Emotions/Feelings Journal

[JKG]

18/01/14

slightly angry and pissed off

tired

excited, inspired

refreshed, creative

bored, procrastinating, getting no shit done, no motivation, cant this exam just be over??

I want more free time!

loved

what the hell am I doing here??

cheerful, funny

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[JKG]

18/01/15

glad that I was slightly more productive today, especially in the morning

chatting is still a big distraction - but you gotta make compromises. thats frustrating sometimes

worried, relieved

astonished how much shit is going on in my head

very grateful

bored

glad that I didnt get suck in traffic

full - too much food for dinner

glad I am home now and can do something not related to uni

overall an average okay day

 

what I listened to most of my day...

 

Edited January 15, 2018 by JKG

[JKG]

18/01/16

almost hit rock bottom, sorry, almost fucked up everything, what the hell have I done?, stupid, silly, immature person, self-doubts

relieved, cried

felt like at the calm after the storm all day

glad I could do my programming assignment well

happy, loving, loved, excited

mentally exhausted, academically stupid, I understand nothing, slight stress and panic about math exam

grateful

tired

[JKG]

18/01/17

very very happy, loving, loved

my body felt very warm throughout the day, almost no cold

concentrated, exhausted from studying, annoyed from studying

being completely elsewhere in my head, couldnt focus on what I was doing, but totally excited

alive, energized

hurried

bored, tired, full

 

song of the day...

 

[JKG]

18/01/18

lazy, couldnt get out of bed

unproductive, very distracted

glad I could do some programming work, and not JUST math

weird, cause I didnt get out of the house today

energized, hot, weird feeling in my "forhead"

overwhelmed by all kinds of stimuli

headach, numb

annoyed

uncertainty

I didnt get much done, although I had all day free... time is running away

 

some thoughts: whom can I trust? what the hell can I be certain about in this life? how can I know? anything is possible. the need for certainty... I could be hurt so easily so massively through trusting the wrong person. how can I know? its all in my head. It all could be a massive illusion. I want to be certain that I can trust. but I cant. everything is possible. open up to everything. massive joy, or massive pain and depression. ill probably learn from both experiences.

 

"Bist du auch so verliebt?
Meine Lust will, dass es uns ewig gibt
Und so singt sie ein Lied und noch ein Lied
Auf, dass es uns ewig gibt

...

Klatscht ihr brav im Takt, he?
Seid ihr vergnügt, he?

...

So wunderbar, Spiel und Brot für die Massen ja!

...

Lang lebe der Tod!
Lang, lang, lang, lang lebe der Tod!
Unser täglich Brot, lang lebe der Tod!
Lang, lang, lang, lang lebe der Tod!

...

Und wie mein Herz vor Liebe fast verglüht
Schau, wie der Frühling heute blüht!"

Edited January 18, 2018 by JKG

[JKG]

18/01/19

the morning went okay, was optimistic for the day

I was a bit annoyed that I made myself breakfast in a study break. I wouldnt have needed breakfast. and it took away some of my study time.

glad with my day at uni. aced my programming test!

alive and refreshed after the gym

happy and at peace on the drive back home

studied all evening relatively productive. it was more "fun" because I did exercises where you could actually calculate something. not just sitting in front of proofs that I dont understand.

I almost reached my high study goal of today. very glad about that.

it was a good, normal day.

 

listened all evening to...

 

[JKG]

18/01/20

woke up in the middle of the night, could fall asleep again, so I was very tired all day

felt good and productive in the morning, math was a bit more fun

fresh air and light exercise outside makes me energized

happy

slightly overstimulated

became very unproductive, and ate too much, which makes me feel guilty and stuck

irritated and stressed from my environment

very tired and lazy

 

listened all night to...

 

[Dragallur]

@JKG Whoa! Back in with a journal, nice