Beans & Joy’s Journal 🐯🌈

[Yimpa]

New age and channeling is a guilty pleasure of mine. As is McDonald’s and Taco Bell. It’s soooo bad it’s good.

[Yimpa]

Imagine a chess piece that can teleport to any square on the board. I wish to be that. 

But then again…. even a chess piece that teleports still has rules, it can’t leave the board or break the game. So it’s still limited. 

 

Edited Monday at 06:22 PM by Yimpa

[Beans]

1 hour ago, Yimpa said:

I only feel comfortable farting openly and cheekily with Beans. 

True story. 
lmfao

Yimpa will fart and try trapping me underneath the blankets 

then we’re just wrestling each other 

[Yimpa]

i ‘ve got multiple strains of cannabis that i can use, it depends on the day and what the mood calls for

itsa polyamorweed relationship 🌱🍃🍂🍀

[Yimpa]

 

[Yimpa]

at the spongebob 4 movie search 4 bob

random peep compliments me

me: tanks. I am shy

[Yimpa]

We got to the bottom of a 6 month mystery. Now we can let go of this chapter move towards a new beginning. 

And Beans, how does it feel to have chosen family?

[Beans]

Just now, Yimpa said:

We got to the bottom of a 6 month mystery. Now we can let go of this chapter move towards a new beginning. 

And Beans, how does it feel to have chosen family?

^-^ it’s nice. And I always have a good time hanging out with everyone. Even though I’m shy. I’m glad they accept me. In the beginning I was so quiet and use to follow joy around everywhere, but now I’m getting more use to communicating openly. They make me feel safe and loved for sure.  Grateful to be apart of the family. 

[Yimpa]

5 hours ago, AION said:

The problem will solve itself

[Beans]

I think this year has really gave me a new perspective. 
on my disabilities. Not in a negative sense, but more of just finally acknowledging “you actually do have autism, you actually do suffer from ptsd, you actually do suffer from depression, you actually do suffer from anxiety” 

because in my culture which is a Mexican culture. A lot of the times they don’t believe in mental illness. They’ll tell you “it’s all in your head” or “those are demons and you need to just pray it away” and if you’re slower to learning they’ll belittle you and call you stupid. When in reality you’re just a child with autism who needed patience.  I’ve always loved school, I always enjoyed learning. It only became a problem when I started feeling school was no longer a safe place. 

 

Accepting my brain for what it truly is has been a journey in of itself. 

[Yimpa]

Nothing to be ashamed about with having trauma, being messy, or living in contradiction. It makes you relatable, not above the human condition.

Avoiding impurity is as cringe as it gets.

[Yimpa]

On 12/8/2025 at 6:22 PM, Beans said:

Thank you for your support 🫂

I love you stinkabutt

 

[Yimpa]

iWiener!

[Yimpa]

“It’s all Pretty Crazy”

 

[Beans]

“when i found out not every woman felt repulsed and nauseous towards a naked man and only found a womans body to be attractive..” - random chatter 

I kind of feel indifferent to both bodies I won’t lie. I think women are beautiful, and even men to be beautiful. However when it comes to intimacy. It disturbs me. I can’t help, but think “ew.” Though another part of my brain feels conditioned to a certain perfective.  As a woman or growing up fem presenting. You’re given this perspective that you must procreate, you must serve the man, you must be obedient, you must be pretty, but most importantly you must be kind. 
 

You must enjoy sex. When the reality is I don’t think I do, but I’ve been conditioned by mainstream society to participate in this animalistic behavior. That somehow as a woman the spot between your legs is the most important part.  
 

it’s not to say my attraction for others disappear, but what really disgusts me. Is the behavior towards intimacy has been corrupted in my eyes. 
 

People do not value love, people do not value each other, people do not value slow burning passion, people do not listen to each other. Instead in mainstream society there’s this huge over sexualizing. In almost virtually everything.  
 

Yes I think empowerment is great. I love that. I think feeling confident and comfortable in your body is great. 
 

As I become older, I become less and less interested in superficial things.  

[Beans]

Feeling weird 
I’ve been feeling weird for a minute 
Whose spiritual presence am I feeling?

[Beans]

I had wrote something just to delete it 

sometimes things feel too intimate to share 

[Yimpa]

IFS therapy, according to Wikipedia (as of this post):

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While widely adopted in clinical trauma treatment, it has faced criticism from some observers regarding its scientific grounding and the potential for inducing dissociative symptoms if applied incorrectly in certain clinical contexts.[3] Many scholars have called it a pseudoscience.

 

Been doing IFS for 6 months with our neurodivergent relationship therapist and it SAVED it! Despite science saying it doesn’t work 😹 

I have experienced dissociated symptoms in therapy, but I don’t see it as a problem. Helps me go deeper.

Edited 4 hours ago by Yimpa

[Beans]

[Yimpa]

Sweet! A new THC gummy has been released in TX. 

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A new full-spectrum option is here! Made using low heat and pressure, our Wild Plum Flower Rosin gummies are the first of their kind in Texas. They offer one of the most true-to-plant experiences by preserving more of the naturally occurring compounds from the cannabis plant. Like all Texas Original gummies, these are vegan, gluten-free and made without artificial flavors or dyes.

Can't wait to be one of the first medical patients to experiment with this. I will be picking it up today and testing it out tomorrow.