Te Journal

[Optimized Life]

I'm not here to become some wanna be Ralston. 

Ralston is likely INTJ 5W4 

Leo is strong INTP 5W4 or INTJ 5W4

I'm a fucking 8W7, I couldn't care less about "ultimate truth" and all this nonsense. 

But I still see the value in having prescence, and being "highly conscious" just applied to ways that are relevant to me. Not here to awaken mankind or be a monk. 

I'm taking the gold from ralston and using it for my agendas, sex, power, confidence, presence, charisma ect.. 

Who said spirituality had to be about "truth and consciousness" ? 

No, its about getting power. 

Edited January 7 by Optimized Life

[SimpleGuy]

Sorry to interrupt you loneliness but you look a bit too crazy about mbti model. This is just a model. Don`t let it constrain yourself. This model is just a hint, not a ruler over you.

[Optimized Life]

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Sorry to interrupt you loneliness but you look a bit too crazy about mbti model. This is just a model. Don`t let it constrain yourself. This model is just a hint, not a ruler over you.

I am extremely flexible, but its a very useful personality map. 

There is distinct personality & value difference between me and peter ralston .. I am still taking gold from his work and applying it to myself, it doesnt get any less "constrained" than that.

Edited January 7 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

11.01.26 : Regrounding this Te Journal AGAIN

(Yes I know, I keep doing this, I have high ADHD tendencies)

The point of this journal is Te : 

1. Setting targets, goals, and commiting to metrics reporting 
2. Reporting daily 
3. Actually achieving my goals/metrics numerically/materially and proving it (where possible) 

I don't want to just be the ideas guy, or cool sounding writer. 

That has to be balanced (and over - dominated) by material results, the work, the proof. 

I cannot claim leadership otherwise. 

This isn't abotu this forum specifically, no one here cares about or knows me, this forum journal is a vessel I use to develop myself and hold accountability, thats it, but the transfer is undeniably, if i cant hold standards and consistency here, I cant do it in real life, there is no difference. 

Regrounding : 

1. BF % Challenge & Net calorie tracking > 11% BF shredded 
2. Logistics change > Moving country, paying rent, lease down 
3. Money in bank account > Net profit, managing my spending, earning more money 
4. Building skills & daily practice > Sales, people skills, ect.. 
5. Escaping the system, financial autonomy ect..
6. Dating life, relationships, approaches 
7. Diet health, sleep ect.. 
8. Creativity & other misc stuff.

NO MORE DIVERGERNCE FROM HERE :

• Goals & Targets 
• Metrics & Tracking
• Achieve Results / Hit Targets
• ^ Share proof where possible 

P.S : what (among many other sources, including myers briggs Te explanation itself and extroverted thinking) this journal was insired by : Mmkay's Heavy Metal Chelation Journal

Why? 

Because of a long term commitment to setting a goal, measuring & reporting progress ... and doing it agan and again, stubbornly for months & years. This is the real work, this is what virtually no one wants to do, this is the shit that counts, far beyond consuming a video. Except I have to give the guy credit because what he's doing is actually way harder : with losing bodyfat and gaining money, it's difficult for sure but there are clear metrics you can set, "heavy metal chelation" is a psycologically brutal process because you can only predict the inputs, and testing/measuring it is mostly qualitative, and often you initially feel even worse from chelation. So in a sense I "have it easy". 

Edited January 11 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

11.01.26 

1. Health 

L theonine = Brain fog? 

Studies, forums, AI ... will tell me "it balances out caffeine" ect. 

But in pill form, it just makes me feel tired, numb and sedated, like a moderate benzo 

Then I feel the need to drink extra caffeine just to compensate, and the brain fog is still there 

Conclusion : No more 200MG l theonine Pills, unless i am going through severe anxiety and stress, it is a potential tool but not something to be used casually, I dont trust it or think its safe just because of online group think. 

[Optimized Life]

12.01.26

Recommitting to the 11% BF Challenge. 

I need to be decisive. 

This is about : 

1. Setting a specific target, following the numbers
2. Sticking to my calorie limits, not drifting off, discipline 
3. Managing stress, sleep & recovery, not abusing caffeine/No late caffeine >> Controlling inputs that lead to backsliding  
4. Also avoiding brain fog specific foods, that kill my momentum (most grains and wheat, some supplements
5. This is about Intent, structure, discipline, targets, metrics and strategy Extroverted thinking
6. This is not merely some vanity show. 
7. Yes being 11% bf on its own wont transform my life, but the skills and the mentality of getting there does.
8. Just the mere skill of not living on autopilot, day to day, and pushing awareness onto oneself, being aware of what im doing, is a giant leap. Many people go their entire lives without reaching this. 

And I'm applying the same thinking to making money & logistics 

it actually takes me less energy to do them together because Te wants to connect & expand itself

 

Te Reminder 

0. To Do List (made night before)

1.Regular Deadlines

2. Break projects into tasks & micro tasks

3. Metricize Everything (Ggl sheets, columns, dates & checklists)

4. Habit Scaffolding > Weekly Review

Edited January 12 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

14.01.26

• No Fap day 2 
• Floss day 4 
• Meditation day 2 
• Caffeine usage : 300 - 500MG / day 
•  Bank : $2,000
• Bank needed : $5K + 
• Minimum survival expenses : $1.5K-$2K/M
• Other inmediate expenses : $3 - $10K 
• ... Money atm is toast basically 

14.01.26 Result

• No fap day X
• Floss day 4 
• Meditation day 2 
• Caffiene : 500MG 
• Sleep 4-5 Hours
• Bank account $1.8 - $2K
• Slept at - 4AM 

Edited January 15 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

15.01.26 

1. Anxiety stress pressure : 8/10 
2. Focus capacity : 3/10 
3. Feel like I need meds, feel like the safe healthy path isn't working, feel like i need to take risk to brute force my way into momentum, feel like I was just dealt a difficult hand in life, feel trapped again . Feel like I need modafinil and xanax and this and that to modulate myself and get through the day.

Edited January 15 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

15.01.26

Coffee gives no mercy.

Tried taking caffiene pills for days becuase I am whitening my teeth at night and it is non ideal to drink acidic or dark beverages during this period. 

Truth about caffiene pills : 

1. Very mild and short lived alertness 
2. Still impacts sleep onset just as much, perhaps even more
3. BUT does not provide any noticeable dopamine, energy, cognition boost no matter how much I take 
4. AND I STILL feel withdrawn from coffee as if I've have not taken any caffiene at all, have brain fog, low energy and cant focus. 
5. Some sort of meta science lesson perhaps about how rationalism tries to break things down into their base elements (caffiene) and assume that you can just switch form and it functions the same & is qualitatively the same? (clearly it doesnt) 
6. ^This leads to actually far worse sleep because then take 400-500MG just to try compensate, and it still doesnt work 
7. Caffiene pills fucking suck, what a scam

Coffee addiction is COFFEE addiction, not caffiene 

I had a coffee, and inmediately felt alive again after 3 days of struggling, its not merely about the MG content 

200MG coffee >> 500MG Caffiene pills 

 "not ideal" whitening but should be fine if i simply wait a couple hours, use a straw and rinse inmediately. 

As for another micro goal to add to money motivation : 

I need about $1500 and plan to get prosthetic veneers done, not my life priority, not some deep goal, but just a nice mini goal surface motivation  boost

THANK GOD I need coffee and not crack 

FUCK CAFFIENE PILLS. 

EWWWWW

APPRECIATE COFFEE WAY MORE NOW 

 

Edited January 15 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

15.01.26 : HONEST TE JOURNAL UPDATE

I AM BEING A HYPOCRITE. 

1. I keep getting lost in my head
2. I keep drifting 
3. I am forgetting structure 
4. I am not being decisive 
5. I am moving too slow 
6. I am hesitating again 
7. I am not decisively setting goals, metrics and targets, deadlines. 
8. I am not breaking down goals and big tasks > into micro tasks and steps, and inmediately acting on it until completion. 
9. I am being a useless ADHD little bastard. 

Genuine, decisive, mathematical Te from here only, results only, clear deadlines, no ambiguity, no leaving anything to chance, no hesitation, no half assing, all the way until I achieve what I need, no fucking time off, it's war mf. 

Update : Cold Approach 1 :

• Alone, cold dark, bad mood. 
• 6.5 - 7.5 
• 25 - 32 
• Normal small talk 
• Got WhatsApp 
• Feel relieved and more powerful again 
• Almost didn't approach because i was in my head about my failing finances 

Edited January 16 by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

17.01.26

Psychological Te Reminder 

I have to switch from outcome based dopamine loop >> effort based dopamine loopi

"all of life about getting results" 

Yeah but thats a by product of constant inputs 

So no its about inputs only 

"Whats the point if u dont get the result though" ..

... Literally impossible given enough time if the inputs are there 

Of course, u could have the wrong inputs, ineffective inputs 

So : 

1. Inputs 

2. Reflection / Data 

3. Adjust/Iterate inputs 

4. Results = by product 

 

[Optimized Life]

17/01.26 

Helath update

Been eating a lot of tuna recent months to save money and get my protien, instead of animal meat

But i am regretting it 

There could be other variables but i do feel worse 

I was told heavy metal accumulation is only negligible in the short term and significant after years of consistent consumption 

But then what the fuck do I know? 

The point is i have no idea, and likely the people who say that have no idea 

So i can only be cautious for cautions sake

Reminder, get the fucking money too 

Cant be cheap with my diet

[Optimized Life]

18.01.26

1. No fap Day 0, (streak day 2 killed last night)
2. Eye contact & presence has become weak, woman looked back at me and i looked away as she looked like a child, wtff, it's partly because of my state but i dont like excuses for this
3. Introspecting : Frustration, anger, bitterness, pain ect.. 
4. Motiavtion still very strong though 
5. Focus ability has improved again somehow despite all this

Edited Sunday at 04:01 PM by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

19.01.26 

I normally avoid the main forum 24/7 

Its not because its actually that bad .. its okay 

But its just another instagram 

I am here to work, here to focus, here to get results and be serious (playfulness comes when you are not stressed)

I am a playful person but now is not the time to fuck around 

another day, anther start 

Goals, affirmations, intentional thought patterns, results, subconcious mind, approaches, money, logistics, strategy, consistency, success. 

[Optimized Life]

22.01.26

Introspectively pre-emptively catching the decline 

• No Fap has been long gone for 3-4 weeks now 
• Emotional states are volatile 
• Feel constantly on the brink of collapse even when im doing things right 
• Constant stress, micro tension, facial tension
• Constant looping, b.s 
• Mind drifts into blame, excuses, catastrophising 
• Fear 
• Fear of aging, fear of wasting my life, fear of staying broke, fear of bailiffs, fear of faliure 
• Keep falling back into scarcity, drinking more caffiene at 5PM "just to push through" even though I know it damages my sleep and I should just wait and not borrow form tomorrow 
• Not doing enough Te, not writing down my tasks and goals being decisve enough every day again. 

SO what do I do? 

I become a psychopath again, 50 cent type stuff

Ultra disciplined psychopath 

Thats it 

Military type stuff 

Nothing else 

Just ruthless daily discipline 

I cant think of anything else 

yeah im desperate im tired im stressed 

I have to ovecmpensate with pyschopathy

Psychopaths jsut dont give a shit & force their way through the world 

Get the fucking money

Te record every day 

Net worth 

No fap steak 

Fapping is a bitch activity dont listen to leo .. .u wanna be like leo lmao? fuck that 

 

Edited 8 hours ago by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

22.01.26

My Gut is specifically permanently intolerant to chocolate protein shakes 

I can never forget this 

I got sick like 6 months ago 

I thought it would be ok after time 

Some reason, 6 months later, I have the same ON (Optimum Nutrtion) chocolate protien shake, and the exact same feeling comes back, I feel moderately sick, concentrating is harder, its unpleasant, i lose energy, all my energy goes towards my gut. 

I sometimes forget, at the gym out of convience I get one of these bastards. 

Never again man. 

Must remember 

MUST BEAT MY HEAD MULTIPLE TIMES A DAY TO TELL MYSELF TO NOT HAVE ONE OF THESE FUCKING SHAKES EVER AGAIN!

THIS IS SO WEIRD 

I'm literally permanently intolerant to it, wtf. 

[Optimized Life]

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