What if the one thing you actually want to do won’t pay the bills?

[TheBG]

2 minutes ago, Thought Art said:

@Elliott No. honestly it just means the odds of even investing time into what I like don’t mean shit because I’ll never develop mastery. 
 

I hate being this negative. Haha… I’m disappointed with my life. The pain is very deep. 

So you don't want to do something you do like at ALL because of your perceived inability to achieve mastery one day? The odds of you investing time into what you don't like are always going to be 100% if you never add in the thing that you DO like with the time you have.

What if you just don't want to do it? If you wanted to do it, you would not care if you were tired or not. I think you would do it anyway. I used to wake up at 3:00 AM, practice until 7, go to work for 10 hours, get home, and practice. I worked 6-7 days a week in a terrible job. I got scoliosis.  I loved every moment of my practice time. It did not matter that I was tired because doing what I loved was amazing.

I am not promoting the "Work yourself to death" culture, though. I also know we all have our own personal limitations. Want to be world-class? Really want to be a master?

Start acting like you want it. It doesn't sound like you do, and I don't mean any offense by that. 

[Thought Art]

@Elliott I am losing hope man… anyway, I should go back to sleep. I’m having a rough time lately. It’s like a black wave. 

[Thought Art]

@TheBG Because I don’t want to be a slave everyday. I get home and have no energy and fall asleep. I feel depressed that I don’t think I can develop enough skill to escape being a slave. I enjoy it when I practice, play and write. 
 

I just don’t see a way out….

Wanting it, yes I do. But I physically don’t have the energy today. That’s what I am saying. I need to be able to see that the efforts I make could lead somewhere. Whenever I practice after work I find myself fighting off falling asleep. It’s so lame. 
 

The reality is… working 10 hours requires rest I do hard manual labour. I need 8-10 hours of sleep. That leaves 4 hours 2 of which are eaten up with eating, etc and I need some rest. So, maybe 2 hour? But I have a life to balance too. Some nights I can’t work on it.

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[Elliott]

8 minutes ago, Thought Art said:

@Elliott I am losing hope man… anyway, I should go back to sleep. I’m having a rough time lately. It’s like a black wave. 

Have a good night 🌚

[TheBG]

1 minute ago, Thought Art said:

@TheBG Because I don’t want to be a slave everyday. I get home and have no energy and fall asleep. I feel depressed that I don’t think I can develop enough skill to escape being a slave. I enjoy it when I practice, play and write. 
 

I just don’t see a way out….

I feel you man. I feel like that too most days.

You're right, that's really deliberating...


How about this? Whatever the highest lever moving task for you is, even if that is journaling, creating a vision, or reverse engineering a goal from end to start... Set aside 1-2 hours first thing in the morning to do that. While your mind is fresh.

If you consume content that is not pushing you towards what you want, try to slowly stop. Get enough sleep at night as well. That will help you utilize the time you do have.

Commit to this process for 90 days. I think you will see progress. Don't focus on the "goal", focus on what needs done now, in that moment.

If you need a better job? Focus on learning a skill that will replace it. If you don't see music replacing it fast enough, maybe do a little less music to focus on getting that highest lever pulled.

Live below your means. Rent with friends if you are able to. Eat cheaply but take care of your health. Gather lots of savings up. You can use this money for professional help, coaching, etc. You could even save up enough to stop working for 1 full year. Maybe 2. Then create a new way to make money within that. You can get yourself to a job where you work less if you don't have as many expenses at some point. That will... free up time.

Reach out to people. Get rejected. Look silly. It's all okay. I think you can find a way out of this if you really want to look for one. Don't wait for it to be perfect, though. That's a trap I fall into way too often. Trust me. Don't wait for the perfect time or thing.  Take relentless action towards changing what you can. Doing what you can. 


I really wish I had the answers for you. I don't even have my own. I wish you the best. Don't give up. I think you can do it. Keep that chin up, friend. Your vocals don't sound as good when your head hangs low

[Thought Art]

@TheBG All that will take years. 
 

I think my life is essentially ruined. 

[TheBG]

21 minutes ago, Thought Art said:

@TheBG All that will take years. 
 

I think my life is essentially ruined. 

The sooner you accept it's going to take longer than you want, the sooner it happens faster than you expect.