Journal

[Someone here]

A helpful thing to remember when you’re having suicidal thoughts is to pay closer attention to what your mind is actually telling you.

Your mind says, “I want to die.” But if you look at that thought more carefully, is that really what you want? Or is it more like, “I want to die right now. This moment fucking sucks, and I don’t know how to deal with it anymore”?

There’s a difference between the two. The second might be much closer to what you’re actually experiencing. Because maybe a day, a month, or a year ago, you didn’t want to die. Maybe you were happy with your life, or at least wanted to see what tomorrow would bring. Something has changed, and it’s worth asking yourself what it is.

So try to figure out what makes this particular moment so unbearable, and whether there’s something you can do to change it. And if you can’t figure it out on your own, or if everything just feels like too much, find someone you can cry in the arms of. Someone you can be completely honest with, without having to pretend you’re okay. Your mom, your partner, or anyone you trust enough to let yourself fall apart in front of.

And maybe you need to talk to a therapist, too. I know I’ve needed that myself, plenty of times. There’s no shame in it. It helps.

You don’t have to figure everything out right now. Sometimes, you just need to get through this moment. Important distinction when dealing with suicidal thoughts.