How omnipresence is absolute tranquility

[Mixcoatl]

I've decided that it was time to do it for once. I took three pipes and filled them with bufo alvarius. 

The first pipe:

I started to feel how I was losing my mind, how everything was melting and becoming fractal-like. I was scared as fuck. My hands were shaking while I was still lighting the pipe. I felt like I was dying. Some part of me was still being aware of my room and my body.

The second pipe:

I started to see the pipe as if it was dimensionless, it was still in my hands but it had no size, it was just being, in that moment I stopped to know that I was mixcoatl, you know, it's like I was still there but I was not Mixcoatl anymore. I felt how everything became an infinite field of consciousness, only experience, with no owner. I couldn't distinguish what what's that object for.

The third pipe:

My room fully disappeared and a mixture of experiences appeared. It was like I was seeing but there were no eyes to see that, rather, it was like visions and thoughts just appearing... Suddenly I was fully aware of my entire life, I was living every second of my life, everything at once. I was aware of every person in my life, all of them at the same time, but they weren't entities like I perceive them in sober state, they were appearing in myself, I was totally aware how they were mind... I recognized how I was omnipresent, not in space, not in time, but EVERYTHING was occurring in me and I was occurring as these things were happening. There wasn't any kind of judgement or definition of the things that were occurring. I felt the most absolute tranquility and peace ever and there was not worry at all... There was not an agenda to fulfill, no one missing to know, nothing to worry about... 

I was complete... And it was the most beautiful thing! 

For the first time ever, I felt the nothingness. How there was nothing behind these experiences happening... How actually those experiences are made of nothing. I was that nothing. 

No distinction between anything. When it manifests is like it knows thyself... And it's the truest thing that can be.

Since then, I'm trying to bring to my life this beauty and tranquility to my life by knowing that no matter what happens, everything will be perfect and complete forever.