Deep Pain (Deeper Than Depression) - Dr. K

[Miguel1]

On 13/03/2026 at 4:43 PM, integral said:

The deep hurt is AIR QUALITY.

The hell? I live in the north of Europe, Finland. We probably have the best air quality of all here.

And no, from what I understand, most people do not experience deep pain, as Dr. K explains it.

[Miguel1]

16 hours ago, PolyPeter said:

I think a lot of that emotional weight, feeling everything so intensely, including others' pain, gets amplified when you're constantly in an environment that's working against your nervous system.

I genuinely think a lot of what we call emotional sensitivity or even depression has an environmental layer that we completely overlook.

The city is loud, dense, polluted, and we adapt to it so thoroughly that we forget what (a natural and healthy) baseline actually feels like.

Disconnection from nature might be one of the most underrated contributors to chronic emotional heaviness.

Yes, I agree.

Survival can make one miserable. But at the same time, lots of people go on about survival, using that to distract themselves from this deep / existential pain.

The higher conscious people can see how black-pilling all that unconscious survivalness is.

[Miguel1]

7 hours ago, integral said:

THIS is the reason I have deep pain 

[Miguel1]

7 hours ago, integral said:

It only has to be avoided in your main place of residence, were most of your time is spent.

But thats still a large task at first to get right.

I spend a ton of time outdoors, almost everyday. Deep pain or deep foil, I experience it all everywhere.

[Miguel1]

On 13/03/2026 at 1:08 AM, ici said:

There was a comment that said they had a word for it that translates to “world pain” in German. World pain does resonate to me in the sense that I am concerned about where humanity is headed. I feel like we are so disconnected from each other in the real world but this could be a reflection of my current situation in life.

To end my little rant here, you have to define what you’re hurt by otherwise you wouldn’t know how to fix it. I guess you’re dealing with something that is out of your control? Maybe we should learn to let go of things we cannot change. Accept reality, adapt and move on. Or be the change you wanna see as they say. 

Read my first respond yesterdsy about ’Existential pain’.

I don’t think letting go of it is an option because it is literally my Mission in life to push humanity to a better place. And how can I move them if I don’t even know what they are going through? In fact, how can I do it it I don’t know what they are going through BETTER than they know themselves.

As Dr. K explained, people with deep hurt do not want to let go of it because it gives tremenduous meaning, depth and beauty to life too. This is my experience.

Making this thread wasn’t about me crying out loud for sympathy, or to have people come console me. It was to seek out other people with similar experience, and to understand it better — and yes, to not feel so alone with it.

[integral]

8 hours ago, Carl-Richard said:

Wait is this for real? Like actually for real? And my parents say I have OCD.

LOL thats not my actual room, but i do have a room with aluminum on the floor to create a seal.

People with major air allergies do have rooms that look like this. Its one of the few solutions. 

12 hours ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

You'd be interested to know I just got done building a compounding pharmacy. 3 laminar flow cabinets, 2 cytotoxic and 3 airlock passthroughs. 9 columns were built down with mechanical conduit in sandwich panel with HEPA filters for a tiny space with only 3 working rooms. The air filtration system in there is the most intense shit I have ever seen. Those 9 columns contain duct work totally isolated that vents to an entire steel platform (fit with mechanical filters) we constructed on the roof.

The sterility needed to fabricate medical compounds is so high. We stand no chance to isolate ourselves from air pollution. The air has to be near perfect in that space - and the STILL have to use laminar cabinets. Full hazmat gear too.

This is intense! but not safe for breathing lmao

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The problem: MCS reactions are typically triggered by volatile organic compounds (VOCs), fragrances, and chemical off-gassing — and those are gases, not particles. HEPA filters don't touch gases. A compounding pharmacy clean room is optimized for microbial and particulate contamination, not chemical vapor removal.

So ironically, that space could still be problematic because of the sandwich panel adhesives and sealants (which off-gas), the cleaning agents used to maintain sterility (which are often harsh), any residual pharmaceutical compounds in vapor form, and the plastics, epoxies, and materials in the cabinets themselves.

You basically built the particulate half of what an ideal MCS environment would need. The chemical half is a whole different engineering challenge — and one that almost nobody builds for, which is part of why MCS housing is so hard to find.

-AI