Beans & Joy’s Journal 🐯🌈

[Yimpa]

7 hours ago, Beans said:

You put too much value on others’ opinion of you rather than caring about your own.

Fuck, you’re right. Thank you for giving me your autistic, no bulkshit observation about my blind spots.

Edited 7 hours ago by Yimpa

[Yimpa]

I figured out who I am while being a poor piece of shit. Without being part of a work culture. Without some academic fool forcing their beliefs down my throats. I dropped all the support groups I am a part of. I refuse to allow any social systems to water down or dilute me. I don’t give a fuck if you care about me or not. You don’t. You only care about me for selfish reasons.

Everyone has the wrong ideas or me, that I am just some woke idiot, that I am a good person, that I am part of their games. I am not. I’m not playing anymore. People will have their assumptions about me. And they’re all wrong. They don’t know me. They have perverted ideas of me based on my appearance. I refuse to give access to people or systems who will exploit me for money, sex, fame, ideology, validation.

Everyone is in a game of survival. I am no longer entertaining it. If the truth ends me, so be it. I’d rather figure out what is tru than delude myself with false comforts and rewards from a circle that I trapped myself in. 

[Yimpa]

I’ve seen hundreds of mental health professionals throughout my life, and only 0.5% truly understand how the mind works at a serious level. Everyone else was just an ideological pawn who treated me like a textbook.

[Yimpa]

The corruption is not limited to the mental health field. This corruption is festering in EVERY field.

Infinite Titanics and Icebergs FOR ALL!

Imagine investing your whole life building towards something only to realize that it was all imaginary. And yet still use their imagination so surface level, so conformist, so ugly, so predictable and domesticated like a factory animal. That is the game everyone is playing. Sleep walking and acting like everyone around them (the ones they approve, that is) is awake.

Edited 1 hour ago by Yimpa

[Yimpa]

The rage i spit is a violent bae of congratulating myself for making it this far 🖤🔥

[Yimpa]

all i wanted was connection 

alien mind is giving biscuit trails everywhere

Edited just now by Yimpa