Beans & Joy’s Journal 🐯🌈

[Yimpa]

On 12/24/2025 at 1:43 PM, Juan said:

Do some of you guys here collect stuff? 

[integration journey]

14 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

Why the thumbs down

[Yimpa]

13 minutes ago, integration journey said:

Why the thumbs down

I was thinking of Xbox 360, life is a game.

But also…. plastic pollution…. yuck!

[Yimpa]

You don’t get God — God gets You.

[Yimpa]

 

[Yimpa]

the devil’s finally admitted everything….

 

 

[Beans]

Kind of hate how I have such a soft spot in my heart. 
 

When I think of  homicidal leaders and imagine them as babies. What they must’ve gone through. 
 

I can’t help but to have empathy for their baby selves. 
Not that their trauma excuses the behavior.

I don’t think monsters amongst humans are born

i I think they’re created, enabled, etc throughout their childhood.

 

the dark reality is anyone can be a Trump, Elon, Netanyahu, Hitler, etc  

though you have to choose not to be

not to be cruel to others, not to lie maliciously to gain whatever, not to manipulate for your own selfish reasons, not to steal, not to abuse, not to sexual violate others, not to murder others, not to be genocidal etc, etc, etc 

 

 In the end the story ends all the same.

they know their days are numbered and just before they’re captured they kill themselves. I wouldn’t doubt Elon or Donald would do that. Even Netanyahu. Before they can be held accountable they’ll even try to escape that through death. 

[Beans]

But I can see in Elon a baby 

literally a child like innocence 

and it’s strange, because both sides of him exist. 
as a child, and as a “functional” adult. 
though to me I see more of the child aspect through him in videos, his speech, etc. 

and I think that’s why in some aspect I did love Elon. I can relate to the child like innocence. I can relate to having autism. I can relate to the love of space and the universe. Etc 

I admire him for awhile before he took his dark maga turn. I had hopes for his career and potential. 
 

disappointing. 

Edited 4 hours ago by Beans

[Beans]

I was talking to Yimpa about this yesterday how 

there’s a big disagreement with Leo for me and his teachings. 
and partly is a huge reason why I don’t really feel connected to actualize I kind of feel like an odd piece in a sea of spiritual lovers. 
Recently Leo has been talking about disconnecting from love, yourself, God, etc etc. 

Though I believe in embracing your culture, because it has spiritual significance, in every culture. That it connects you into a spiritual realm. I only know of this, because of my culture. And because I am Mexican American. 
 

I believe you cannot get to point A without point b 

which is understanding your human form, healing, and advancing into true enlightenment. Sure you can have a glimmer of enlightenment, but you cannot and must not ignore the source and core.

 

I wish I could describe my findings better, but I cant

 I hope with ketamine I’m able to explain better. 
 

my advice is to heal, and nurture your soul and wounds. 
there you’ll find the answers and light you are seeking.