lucid dreaming is being god

[Julian gabriel]

the more I test my breath each time I enter a new room and am suspicious of others gaslighting pertaining to location and structure like simply if I am dreaming or not I seem to acquire what I desire quicker and quicker as in a dream where it appears. 

I can feel a huge resistance to lucid dreaming because what if I. can no longer turn off the light? just as the fear of flying even an inch off the ground is, what if I am unable to return to earth 4 rest

I am hypnotized by my love of sleep,

if there was no death in between these lives and these lives weren't so similar every day and every night it would no longer feel like a fight and oooff scary stuffs 

Edited March 6 by Julian gabriel

[Someone here]

Your fear is irrational because entering sleep and waking are not under your conscious control.  There is no on and off switch you click on to go from sleeping to dreaming to waking up .it happens by itself and gradually.