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[Optimized Life]

17.12.25 

Only 1 variable to handle now, priority shifted again : SLEEP 

SLeep arc guess from memory

6H> 4-5H > 5H > 6H > 5H > 9H > 7H-7.5H . 5.5H 

This is the pattern from the last 7-10 days. 

For the 9H & 7H days :

I did not have any meaningful late caffiene after 10-11AM (e.g 1 coke zero at 1PM max, thats about 30MG)

Yesterday : 

I broke my discipline & deluded myself 

"2nd coke zero + almost approx 70 grams of 70% dark chocolate" at 5PM 

^ That adds up to anywhere from 30MG + 40MG to 30MG + 60MG > so could be a full 90MG caffiene since I had so much choco

The dark chocolate brand is also impure, full of additives & likely other stimulants like theobromine. 

Random high calorie meals 8-10PM 

Late screens & mental stimulation at 10PM - 12AM 

Its these "tiny" slips that ruin it 

My 9H 7H days clearly had clean cut caffiene cutoffs and a wind down 

Now what was the core trigger that caused this loss of discipline : Desire to "grind it out" & inability to cope with/impatience with getting tired (which is expected after a week of sleep debt)

I have to just have more patience 

"Grinding it out" yesterday gained me little but cost me maybe a 50-100% productivity loss for ALL of today. It's a terrible decision. 

And after a week of sleep debt & other stuff, your body simply does just need at least 3-7 days of consistency to get back to full sustained energy mode, 1 day of 9H or 7H is never enough. Impatience and desperation, I am finally learning its limits. 

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1.5X+ reduced daily caffeine consumption from 300-450MG to 200-250MG, also became more precise and aware of how much caffiene I have, how much is approx in every product & brand, and built boundaries around this

I have built boundaries on the conscious level & understand its needed. 

But the subconscious ol bitch called homeostasis is coming back again (especially for late caffeine)

I need something stronger to keep it away. 

 

Edited Wednesday at 12:09 PM by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

20.12.25 

My mind, its thinking and writing patterns has gone back to its hemostatic state, overthinking, waffling, saying too much. 

The world rewards Functional intelligence, not verbosity, not talking shit. 

I need to reground this journal because its a reflection of regrounding myself. 

I made a life long commitment to Te, numbers, metrics, goal setting, key priorities and results, decisiveness, regular feedback, fast action, change, accomplishing things, getting results, proving it, and being a useful grounded person. Not wasting my life, living it, getting shit done, getting the money, getting in shape. Nothing else matters. 

I reckon only 0-1 people on this forum actually read my shit and care about my posts? and why? because I talk so much fucking nonsense. 

I'm not trying to become Leo, I find the 5% gold in leos work and weaponise it for > Maximum sex, maximum power, maximum money, maximum aura, maximum mental strength, maximum longevity, maximum fun, maximum skill, maximum health. 

Thats it, theres nothing else to fucking do! Lets go

20.12.25 Restarting :

1. No sugar (including juice or honey) Day 1 
2. No Fap day 1 
3. 14/15 > 11% BF Day 1 
4. Make $1,000 today
5. List all items to sell
6. Approach  if I go out

20.12.25  Result 

1. $598 Profit today 
2. No fap day 1 
3. No sugar day / Failed > Binged sugar & caffeine to grind, no guilt I have a big week 
4. Did not go out or approached, grinded all day and continue until 2-4AM, need another $300 

Edited 14 hours ago by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

21.12.25 

Caffiene & my body introspection : 

"Red bull is really bad, drink coffee instead, not these soda junk!"

Okay .. 

But I had a red bull zero ... and I felt pretty good, tasted good, no jitters, also feel more placebo & psychological boost. 

When i drink coffee, I anxiety is more noticeable and sudden, more stomach discomfort, feels .. heavier, more burdensome, like there's just something stuck in there. Red bull feels light, airy, functional, pleasant. 

Even if someone these subjective symptom distinctions are manipulated and not related to biological health (although I bet they are), the mere subjective differences alone impacts well being, mood and stress, and THAT impacts health the most.

The main downside to red bull is it's high acidity, so not ideal for LT dental health (but can also use a straw, rinse ect.)

The main point of this is 

A health coach, or some self help normie will always tell you "it has sucralose, its not natural, ohh no!"

But When i  drink red bull ... I feel pretty good. 

When I drink coffee, I feel pretty bad ...

So should i listen to my body or to the logic of others?

Caveat is - when I start drinking red bull too often, I also feel pretty bad. 

I also wouldn't drink it every single day LT because of acidity 

But for high grind weeks where I really need to brute force and smash my way through something? Jesus Christ red bull is 1000* better and more pleasant than coffee is.

Ok i am waffling too much : 

Red Bull = Fast, Pleasant, airy, functional, enjoyable, more subtle 

Coffee = (feels) Intense, stomach burden, heavy, indigestible, dirty, painful, stinky breath ect.. 

People act like Red Bull is "pure evil junk", but it's honestly fucking awesome for what it is, coffee is actually disgusting. 

And disgusting mean unhealthy alone but .. so what? Should I start fucking a 2/10 because its not biologically unhealthy for my dick? 

 

Edited 4 hours ago by Optimized Life