very odd emotional trigger

[Judy2]

hey there:)

i've discussed my sensitivity to noise in previous threads but couldn't really specify another kind of sensory (visual) trigger that i experience quite regularly. it's so weird to say, but basically when people wiggle their hands, fingers, or feet (e.g. to self-soothe), sometimes it disgusts me or creeps me out. when i drive a car and my dad starts twiddling his thumbs in the seat next to me, i have to ask him to stop cause it distracts me from the road. and just now i watched my mum do a jigsaw puzzle and looking at her moving hands for too long made me really uncomfortable.

i feel stupid and weird for having all these sensitivities and would like to know why i process things this way - if it's related to ADD or a similar kind of neurodivergence.

Edited Monday at 04:23 PM by Judy2

[Jirh]

Perhaps it's more of a "who" sensitivity.

I get that sometimes with those whom I don't regard as "generally nice" people. They disgust me in their entirety, yet the smallest details about them trigger a very deep and specific form of disgust in me.

[Judy2]

8 hours ago, Jirh said:

Perhaps it's more of a "who" sensitivity.

I get that sometimes with those whom I don't regard as "generally nice" people. They disgust me in their entirety, yet the smallest details about them trigger a very deep and specific form of disgust in me.

yes, i googled it and it's called misokinesia, which is related to misophonia. but it definitely gets worse with certain groups of people.

i don't feel good about myself when i'm so mean and unfriendly around family. usually i'm trying to be very friendly and polite, but around them i just can't cause i feel so much disgust and pressure. maybe the only solution is to reduce my interactions with them again, but idk if that is me being impulsive and reactionary or realistic.

[Jirh]

15 hours ago, Judy2 said:

yes, i googled it and it's called misokinesia, which is related to misophonia. but it definitely gets worse with certain groups of people.

Interesting! I'll definitely look these terms up.

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i don't feel good about myself when i'm so mean and unfriendly around family. usually i'm trying to be very friendly and polite, but around them i just can't cause i feel so much disgust and pressure. maybe the only solution is to reduce my interactions with them again, but idk if that is me being impulsive and reactionary or realistic.

It's you being gentle and caring, even when it's impossibly difficult.