11 Attempts of 5-MeO-MALT - Trip Reports

[ZenSwift]

11 Attempts of 5-MeO-MALT - Trip Reports

Date: July 24th 2023 - May 26th 2024

I want these trip reports to serve as documentation of my commitment to the psychedelic process. 

Table of Contents:

• 5-MeO-MALT Trip 0001
• 5-MeO-MALT Trip 0002
• 5-MeO-MALT Trip 0003
• 5-MeO-MALT Trip 0004
• 5-MeO-MALT Trip 0005
• 5-MeO-MALT Trip 0006
• 5-MeO-MALT Trip 0007
• 5-MeO-MALT Trip 0008
• 5-MeO-MALT Trip 0009
• 5-MeO-MALT Trip 0010
• 5-MeO-MALT Trip 0011

Preface before going into 5-MeO-MALT

I have to remind myself that 5MEOMALT may not work for me. May not be safe for me. And I must go slow and cap it at a point where it seems unsafe. Not to be worried, but to be informed. 

 

5-MeO-MALT Trip 0001 - I got nothing.

Date: July 24th 2023

Dose: Plugged 1/2 a level 5-10mg microscoop.

I eyeballed splitting it in half, like a boss.

Did 2 enemas beforehand. Basically overkill. I think fasting and taking a dump is adequate.

Intention: What is the True Nature of Reality?

Time: Taken at 2:25pm

Plugged the first half at 0.6ml mark on the syringe

18 minutes in - Subtle floor breathing?

42 minutes in - This ain't shit.

Plugged 2nd half @3:21pm, an hour in from the first dose. Plugged at 0.4ml mark on the syringe

1 hour in - Subtle waves in the popcorn ceiling maybe? Subtle squeezing in the visual field. 

1h 30min - Maybe feeling an onset? Pressure in the head?

2h ain't feeling shit.

End of report.

Post report: Yeah this was a dud. I am disappointed. Might just need to dose much more of the substance. Assuming the ROA is correct, because I have plugged LSD before and it worked phenomenally.

 

5-MeO-MALT Trip 0002

Date: July 25th 2023

Attempt 1 out of 2

Dose: Snorting 3/4 of a micro-scoop of 5-MeO-MALT. (5-10mg scoop, supposedly)

Time: Taken at 8:18AM - Feeling the subtle tingling in my nose.

33 minutes - snorted the rest of the scoop. So now there is 1 scoop total in my nose.

• Felt the tingling burning sensation in my nose.
• Feeling dizzy, lethargic, light headed. Certainly feeling LESS conscious, not more.
• Feeling a bit nauseated and sick to my stomach a bit. I would very likely throw up if I tried to eat. 
• Nose bleeding a tiny bit.

4h 30 min - I feel completely back to normal.

 

Attempt 2 out of 2

Dose and time: Plugging 1.5 scoops at 12:51PM (1 scoop = 5-10mg supposedly)

• Slightly uncomfortable to plug some liquid.
• Feeling a tiny bit of activation in my brain. Specifically at a concentrated point like in the center front. Kinda hard to point to.
• Nothing yet. Subtle visuals of squeezing in the ceiling. That's it.

End of Report.

 

5-MeO-MALT Trip 0003

Date: July 26th 2023

Dose: Okay so let's try plugging 2.5 scoops.  Supposedly 5-10mg each scoop, (But I'm calling BS)

Time: Plugged at 11:56AM

Pictured: 2.5 Small-Yellow micro-scoops in a spoon.

21 minutes - Feeling an onset.

30 minutes - There is definitely something activating.

• Feeling of stimulation in the brain. But no notable effects beyond that feeling of stimulation/activation in the center of my head.
• My experience was just 3 hours of that subtle feeling of pressure in my head.
• I'm pretty darn sure that you wouldn't easily overlook the effects of this psychedelic. The desired effects are not taking effect.

The effects that I DO FEEL I feel are timed exactly as I expect 5meomalt would.

• 20 minute wait to feelings of an onset - Check!
• 4 hours later, I'm no longer feeling anything at all. - Check!

I suspect that I'm not taking nearly enough, as the bag is only 100mg, and I haven't made much of a dent in it as I should've by now.

Perhaps I just have a crap batch? Perhaps it expired? The substance is a year old since I've received it. Just stored it in my closet, no special leaving it in the freezer or anything.

End of Report.

 

5-MeO-MALT Trip 0004 

Date: July 27th 2023

Dose: 5 Small Yellow microscoops (pictured)

According to my scale of weighing the bag before and after, this is 9mg.

Time: Dissolved in water and Taken @2:28pm

• Subtle squeezing in the ceiling.
• I’m definitely feeling something, but nothing is blowing my mind yet.
• No cool psychedelic effects, just pressures in my head impacting my ability to focus and whatnot.
• Maybe like 1/10 high but like no desirable effects are actually present.
• I'm going to shelf 5-MeO-MALT for now, and I also ran out of supervision time for now.
• I think I'll try smoking half a scoop at some point just to see if the batch is good at all. I'm highly skeptical that I am THAT tolerant to 5-MeO-MALT.
• I have 2g of 5-MeO-DMT, I would rather go take a micro-scoop of that and get my mind blown more reliably.

End of Report.

5-MeO-MALT Trip 0005 

New batch from a different source.

The powder is white instead of brown.

Reagent testing checks out.

Date: August 29th 2023

Dose: Did 1 Red microscoop. It dissolved well in water.

Time: Plugged at 12:01

Intention: What is the True Nature of Reality?

• 7 minutes in - Possible tingling sensation
• 12 minutes - An uncomfortable feeling, an unease?
• 15 minutes - Felt a zing of activation. Feeling a tingling sensation in the brain.
• 20 minutes - Feeling a tingling and sensitive feeling.
• The dose is still too low. 

End of Report.

 

5-MeO-MALT Trip 0006

Date: Sept 4th 2023

Dose: 2 red microscoops of 5-MeO-MALT

Time: Plugged at 5:30pm. Last meal was at 9-10 AM today

• I’m experiencing brain activation definitely going on, but nothing is blowing my mind.

39 minutes - I’m definitely experiencing things. Possible elevation in mood, increased sensitivity in emotion. My brain is being tingled right now. Feels metallic.

So I was getting high, and it was hard to focus. Experiencing sensitivity, tingled/spongled brain sensations, mood enhancement, immersion enhancement.

End of Report.

 

5-MeO-MALT Trip 0007

Date: September 20th 2023

Dose: 3 Red Microscoops of 5MEOMALT

Intention: What is Actuality? What is the True Nature of Reality?

21 minutes - Kicking in. I’m getting that rushing water feeling when you're high. As if a firehose of water 3 meters in diameter is directly pointed at you and in front of you. 

Overall, nothing profound happening at all here in this trip.

End of Report.

 

5-MeO-MALT Trip 0008

Date: October 23rd 2023

Dose: 5 red Scoops of 5-MeO-MALT

Time: Plugged at 6:47pm

Intention: What is God? What is Reality? What is the true nature of reality?

Start of Report: So I'm an hour in, I'm definitely High but nothing is blowing my mind, I’m not even experiencing a psychedelic state like you would have on psilocybin or LSD. I don't think I'm experiencing any creativity enhancement or anything like that. I am acutely aware of the shadows I see as I walk around. Kind of feeling like I'm walking in a soup.

1h 26min - Subtle Visuals of squeezing in the popcorn ceiling.

End of Report

 

5-MeO-MALT Trip 0009 

> Trip Report is not found. Dose was 8 micro-scoops.

> Nothing of note, more of the same. 

 

5-MeO-MALT Trip 0010

Date: May 22nd 2024

Moving on to the Big Yellow Scoop

Last trip attempt was 8 red Scoops. 

A single big yellow scoop appears to be 2 red scoops. 

For this attempt, I will try 4 leveled Yellow Big Scoops. 

Dose: 3 Big Yellow Scoops of 5-MeO-MALT HCL. 1/2 Tablespoon with AAA and AA Battery for size reference. (Pictured)

I anticipate this to be as uneventful as last time, as this should be equal to the dose that I took last time.

Time: Taking at 8:20. 8:20 p.m. and my ass immediately Burns. I've been fasting for 5 hours.

Intention: What is God, what is love, what is truth? 

What the fuck am I doing? What the fuck am I doing in reality if I do not design my life perfectly how I want to live it? Every day is an opportunity to beautifully orchestrate and design my life to be beautifully designed with a path of my choosing.

Really really fucking high right now. 26 minutes in. Getting Visuals of squeezing. 

> CLEARLY, I was still sober enough to write.

34 minutes - Moving in the hardwood floors

To even have a form is to make yourself forget that you are an infinite power.

My body is shaking a bit. 

What is Selfish? Self-ish? 

There is no orientation in reality. It's like zero gravity.

Meaning reveals itself when parts of your self starts to die. You see the REAL footholds of what is holding your life together. 

I need to challenge myself to focus on reading everyday. That will teach me a lot if I can learn to read for an hour a day. That will teach me a lot about life and how to organize my life to get that done.

 

1h 58 minutes - I am noticing very significant visuals in the wooden floor. Squeezing, moving floor. It looks like pretty much all psychedelics have visuals for me. Noticing visuals of when I look at the mirror. I'm experiencing full on projection of imagery of visuals on the floor if I just sit and stare for too long. This reminds me of N,N-DMT, even though I haven't experienced N,N-DMT before. Definitely nothing is blowing my mind yet. But I can say for the first time I'm actually getting high. 

 

It appears that Life purpose is less a fixed truth and more a surrender to what you are. It functions as a construct that gives direction rather than an objective mandate. People often define purpose through what they feel most attuned to, yet attunement itself is shaped by choice and practice. Purpose is not found but continuously enacted through what you decide to cultivate. (chatGPT assisted for clarification)

I know in my heart that I am a teacher. And I want to be teaching people deep lessons about themselves such that they can strengthen themselves for the challenge of life ahead.

 

I have had desires to master art, but if I was a digital artist, I would not be satisfied. I would be leaving so much on the table. It wouldn’t align with the value I truly wanted to create. If I just mastered digital art for example, I feel like my capacity to contribute to others would be greatly diminished. I believe my greatest capacities lie in an ability to teach others how to master the flow of life. Like a Leo Gura / Wayne Dyer type. 

I do wonder if my need to be a therapist is just my need for connection.

 

I still wonder: What if I genuinely took on working out as a hobby? 

Like I named it as my hobby and I actually went to science on it.

Took on bodybuilding as a serious hobby…

 

I'm at the point right now that: 

I realize that the only way I'm going to go further is out of a raw desire for truth itself. 

 

Say the trip felt like a persistent background anxiety, but I’m familiar enough with that state that it didn’t stand out much. What really stood out was the mental fog. My thoughts were jumpy, scattered, distracted. There was no real focus. I wasn’t sitting and meditating or deliberately attending to my experience, and that probably explains most of it. I was just walking around, passively taking things in. (chatGPT assisted for clarity)

If I were to do this again, I’d keep the exact same dose but radically change the approach. The emphasis would be almost entirely on stillness, sustained meditation, direct observation, and intentional contemplation. I did listen to Leo’s guided exercise about realizing you are God, and hearing it now lands differently. In an earlier trip, I had very intense glimpses into solipsism, but this time there was none of that. Mostly because I wasn’t actually focusing on anything. (chatGPT assisted for clarity)

What did come through strongly was the sense that waking reality itself is a dream. That recognition was intense and honestly terrifying, and I noticed myself immediately distracting away from it. (chatGPT assisted for clarity)

 

At this point kind of at an interesting Crossroads presents itself: Where if I continue to keep going and push higher doses, contemplate and do more on these pure ego dissolving substances, then I have to do it out of a serious love for truth and I have to be ready to let go of all my Illusions in reality. For me at least so far, I don't get any extreme creativity boost or anything like that like you would get on psilocybin. For me, I can take 5 grams of psilocybin mushrooms and have a lot of reliable good insights just from taking a dose and even with no plan at all. Whereas I feel like with this substance you have to absolutely be dialed in and focused and not distract yourself at all to really get the juice out of it. This psychedelic is not going to throw you into the abyss, you have to walk off yourself, it just grants me the ability to do it. 

> Upon Reflection in December 2025, this interpretation was just missing that my dose was just too low. If I had a proper dose to send me properly, I wouldn’t necessarily have to focus, because the psychedelic would hit me like a train. That does not negate the fact that focusing your consciousness still appears to be important with your trips. 

 

There may be a lingering sense of ego death or something that was creating the anxiety because of course anxiety is just a defense mechanism from the ego dying, some part of the ego construct dying. And that did instigate a lot of much more serious thought about my life and like what the fuck am I doing. It makes me think how I want to enter a volunteer position doing hospice to just get some brutal reality of what it's like to be at the end of your life that will serve some really good self reflection for me. 

 

At this point, I’m experiencing a fear that using these ego-dissolving substances will also dissolve what little motivation I already have, since productivity is something I already struggle with. That fear sits right at the center of the crossroads I keep returning to. If the illusion of reality really drops away, it feels like you also lose a reason to participate. You’re no longer driven like some productivity god. But the truth is, that mode is already mostly gone for me. What I actually want now is to surrender to whatever this ego is genuinely satisfied doing and commit to it fully, almost like a religion. To put it at full tilt and master a craft through daily, deliberate effort. What I want is steady movement toward mastery. Real progress every day, not the feeling of standing still. My biggest issue has been fragmentation. My focus keeps splitting between writing, YouTube, life coaching, or sometimes abandoning everything altogether. With too many options, none of the needles move. I end up stalled by choice itself. (ChatGPT Assisted for clarity)

 

It's crazy to see how Clarity Works where I'll be clear on something but then I'll deconstruct it and I won't be clear about it, but then I'll learn to reconstruct it again with a stronger foundation and then I'll be even more clear than ever that that is what I want to do with my life. 

I keep circling the question of what truths I actually want, and whether that is even something I get to choose. Can I decide which truths to face, or do they just impose themselves? Part of me wonders if I could choose a hard truth on purpose. To stop distracting myself with ideas of success and instead fully own my difficulty coping with being alone. To let that be the work. (ChatGPT Assisted for clarity)

Another part of me wonders whether I should go all in on the enlightenment path. To push toward awakening, where reality is said to become pure magic and beauty. I genuinely don’t know which direction is honest. It feels like a chasm I can’t think my way across. At some point, I have to step into it and find out directly. (ChatGPT Assisted for clarity)

Whatever reality turns out to be, if it’s true, I’ll eventually have to learn to stomach it. It seems better to do that sooner rather than later. This body is going to die anyway. Waiting until the final years, living in a constant fear of death, feels like postponing something inevitable. If it has to be faced, I might as well start now. (ChatGPT Assisted for clarity)

 

Another note, my anus has definitely bled a little bit from the burning of the salt in my anus. 

The burning of the salt of the psychedelic has made shitting very uncomfortable, so uncomfortable that I start hoping that all these attempts are all worth it, and it's not just a fucked up prank while you're burning your ass every couple weeks trying to see God.

 

I am pretty aware now that I genuinely don't know if this process would bear fruits as promised by many. 

 

For all I know, “Awakening” could be a fucking terrible thing and just put me in a consistent world of pain. I literally at this point can only pursue “Awakening” with a genuine hunger for understanding of what the fuck reality actually is in it's true nature. I have to be willing to bear whatever costs that pursuit comes with. I have to be willing to bear the costs of truth seeking. No fantasy of flowery awakening promises will actually push me through.

 

Going forward, I have to dose 5-MeO in the morning, as I will have taken the psychedelic 7 hours ago, and there I am with a burning ass at 3:00 a.m., pretty much still wired awake.

 

At one point, I was looking at the back of my hand and it looked mysterious and alien.

End of Report.

 

5-MeO-MALT Trip 0011

Date: May 26th 2024

Dose: This dose is 4 Big Leveled Yellow scoops. I made sure to firmly pack down the powder into the scoop. Apparently it's roughly 15mg per scoop. See Picture.

Time: Taken at 1:55pm

 

The first 5 to 10 minutes was the most uncomfortable feeling in my ass of 2024. Kind of burning and just feeling that I need to shit type deal. All the while getting really high really quickly.

I think I can mix it with something in the future to avoid burning. 

The dose may be more because I ensured it was firmly packed. Super uncomfortable sensation in the ass I just want to shit right now. 

 

28 minutes - REALLY HIGH

I'm as fucked as the rest of you guys. I just have a wider lens of insight in some areas. 

50 minutes in - Came off a 20 minute phone call and grounding with my mom. Not yet used to the feeling of Ego dissolution. 

Listening to Leo's guided exercise on realizing you're God. 

Nobody is here. All appearances are just a play to distract myself. 

What if I paid money to go to school but it's a curriculum completely designed for myself? 

>This ideally looks like getting weekly life coaching!

 

Just experienced the anxiety and panic of an Ego Dissolution. I'm just getting started. 

Nothing crazy I'm becoming conscious of. > Dose is still WAY TOO LOW!

It kind of sucks too because on mushrooms or LSD my mind is in a hyper-creative mode and I'm making really cool insights and stuff like that; but here, it's just a regular trip with a bit of visuals and a relatively clear state of mind with a bit of ego dissolution or something.

 

I think the guided exercise to realize you’re God is a helpful tool. I think sitting there in meditation while on a psychedelic, going through a checklist of things to strip away from my experience will be useful.

> Sense Organs Are Imaginary - very good pointer - https://www.actualized.org/insights/sense-organs-are-imaginary 

> Guided Exercise For Realising You Are God

> How To Do Self-Inquiry

I would also like to just sit there in meditation and really focus on understanding what the experience of ego dissolution is. I think this will help me on my 5-MeO-DMT Journey.

 

One thing I noticed is that there is no bleeding this time (from my anus). So it could be possible that when I inserted my syringe that I nicked my rectal walls and perhaps I nicked a hemorrhoid or something. Plus my diet had much more solid foods that day so that probably played a huge part as well whereas the last trip I had a complete blender full of a protein shake. 

 

I would say the trip for me lasts a total of 5 hours from the onset to the last after effects. Very strong in the first hour and a half, and then much more Down to Earth in the third hour, and then just kind of slowly becomes more sober in the 6th hour. 

End of Report.

 

[OBEler]

@ZenSwift awesome! Love reading your malt report.

I needed 10 attempts for a mystical experience on malt but it's worth it. Zero fear. Just keep raising the dose step by step.  It doesn't get stronger but at a certain point suddenly something happens. Have trust in malt.