feel like nature is hurting me

[Justin my mind]

I have a cerebral palsy and my mind feels like it’s on autopilot. It feels like everyone is fucking with my mind. I’m seeing humans as part of nature and it feels like nature is hurting me and it’s not aware of what it’s doing through people. I just feel like watching my existence is like watching a big thunderstorm that never gets a lightning strike. The last instance I had with a female didn’t break my heart it fucked with my mind more than anything everybody please don’t take the sense of self for granted and the feeling for free will I feel like I’m just waiting for death now Life feels like it’s being fucked with by elves and inside my brain. Please don’t take love for granted either some of us don’t get to reflect that light with someone we love, even though we know that love comes from our being not from the other some of us never get time to feel fulfilled and that love space to begin with because of loneliness nature is doing weird shit

[Judy2]

this view and emotion is not permanent. it'll keep on shifting.

[Ramasta9]

On 2/1/2026 at 0:36 PM, Justin my mind said:

I have a cerebral palsy and my mind feels like it’s on autopilot. It feels like everyone is fucking with my mind. I’m seeing humans as part of nature and it feels like nature is hurting me and it’s not aware of what it’s doing through people. I just feel like watching my existence is like watching a big thunderstorm that never gets a lightning strike. The last instance I had with a female didn’t break my heart it fucked with my mind more than anything everybody please don’t take the sense of self for granted and the feeling for free will I feel like I’m just waiting for death now Life feels like it’s being fucked with by elves and inside my brain. Please don’t take love for granted either some of us don’t get to reflect that light with someone we love, even though we know that love comes from our being not from the other some of us never get time to feel fulfilled and that love space to begin with because of loneliness nature is doing weird shit

Humans are an extension of nature yes, but they have a free will, and most humans in the modern world unfortunately aren't in alignment with nature or themselves to begin with, so its like they are running the devils program, so to speak. The moment any human goes against himself / nature is the same as going against god, so you are on your own, and often become consumed by their own minds endless loops and toxic habits and project that shit onto others. They are blinded and don't see clearly. You can't expect blind people to love you and respect you the way you deserve to be loved and respected. So what you do, you love and respect yourself to the best that you can, until you meet eventually meet more humans who cured their blindness too  Don't let the blind make you bitter and cold, we don't always need humans, sometimes we just need nature and animals and a little space from everyone and everything, and let that light in.