffering, and separation? what is it specifically that has the power to entice consciousness back?"- The End Of Your World  by adyashanti  

 

I realized recently that enlightenment ain't no joke. You have to be very strict with yourself. 

 

Ego is what I believe I am right now. When I sit to self-inquire, I reach my natural self, but it wears off as soon as I open my eyes. Why? because I unenlighten myself. 

 

"You harm yourself as dust thrown against the wind comes back at the thrower"- The Buddha 

 

Here is what the ego create: 

• Fear an anxiety; It is all related to my ego. I no longer have the same anxiety I used to have in the part, but there is still fear running in my system. 
• Anger, bitterness, violence, intolerance. 
• Feeling that life is unfair   
• Guilt 
• criticism and blame 
• Emotional pain   
• shyness and insecurity   
• boredom and loneliness 
• stress 
• addiction!!
• sexual misconduct 
• lying dishonesty 
• manipulative behavior 
• relationship problems 
• Working in the wrong job
• inability to love others 
• Not being able to be a benevolent force in the world   
• Dogma and ideology 
• obsessive thinking  
• Dying a sorry death      

 

Here is what I should do: 

1.   Stop watching the news, or at least if I want, I should do it consciously 
2.  Not getting distracted by youtube videos 
3.  Being mindful of the way my ego judges others, act in a superiority complex way, my fear.