Practice Journal

[Oppositionless]

Stabilization phase going well. I like this, doing deep work for a short time then hitting the breaks . I don't feel like I'm falling behind spiritually . I feel like my body is catching up to something my spirit reached. 

[Oppositionless]

Habits I want to develop :

Playing 30 minutes of piano or keyboard every morning 

Smoking cannabis only a couple times a week

Spending more time alone

 

habits I'm proud I have :

meditaing every morning . Or night if I have to be up early .

walking every day.

habits I want to break;

judging myself .

 

Edited yesterday at 03:01 AM by Oppositionless

[Oppositionless]

I was very naive as a young spiritual seeker. When I was 18 I ended up in a discord cult with no real spiritual practice, just lots of super powerful placebo transmissions. A year later I did some hardcore , probably dangerous, fasting in an attempt to become a breatharian (new age speak for one of the siddhis described in the yoga sutras).

I do think such distractions served a point. The point being it's really hard to say I would have benefited from real consciousness work at such a young age... it certainly wouldn't have prevented the suffering I was destined for in my early 20s . Thankfully nothing too serious happened... I could have joined a "real" cult or fucked my body up. That's good.

Actually Dr K explained how transmissions (or diksha, initiation) works. You really only get it once, your guru blesses you , and that helps kickstart your process but it doesn't do the work for you, and you also don't need like 3 of them a day to make more progress. 

I think consistent spiritual practice *might* make the body more efficient and therefore less food is needed. But I don't think fasting an arbitrary number of days has any effect. Would not reccomend dry fasting at all.

Edited 7 hours ago by Oppositionless