Stellar thoughts 2026

[Deziree]

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Edited December 1 by Deziree

[Deziree]

 

 

[Deziree]

 

say these 5 things every morning.

 

[Deziree]

December 3 2025.

I have a meeting with my university counsellor. Both Ed and Thomas are awesome. I have a bunch of stuff to do. Winter is here and going on walks has been a challenge especially after recovering from the flu. Emotional instability has been a huge thing lately.

 

[LoneWonderer]

1 hour ago, Deziree said:

December 3 2025.

I have a meeting with my university counsellor. Both Ed and Thomas are awesome. I have a bunch of stuff to do. Winter is here and going on walks has been a challenge especially after recovering from the flu. Emotional instability has been a huge thing lately.

 

Gotta prioritize those walks if they make you happy!  I love long walks in nature, my best creative work and thoughts come from this.

Edited December 3 by LoneWonderer

[Deziree]

 

[Deziree]

I have a meeting with Ed tomorrow.

I will be discussing my hoarding issues. So far Ed has helped me. But it's been only 2 meetings. My family has been very supportive so far. I take cold showers regularly. I have to reconfigure my diet. But things are still good. Better than before. I have to configure my career plan by mid January. I would want a teaching job or maybe something art related. I have to tackle my problems one by one. It won't be easy. There are behavioral issues, some spiritual emptiness, psychological issues and health issues along with career insecurity. Once I fix these I will focus on fixing relationships. 

[Deziree]

 

 

[Deziree]

Your emotional operating system has encountered a fatal flaw. I like how he put that.

 

 

[UnbornTao]

 🤔

[Deziree]

 

 

Dissociation is strong during anxiety episodes.

[Deziree]

Sometimes I don't even feel connected to reality. But it's not like I don’t really feel what I feel. It could be something like blanking out. Maybe directionless. Or it could be not experiencing pleasure while watching people smile or flowers in a garden. 

Emotion needs to exist to form strong memory. Feeling like an outsider looking into my own life. Interactions are only due to obligation. 

I really did not feel much of a sensation if I remember those times I had these phases of dissociation.

 

[Deziree]

The mirror principle.

https://youtu.be/Ic6e1zCfUC4?si=CqM35YT5G3-51iEw

 

[Deziree]

I have decided to call off my visit with Edmund. He is not a right fit for me. Plus he is going on vacation for a month. That's not acceptable. I have barely begun my program with him and it has been only 2 meetings so far. It would lead to a huge gap and lack of continuity. So I found Ian. Let's see how it goes. My first meeting with Ian is next week.