So what exactly is God?

[Mellowmarsh]

@Someone here Thank you for taking the time out to respond to me, and for your support, I appreciate the feedback.
However, what does all this self inquiry and spiritual seeking serve, except to lead up a path to nowhere, to me it’s just a mindless self soothing pointless exercise of longing and desire for endless pleasure from the brains reward system that we seem to live for, like we’re only living for the next dopamine hit, which is always temporary and mostly underwhelming and unsatisfying anyway. We were taught about the brain’s reward system as children and it looks like we haven’t grown out of needing it to be triggered throughout adulthood.

So it doesn’t matter what we say about all this stuff, no matter how much we dress this up with our fancy imaginations, what does anything we say about how we think the mind works or what we think reality is all about matter anyway, how does any of this change anything, when we are the species that has become self aware enough to know that everything that lives is just going to die anyway. So is that why we just invent something to comfort us, like God.

[Sugarcoat]

11 minutes ago, Mellowmarsh said:

@Someone here Thank you for taking the time out to respond to me, and for your support, I appreciate the feedback.
However, what does all this self inquiry and spiritual seeking serve, except to lead up a path to nowhere, to me it’s just a mindless self soothing pointless exercise of longing and desire for endless pleasure from the brains reward system that we seem to live for, like we’re only living for the next dopamine hit, which is always temporary and mostly underwhelming and unsatisfying anyway. We were taught about the brain’s reward system as children and it looks like we haven’t grown out of needing it to be triggered throughout adulthood.

So it doesn’t matter what we say about all this stuff, no matter how much we dress this up with our fancy imaginations, what does anything we say about how we think the mind works or what we think reality is all about matter anyway, how does any of this change anything, when we are the species that has become self aware enough to know that everything that lives is just going to die anyway. So is that why we just invent something to comfort us, like God.

No problem, I am also gaining something from expressing myself these days so my replies are for me too

I can see what youre saying. In these past months ive been more natural , doing things im drawn to, and I also wasn't writing on this forum for a while. So that can be a way to take a break from this stuff, because Im guessing you may feel a little stuck in these mental loops.  For me, I used to kinda make effort in my mind to try to articulate things, but then I felt its better to be more natural , and let it come naturally , so now when im writing this stuff it doesn't feel heavy, if you see what im saying . 

 

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[Mellowmarsh]

17 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Im loving your reply right now, thats really genuine and aware expression

What youre saying about life being mysterious void to you, perhaps that is more spiritual than the state you were in when you convinced yourself of those ideas. So youre maybe not at all missing out on that spirituality you feel "Fomo" about , but rather the opposite.

But ofc feeling empty could be of different quality, for example as I mentioned before as a child I felt unsettling emptiness, but it wasn't of spiritual quality if you could say that. So thats something to consider , can be hard to tell

I can relate to you in that last paragraph actually. I also had these disturbing feelings about reality as a child. I would visualize "eternity" and feeling disturbed at the idea that we stuck in eternal existence (forced to be conscious basically). And as I said before, just feeling disturbed in that sensation of existing, as you said, and thinking "in a way it would be better if it was just eternal sleep, no suffering"

I was taught religion as a child, but I remember how even as I child, I was aware to to some degree that I didn't actually believe that, but that I used prayer as a way to seek comfort to cover the disturbing sense. 

Personally I feel that these kind of expressions, where we are really expressing what we´re feeling and thinking deep down (could be thinking them to ourselves too), that in itself can relieve some of the negativity already. Because it's almost like you are asserting yourself in reality, connecting to yourself or something when youre authentically expressing 

: )

 

 

Thanks Sugarcoat I totally resonate with everything you’ve said here. Appreciate listening to your input and wisdom on these matters.
It’s comforting to know others feel that terror of being a full conscious sentient feeling being. Some people just suppress the raw truth, but I wasn’t going to be like that, I was always going to look I the raw unfiltered truth straight in the eye and deal with it the only way I knew how, and that was to not deny it. Not pretend it was pretty or worth the price of admission.

[Mellowmarsh]

55 minutes ago, Someone here said:

Because direct experience is direct experience.

 

[Sugarcoat]

1 hour ago, Mellowmarsh said:

Thanks Sugarcoat I totally resonate with everything you’ve said here. Appreciate listening to your input and wisdom on these matters.
It’s comforting to know others feel that terror of being a full conscious sentient feeling being. Some people just suppress the raw truth, but I wasn’t going to be like that, I was always going to look I the raw unfiltered truth straight in the eye and deal with it the only way I knew how, and that was to not deny it. Not pretend it was pretty or worth the price of admission.

Thats nice to hear. Yes I think that shows high awareness, in particular high self awareness (how i've experienced it) .