Insights and Ramblings: My Path to Enlightenment

[Raptorsin7]

@ZenBlue How did you break through?

[ZenBlue]

@Raptorsin7  This comes from years and years of personal development work. Even before I found actualized.org and Leo Gura, I was working on my personal development. I studied from various people and absorbed a lot of content from all over the web. The beauty of the Internet is that we have so much information freely available. Yes, this includes sifting through the hordes of bullshit to find the nuggets of gold. Kind of like a prospector sifts through a lot of dirt and sand before he strikes gold. Yes, the path is dangerous and uncertain, but have faith that truth always finds a way to rise to the top. Oil does not mix with water. Cream rises to the top

Although there are no shortcuts for hard work, there are so many great teachers out there to help guide us and point us in the right direction. I don't tout Leo Gura as an all knowing master, but I do highly respect his knowledge and wisdom. I take it all with a grain of salt because there is only a nugget of truth in all the teachings presented to us. Leo has created a great guiding point and community in Actualized.org. Make no mistake though, this is not an end all, be all haven of wisdom and knowledge. Actualized.org is only a guiding point. We still have to do the hard work and go within ourselves.

I highly respect and love Actualized.org for what it is, but please do not get stuck here. Go beyond and keep exploring. Never stop learning. Learn to trust your inner voice and you will be guided in the right direction. I still have a long road ahead of me, but the journey is absolutely f****** amazing

[Raptorsin7]

@ZenBlue I asked how you had that specific break through.

You didnt have the breakthrough prior to the breakthrough, so clearly you did something in that space.

What did you do specifically?

Edited April 29, 2020 by Raptorsin7

[ZenBlue]

@Raptorsin7  I have had many small breakthroughs and insights in the prior years. This is one of my biggest breakthroughs yet. Every time I breakthrough, at some point I lose consciousness and go back to low consciousness behavior. Every time I break through it seems to be a little more profound and lasts a little longer. I keep up with my mindfulness practices and constantly learn new things to bring myself back to awareness.

I have been repeating this process of breaking through, then going unconscious, then breaking through again... I don't know how long I'll remain conscious this time, but I am fully enjoying every moment of it

If it helps:

I have been meditating regularly for the past 4 years. I have also consistently been learning new things for the past the 15 years. For at least the past 15 years, I have never had year where I didn't learn something new.

I can't pinpoint to a specific thing I did to get this current breakthrough. I believe it's a culmination of all my years of hard work.

Edited April 29, 2020 by ZenBlue

[ZenBlue]

@Raptorsin7 To try to make it more precise:

I achieved my current breakthrough with a combination of many different things. There isn't one specific thing and this is the result of many years of hard work paying off.

Things I've done:

- Meditate regularly for the past 4 years and still doing it.
- Learning new things no matter how small it may seem, every single year for at least the last 15 years. (Never stop learning and growing).
- Studied and focused on personal development for at least 10 years. Didn't take it very seriously until the last 5 years. The last 5 years is where I've experienced the most growth.

I can't say this will work for you, but use it as a guideline and keep trying various things. Something you do in your life is bound to be very effective. The key is to do it with consistency.

I'm still a work in progress, and I will keep going. Can't wait to see where I am at 10 years from now, and 20 years from now.

[ZenBlue]

Bonus: Also growth aids... I used some psychedelics spread out over the years to make a great impact. Psychedelics alone is not enough, but provide a great way to assist in achieving deeper breakthroughs. Use with caution as there are pitfalls and psychedelics are not the answer that will give everything. They are merely tools that aid your growth.

[ZenBlue]

7/11/2021 - Sunday

Recently I have begun to step into stage yellow. I am not solidly yellow yet, as I still have to integrate large parts of stage orange and stage green as well.

Here is my 10 year vision: For the next 10 years, I am focusing on fully integrating stage orange, and stage green to build a solid foundation. I will also work to break past yellow and go into stage turquoise.

I plan to continue meditating regularly as I have been. I will also look to take more psychedelics and plan some solo meditation retreats throughout the years.

As of right now, I am mostly focused on fully integrating stage orange. I am addressing the shadow parts that I have pushed away from me when I was in stage green.

Watching Leo's videos really fucked me up for a while. Over 4 years ago, I was happily in stage orange and finally had my first breakthrough with business success. I was running a drop shipping e-commerce business, and I got it from 0 to over $130k in revenue in the span of 6 months. At the same time though, I was still continuing to watch Leo's videos and put a lot of what I learned into practice.

I had to face the truth that the business model I was using was just exploiting a gap in the marketplace and did not add much value. The thing is, I had dreamed about building a location independent business for years. Something that didn't require me to work long hours, and would bring me a decent amount of money while not forcing me to be tied down to any location. Finally, I had it. I even was networking and had a small mastermind group with me and 3 other people. I also had hired 1 virtual assistant, and had developed a good relationship with my main supplier.

Despite my progress and what I had built, I felt so hollow and empty inside. I could not continue to run the business, and I shut it down. I then went into the dark night of the soul. This could have easily become a multi-million dollar business, but yet I still shut it down. My finances weren't even good. I even regressed financially and made some stupid decisions that put me in a lot of debt. It kind of tormented me for while. I had no logical explanation for why I put such a financial burden on myself.

Then I guess this pushed me into stage green. I then identified closely with empaths as they are in stage green. I started diving deeper into tarot, numerology, astrology, and all kinds of new age mysticism. At some point I emerged from the dark night of the soul and then I manifested a really cool and fun job. I did that for about a year and then left.

I spent some time being compassionate and empathetic towards others. I almost felt like I was overly people pleasing and even felt emotionally needy at times. Part of this felt foreign and wrong to me, but this really did help soften me up a bit. Then recently through some personal events, I snapped out of this and my paradigm shifted into stage yellow.

Now I am learning more about systems thinking, and I have actually spent many years prior studying multiple perspectives and integrating little nuggets of wisdom and truth into a bigger picture perspective. I feel a bit more emotionally detached from people and society now. I'm immersing myself into my own little world.

So now I'm looking at business from a systems perspective and moving beyond the stage orange of competition and exploitation. I am following a stage yellow business course and I'm really looking to build something of value this time. I'm less focused on just earning lots of money, and looking to solve problems and get money as a by product of the value I provide.

I'm going back to stage orange to meet my materialistic needs and to also embrace and embody the shadow parts that I have denied in the past.

Edited July 11, 2021 by ZenBlue