feel like nature is hurting me

[Justin my mind]

I have a cerebral palsy and my mind feels like it’s on autopilot. It feels like everyone is fucking with my mind. I’m seeing humans as part of nature and it feels like nature is hurting me and it’s not aware of what it’s doing through people. I just feel like watching my existence is like watching a big thunderstorm that never gets a lightning strike. The last instance I had with a female didn’t break my heart it fucked with my mind more than anything everybody please don’t take the sense of self for granted and the feeling for free will I feel like I’m just waiting for death now Life feels like it’s being fucked with by elves and inside my brain. Please don’t take love for granted either some of us don’t get to reflect that light with someone we love, even though we know that love comes from our being not from the other some of us never get time to feel fulfilled and that love space to begin with because of loneliness nature is doing weird shit

[Judy2]

this view and emotion is not permanent. it'll keep on shifting.