A moment of no self?

[Lupe]

About a week ago I had this experience. Before going to therapy I went to the restroom, I think its important that i mention that directly from the toilet there is a mirror. As soon as sit to pee my usual experience of reality completely changes, like it shifted so quickly I suddenly froze and I just sat and watch, my thoughts were gone because its like i became shocked with being. I couldn't even recognize myself as I looked in the mirror. Like holy shit I remember being so still and everything fell away, everything! 

This wasn't a unifying experience for me were i recognized myself as everything. More like everything shattered so much, I didn't know who I was. 

Nothing existed in me during those moments, only after when I thought about how freaky and scary it was. Does this make sense?
 

what can I take from this? what does this mean?

 

Edited April 16, 2018 by Lupe