unintrested in getting a relationship

[Olaf]

I feel that a deep relationship with a girl is almost impossible and therefor I feel less and less want or desire to be in a relationship. My first relationship I went all in depth about spirituality, both me and her got awakening experiences and it was beautiful till it all backfired. She wasn´t truely intrested in spirituality, she just got into it as I was making my whole life about it. Then it ended up breaking both our hearts, as she wanted to be less and less with me, the deeper I got into it. There was resistance from her to go into the depth and I don´t say she is wrong for doing that, it just simply meant she wasn´t ready for more and neither do I feel other girls are ready for such depth. If you want a shallow relationship, I know a million girls who would be excellent partners, but that just doesn´t sound meaningful to persue and waste time on. Also what are you getting out of a shallow relationship besides sex and comfort? It is not even a deep friendship, as even that goes deeper then a girlfriend that doesn't want to go deeply into the depths of spiritual rabbit hole. I have had 4 girlfriends, the last 3 being superficial girlfriends in the sense that I didn't mention anything about spirituality and we kept things basic and "normal". I just don't bother going in such a relationship again, cause it just feels like a waste of time and I don't enjoy it much. Neither do I think its good to bring girls that are not ready into this whole rabbit hole, it will only backfire on you and on her. I think I might give up on relationships for now, I don't even romanticise as I used to do, because I literally can't imagine a relationship beyond the superficial ones, my belief in such a relationship existing feels like a fantasy. Just needed to put this out there.

[integral]

I mean, you have standards now, she has to be green, She has to already be interested in spirituality. Go to places where those kinds of people are going to be and stop dating other ones.

56 minutes ago, Olaf said:

because I literally can't imagine a relationship beyond the superficial ones,

Why do you want a spiritual relationship? When you see this, you mean growth and development?

Most people have not unlocked self-development as a way of life. So already on that you're looking at 1% of women.

I understand you want this specific thing, but why was that your expectation to begin with?

Why can't you just have a superficial relationship and get some of your basic needs met?