Reality becoming strange during normal activities

[Gigsi]

Sometimes when I’m in the middle of normal everyday stuff, working, cleaning, doing random chores, I suddenly get this strong feeling of alienationn.

It’s like my attention drops the practical situation completely and all that’s left is this question: how is any of this possible at all?

It doesn’t feel like panic or dissociation. It’s more like reality becomes too exposed. The fact that there is experience happening at all becomes the main thing. I’m just here, perception is here, this whole situation is here, and that alone feels strange and overwhelming.

In those moments it also feels like this is all there is. And if that’s true then whatever people call God or infinity or meaning must already be here too, not somewhere else. But that thought doesn’t even stay long.

What really takes over is this constant how is this possible. Like the mind keeps hitting something it can’t understand or get behind. No insight, no conclusion, just being stuck with the raw fact of existence.

I’m not sure how to frame this or what to do with it. I’m curious if others experience something similar or have thoughts on what this points to.

[Hojo]

I think that's what will happen. The other day I was pretending my ego was outside of my head and was the voice of God in reality that everyone could hear,  not in my head, and I kept losing track of my body and what I was doing.

Edited 15 hours ago by Hojo

[Someone here]

@Gigsi Stop watching Leo too much 😂. He makes you feel that existence is weird doesn't he ? I rewatched the "top proofs for the existence of god " episode because its world class philosophy and its basically just Leo saying " such and such is not obvious and why should you assume that ?". So what is the natural conclusion if nothing is obvious and everything is under ruthless questioning?  You start dissociating . The solution is take a break and try to convince yourself of any belief system which explains away the mystery of existence.