Lupe

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About Lupe

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  • Birthday 05/25/1998

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  1. About a week ago I had this experience. Before going to therapy I went to the restroom, I think its important that i mention that directly from the toilet there is a mirror. As soon as sit to pee my usual experience of reality completely changes, like it shifted so quickly I suddenly froze and I just sat and watch, my thoughts were gone because its like i became shocked with being. I couldn't even recognize myself as I looked in the mirror. Like holy shit I remember being so still and everything fell away, everything! This wasn't a unifying experience for me were i recognized myself as everything. More like everything shattered so much, I didn't know who I was. Nothing existed in me during those moments, only after when I thought about how freaky and scary it was. Does this make sense? what can I take from this? what does this mean?
  2. About a week ago I had this experience. Before going to therapy I went to the restroom, I think its important that i mention that directly from the toilet there is a mirror. As soon as sit to pee my usual experience of reality completely changes, like it shifted so quickly I suddenly froze and I just sat and watch, my thoughts were gone because its like i became shocked with being. I couldn't even recognize myself as I looked in the mirror. Like holy shit I remember being so still and everything fell away, everything! This wasn't a unifying experience for me were i recognized myself as everything. More like everything shattered so much, I didn't know who I was. Nothing existed in me during those moments, only after when I thought about how freaky and scary it was. Does this make sense? what can I take from this? what does this mean?
  3. sometimes I need to press my eyes together and open them back up, to make sure that what I am seeing is real. For example I was with some friends we we're all chatting having a good time, when suddenly I am distracted by what I see in the sky these infinite vibrations like waves in sky with settle color to it, when this happens I become stuck, wondering if anyone else sees what I see? because of my heavy starting even my friends asked "what are you staring at?", The sky was clear NOTHING was there, I sometimes see this movement in carpets, windows, and in tables , but in the sky the "vibrations" are very expressive, fast in movement going on forever... can anyone explain this? Does anyone experience this too?
  4. Thank you ALL for writing back (I'm new to the forum). I was anticipating the moment someone can give me answers or an explanation, I appreciate it everyone who took the time to write back.
  5. @Markus I will! Thank you friend!
  6. @Nahm I don't know why I get sad or depress after going through this. Perhaps my world is coming to an end. Who knows?
  7. @Vitamine Water LOL awe man that sucks your bro went through that! I will let Goofy (my dog) know you say hello! Thank you for writing back, I've definitely been thinking of the idea that maybe I'm experiencing a mini realization or an insight, but if that's true, I'm NOT enjoying it. It physically makes my head hut lol. I've never ever felt this way before. I have been meditating and practicing consciousness work for a year and some months now. I'm unsure if their is an association between them. I will practice what you recommended above by being the space that holds this odd experience. Thank you so much!
  8. For a while now I've been experiencing something I cant really explain, For instance Ill be out in nature walking my dog, and I literally feel like I'm in some dream that everything around me is unreal, tree, plants, animals, I could only imagine this is what sleep walking feels like. I don't feel like myself anymore and there's this resting sadness inside me, it causes my head to hurt. I'm unsure if all of these things are related. Is this normal? What am I going through? What can I do? Someone help!.