How to Have Insight Into What I'm Looking At?

[LoneWonderer]

So yesterday I took 30mg Malt. I spent time looking at my hand until it became an unknown and merged with the background as everything became one whole union. 

Now here's the thing. Intellectually during and after the experience I think that this must be what Leo talks about, the onesness of everything, the illusion. However there is no insight into this being the true nature of reality. I could just as easily think I'm tripping balls and hallucinating. Note that obviously ego is still very much present as I'm able to think and observe and watch my "hand" melt into the background.

How to arrive at the lightning strike insight moment? Honestly I've never had any real true insights on Malt or shrooms. I'm wondering if the intellect is getting in the way of knowing. During the experience I try to not think and just observe but still no insights arise. This weekend I'm upping my dose to 40mg which will be new territory for me.

Edited 3 hours ago by LoneWonderer

[Yimpa]

Shutting off my mind doesn’t work. I inquire deeper into whatever it is I am experience. 

[LoneWonderer]

1 hour ago, Yimpa said:

Shutting off my mind doesn’t work. I inquire deeper into whatever it is I am experience. 

Thank you for the advice. I will try it.