Te Journal

[Optimized Life]

I'm not here to become some wanna be Ralston. 

Ralston is likely INTJ 5W4 

Leo is strong INTP 5W4 or INTJ 5W4

I'm a fucking 8W7, I couldn't care less about "ultimate truth" and all this nonsense. 

But I still see the value in having prescence, and being "highly conscious" just applied to ways that are relevant to me. Not here to awaken mankind or be a monk. 

I'm taking the gold from ralston and using it for my agendas, sex, power, confidence, presence, charisma ect.. 

Who said spirituality had to be about "truth and consciousness" ? 

No, its about getting power. 

Edited January 7 by Optimized Life

[SimpleGuy]

Sorry to interrupt you loneliness but you look a bit too crazy about mbti model. This is just a model. Don`t let it constrain yourself. This model is just a hint, not a ruler over you.

[Optimized Life]

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Sorry to interrupt you loneliness but you look a bit too crazy about mbti model. This is just a model. Don`t let it constrain yourself. This model is just a hint, not a ruler over you.

I am extremely flexible, but its a very useful personality map. 

There is distinct personality & value difference between me and peter ralston .. I am still taking gold from his work and applying it to myself, it doesnt get any less "constrained" than that.

Edited January 7 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

11.01.26 : Regrounding this Te Journal AGAIN

(Yes I know, I keep doing this, I have high ADHD tendencies)

The point of this journal is Te : 

1. Setting targets, goals, and commiting to metrics reporting 
2. Reporting daily 
3. Actually achieving my goals/metrics numerically/materially and proving it (where possible) 

I don't want to just be the ideas guy, or cool sounding writer. 

That has to be balanced (and over - dominated) by material results, the work, the proof. 

I cannot claim leadership otherwise. 

This isn't abotu this forum specifically, no one here cares about or knows me, this forum journal is a vessel I use to develop myself and hold accountability, thats it, but the transfer is undeniably, if i cant hold standards and consistency here, I cant do it in real life, there is no difference. 

Regrounding : 

1. BF % Challenge & Net calorie tracking > 11% BF shredded 
2. Logistics change > Moving country, paying rent, lease down 
3. Money in bank account > Net profit, managing my spending, earning more money 
4. Building skills & daily practice > Sales, people skills, ect.. 
5. Escaping the system, financial autonomy ect..
6. Dating life, relationships, approaches 
7. Diet health, sleep ect.. 
8. Creativity & other misc stuff.

NO MORE DIVERGERNCE FROM HERE :

• Goals & Targets 
• Metrics & Tracking
• Achieve Results / Hit Targets
• ^ Share proof where possible 

P.S : what (among many other sources, including myers briggs Te explanation itself and extroverted thinking) this journal was insired by : Mmkay's Heavy Metal Chelation Journal

Why? 

Because of a long term commitment to setting a goal, measuring & reporting progress ... and doing it agan and again, stubbornly for months & years. This is the real work, this is what virtually no one wants to do, this is the shit that counts, far beyond consuming a video. Except I have to give the guy credit because what he's doing is actually way harder : with losing bodyfat and gaining money, it's difficult for sure but there are clear metrics you can set, "heavy metal chelation" is a psycologically brutal process because you can only predict the inputs, and testing/measuring it is mostly qualitative, and often you initially feel even worse from chelation. So in a sense I "have it easy". 

Edited January 11 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

11.01.26 

1. Health 

L theonine = Brain fog? 

Studies, forums, AI ... will tell me "it balances out caffeine" ect. 

But in pill form, it just makes me feel tired, numb and sedated, like a moderate benzo 

Then I feel the need to drink extra caffeine just to compensate, and the brain fog is still there 

Conclusion : No more 200MG l theonine Pills, unless i am going through severe anxiety and stress, it is a potential tool but not something to be used casually, I dont trust it or think its safe just because of online group think. 

[Optimized Life]

12.01.26

Recommitting to the 11% BF Challenge. 

I need to be decisive. 

This is about : 

1. Setting a specific target, following the numbers
2. Sticking to my calorie limits, not drifting off, discipline 
3. Managing stress, sleep & recovery, not abusing caffeine/No late caffeine >> Controlling inputs that lead to backsliding  
4. Also avoiding brain fog specific foods, that kill my momentum (most grains and wheat, some supplements
5. This is about Intent, structure, discipline, targets, metrics and strategy Extroverted thinking
6. This is not merely some vanity show. 
7. Yes being 11% bf on its own wont transform my life, but the skills and the mentality of getting there does.
8. Just the mere skill of not living on autopilot, day to day, and pushing awareness onto oneself, being aware of what im doing, is a giant leap. Many people go their entire lives without reaching this. 

And I'm applying the same thinking to making money & logistics 

it actually takes me less energy to do them together because Te wants to connect & expand itself

 

Te Reminder 

0. To Do List (made night before)

1.Regular Deadlines

2. Break projects into tasks & micro tasks

3. Metricize Everything (Ggl sheets, columns, dates & checklists)

4. Habit Scaffolding > Weekly Review

Edited January 12 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

14.01.26

• No Fap day 2 
• Floss day 4 
• Meditation day 2 
• Caffeine usage : 300 - 500MG / day 
•  Bank : $2,000
• Bank needed : $5K + 
• Minimum survival expenses : $1.5K-$2K/M
• Other inmediate expenses : $3 - $10K 
• ... Money atm is toast basically 

14.01.26 Result

• No fap day X
• Floss day 4 
• Meditation day 2 
• Caffiene : 500MG 
• Sleep 4-5 Hours
• Bank account $1.8 - $2K
• Slept at - 4AM 

Edited January 15 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

15.01.26 

1. Anxiety stress pressure : 8/10 
2. Focus capacity : 3/10 
3. Feel like I need meds, feel like the safe healthy path isn't working, feel like i need to take risk to brute force my way into momentum, feel like I was just dealt a difficult hand in life, feel trapped again . Feel like I need modafinil and xanax and this and that to modulate myself and get through the day.

Edited January 15 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

15.01.26

Coffee gives no mercy.

Tried taking caffiene pills for days becuase I am whitening my teeth at night and it is non ideal to drink acidic or dark beverages during this period. 

Truth about caffiene pills : 

1. Very mild and short lived alertness 
2. Still impacts sleep onset just as much, perhaps even more
3. BUT does not provide any noticeable dopamine, energy, cognition boost no matter how much I take 
4. AND I STILL feel withdrawn from coffee as if I've have not taken any caffiene at all, have brain fog, low energy and cant focus. 
5. Some sort of meta science lesson perhaps about how rationalism tries to break things down into their base elements (caffiene) and assume that you can just switch form and it functions the same & is qualitatively the same? (clearly it doesnt) 
6. ^This leads to actually far worse sleep because then take 400-500MG just to try compensate, and it still doesnt work 
7. Caffiene pills fucking suck, what a scam

Coffee addiction is COFFEE addiction, not caffiene 

I had a coffee, and inmediately felt alive again after 3 days of struggling, its not merely about the MG content 

200MG coffee >> 500MG Caffiene pills 

 "not ideal" whitening but should be fine if i simply wait a couple hours, use a straw and rinse inmediately. 

As for another micro goal to add to money motivation : 

I need about $1500 and plan to get prosthetic veneers done, not my life priority, not some deep goal, but just a nice mini goal surface motivation  boost

THANK GOD I need coffee and not crack 

FUCK CAFFIENE PILLS. 

EWWWWW

APPRECIATE COFFEE WAY MORE NOW 

 

Edited January 15 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

15.01.26 : HONEST TE JOURNAL UPDATE

I AM BEING A HYPOCRITE. 

1. I keep getting lost in my head
2. I keep drifting 
3. I am forgetting structure 
4. I am not being decisive 
5. I am moving too slow 
6. I am hesitating again 
7. I am not decisively setting goals, metrics and targets, deadlines. 
8. I am not breaking down goals and big tasks > into micro tasks and steps, and inmediately acting on it until completion. 
9. I am being a useless ADHD little bastard. 

Genuine, decisive, mathematical Te from here only, results only, clear deadlines, no ambiguity, no leaving anything to chance, no hesitation, no half assing, all the way until I achieve what I need, no fucking time off, it's war mf. 

Update : Cold Approach 1 :

• Alone, cold dark, bad mood. 
• 6.5 - 7.5 
• 25 - 32 
• Normal small talk 
• Got WhatsApp 
• Feel relieved and more powerful again 
• Almost didn't approach because i was in my head about my failing finances 

Edited January 16 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

17.01.26

Psychological Te Reminder 

I have to switch from outcome based dopamine loop >> effort based dopamine loopi

"all of life about getting results" 

Yeah but thats a by product of constant inputs 

So no its about inputs only 

"Whats the point if u dont get the result though" ..

... Literally impossible given enough time if the inputs are there 

Of course, u could have the wrong inputs, ineffective inputs 

So : 

1. Inputs 

2. Reflection / Data 

3. Adjust/Iterate inputs 

4. Results = by product 

 

[Optimized Life]

17/01.26 

Helath update

Been eating a lot of tuna recent months to save money and get my protien, instead of animal meat

But i am regretting it 

There could be other variables but i do feel worse 

I was told heavy metal accumulation is only negligible in the short term and significant after years of consistent consumption 

But then what the fuck do I know? 

The point is i have no idea, and likely the people who say that have no idea 

So i can only be cautious for cautions sake

Reminder, get the fucking money too 

Cant be cheap with my diet

[Optimized Life]

18.01.26

1. No fap Day 0, (streak day 2 killed last night)
2. Eye contact & presence has become weak, woman looked back at me and i looked away as she looked like a child, wtff, it's partly because of my state but i dont like excuses for this
3. Introspecting : Frustration, anger, bitterness, pain ect.. 
4. Motiavtion still very strong though 
5. Focus ability has improved again somehow despite all this

Edited January 18 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

19.01.26 

I normally avoid the main forum 24/7 

Its not because its actually that bad .. its okay 

But its just another instagram 

I am here to work, here to focus, here to get results and be serious (playfulness comes when you are not stressed)

I am a playful person but now is not the time to fuck around 

another day, anther start 

Goals, affirmations, intentional thought patterns, results, subconcious mind, approaches, money, logistics, strategy, consistency, success. 

[Optimized Life]

22.01.26

Introspectively pre-emptively catching the decline 

• No Fap has been long gone for 3-4 weeks now 
• Emotional states are volatile 
• Feel constantly on the brink of collapse even when im doing things right 
• Constant stress, micro tension, facial tension
• Constant looping, b.s 
• Mind drifts into blame, excuses, catastrophising 
• Fear 
• Fear of aging, fear of wasting my life, fear of staying broke, fear of bailiffs, fear of faliure 
• Keep falling back into scarcity, drinking more caffiene at 5PM "just to push through" even though I know it damages my sleep and I should just wait and not borrow form tomorrow 
• Not doing enough Te, not writing down my tasks and goals being decisve enough every day again. 

SO what do I do? 

I become a psychopath again, 50 cent type stuff

Ultra disciplined psychopath 

Thats it 

Military type stuff 

Nothing else 

Just ruthless daily discipline 

I cant think of anything else 

yeah im desperate im tired im stressed 

I have to ovecmpensate with pyschopathy

Psychopaths jsut dont give a shit & force their way through the world 

Get the fucking money

Te record every day 

Net worth 

No fap steak 

Fapping is a bitch activity dont listen to leo .. .u wanna be like leo lmao? fuck that 

 

Edited January 22 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

22.01.26

My Gut is specifically permanently intolerant to chocolate protein shakes 

I can never forget this 

I got sick like 6 months ago 

I thought it would be ok after time 

Some reason, 6 months later, I have the same ON (Optimum Nutrtion) chocolate protien shake, and the exact same feeling comes back, I feel moderately sick, concentrating is harder, its unpleasant, i lose energy, all my energy goes towards my gut. 

I sometimes forget, at the gym out of convience I get one of these bastards. 

Never again man. 

Must remember 

MUST BEAT MY HEAD MULTIPLE TIMES A DAY TO TELL MYSELF TO NOT HAVE ONE OF THESE FUCKING SHAKES EVER AGAIN!

THIS IS SO WEIRD 

I'm literally permanently intolerant to it, wtf. 

[Optimized Life]

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Edited January 22 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

It's been years since I watched leos heavy metal chelation guide video. 

And i somehow 

Read the AC book 

Watched the video a few times

But never took action and was decisive about starting it .. 

Why? 

Because i got put off by the risk and or initially feeling worse 

However that was more my mind closing off instinctively, it wasn't like i consciously and deicisively chose based on weeks of thorough study and cross referencing anacdotal reports, looking at all the best cases, average cases, worse cases, factoring all the different details ect.. 

If i'd just fucking done that, I could've got many round over and have got most of the benefit already and be benefiting from it now. 

If I am honest, I have absolutely no idea how much toxicity is in my body .. and it is only a question of how much, no one is 0% toxic. 

I have no idea 

Also, it could a be a unlucky case - that i have a low total quantity load, but whatever I have (maybe lead specifically) for me is hyper concentrated and lodged into my brain tissue? . This could in theory mean even a short duration of targeted rounds could make a massive difference if it targets that. My physical health doenst feel so bad but my mental distraction, brain fog ect.. is possibly off the charts .. possibly because like a fish in water ive had it for so long, and have no reference of what its like to be a mentally functional human that I dont even know what bad means and im just normalized to it

ah It is an inconvenient and burdensome process 

The longer and or older someone is to start the least likely they are to do it ..

If i just let this be a thought again .. i will forget and life will pass me by again. 

I have no idea how much better my memory could be, or learning capacity, or energy levels or ability to focus. 

I have no idea because I have no idea when I developed toxicity. 

But also, I was never particularly good at focusing or memory even as a kid .. which complicates things. 

1. that could mean i was exposed at a young age 

2. Could mean that I have a separate issue which wont benefit from chelation 

This is not easy to think about

... THen again 

I regret not just trying this 3-5 years ago because there is clearly a massive reward to risk asymmetry. 

Given that it is a controlled and measured process, following a specific protocol and gradually managing dose, its not like i start and then instantly all the HM get severely redistrubuted inmediatley and then i just become disabled and my lifes over and i have to commit suicide. However hwen I first shallowly felt the risk of this years ago, my mind probably instinctively jumped to that feeling and then closed off, because the mind is full of fear and hates ambiguous risk 

So yeah upside is huge, downside risk is real but its managed, its measured, its controlled for to an extent, and i can just stop protocol it is overwhelming. 

Obviously i need to take the tests first and not jump to conclusions

Another blindspot of mine, like 99% of people my mind closed off and I never tried this. 

Edited January 25 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

12 hours ago, Optimized Life said:

Obviously i need to take the tests first and not jump to conclusions

Another blindspot of mine, like 99% of people my mind closed off and I never tried this. 

Also I have not consistently mastered dietary restriction yet, and lifestyle. 

So even testing for HM right now is (considering prioritees) a waste of money and time. 

E.G have i gone 100% dietarily strict for a month straight? 

And that for a month combined with a conssitent circadiam rhythym for a month

combined with living in a better environment, psycologically/culturally/no winter

What will my productivity and sleep results be then?

Until then why am i even thinking about HM so much 

That said, I have decided to inmediately put a hard stop, pull the breaks on HM inputs. 

Because it could just be that actually i am a very good detoxer of HM, but i'm also acutely sensitive to itm e,g in a daily basis i consume HM exposure, and THAT specifically gives me brain fog for that day, but not in a long term must recover sense. 

So what am i cutting out : 

1. All chocolate, junk food & pastry (not even in moderation, the "should enjoy life" argument only works if u have no sensitivity and allergy to it, otherwise its fucking stupid and needs to be completely gone. I sense that i do have this, i ate chocolate yesterday, and hours later started sneezing and rubbing my eyes)
2. All dairy sources (Temporary experiment) for a month 
3. All wheat sources (obvious)
4. All forms of powder/grounded foods (within reason)
5. **Too addicted to coffee to just quit - BUT MUST STOP INSTANT COFFEE. I CONSUME INSTANT COFFEE BECAUSE ITS MUCH CHEAPER .. BUT ITS MUCH HIGHER IN HM THAN FROM A CAFE, or i could just buy that stuff and do it myself 
6. Orange juice & fruit juice ... pretty obvious to me that this causes allergy symptoms, gut flares, its simply not healthy, i've heard leo say "just drink fruit juice for energy bro" ... bad advice, literally makes you crash and i've never felt energy from it, ever its bullshit. You cant bypass coffee, juice does not give meaningful energy, if you're fasting and doing some marathon run ofc then it helps because you're bodies craving glucose but .. on a standard day? no way man, just empty calories. 
7. Tap water???* This is tricky and awkward - i cannot afford a RM setup currently, and im uncomfrotable using plastics, also I dont own a house and will be living in rooms and switching rooms every couple month most likely, so this is not a convient thing to handle. I suppose my tap water is likely better regulated usa .. but can i really trust it? i Dunno .. 1 thing at a time tbh. 

Heavy metals aside, just for brain fog I am focusing on elimination process. What is non negotiable is protien, i am not cutting down on protien, I'll lose muscle, lose strength, facial features drop, skin hair, 170-200G daily non negotiable. But what i do know is i can tolerate chicken, so i may try carnivore, im sure ideally u have vegetables and more nutrient variety but, i need to remove variables. 

New Health & Lifestyle Plan (Summary): 

1. Chicken only + (non instant) coffee & water diet for 1 month straight
2. Add 1 variable (or food item) at a time > Observe difference > take a note into google sheets
3. ^ Start with highest impact/priority (e.g protien) > Try switching chicken for beef after weeks > observe difference, try combining ect..
4. Immediately improve lifestyle, environment, circadian rhythm, wake up earlier 
5. Look at negative thought cycles, overthinking, mental energy burn, decision fatigue, fear, micro fears, anxiety, mindfulness, introspection. 
6. No Fruit juice, No instant (dehydrated, concentrated grounded) coffee, no wheat 
7. No dairy (reintroduce 1 dairy item at a time, after a month of abstinence) - use alt milk or black coffee 
8. No protein powder or protein bars 
9. No caffeine after 12PM 
10. No diet sodas, no red bull, no dark chocolate (full of HM again & causes facial sweat) 
11. Manage Stress > Structure, Te, organization, planning, manage spending, rent & living expenses protected in separate bank account, multiple months of rent paid in advance, no paycheck to paycheck months
12. Many steps, walks and early morning sunlight every day 

Edited January 25 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

I keep fucking ordering coffees in heated plastic cups and forgettng about it 

theres just so fucking much man .. 

Feels like such a losing battle 

layer of layerof later upon toxicity and stress and cortisol and plastics and metals and sleep problems and allergies and pesticides and BPAs and tflon pans and tap water and flouride and whatever else ... the list is INFINTE 

It just never ends .., 

If i was super healthy and functional i wouldnt care 

But im not 

and most people honestly arent these days

Just 1 thing at a time 

1 win at a time 

1 highest priority variable at a time 

I suppose thats the great thing about chelation, it dont gaurantee everything, but it does gaurantee 1 thing if u do it right, u are guaranteed to have less mercury lead ect.. in your body. Maybe theres a conneciton too, maybe once u reduce mercury and lead, your bodies capacity to detox othe toxins increases and or sensitivity to other toxins decreases. 

Edited January 25 by Optimized Life