New Chapter in My Life: Habits and Disciplines

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #219~ Thu Sep 10 '26

Thank you to the universe for allowing me to find a job that I love. Thank you to my parents for giving me a trauma free childhood. Thank you to all of my friends who are nice to me and support me, I love you all. Thank you God for this opportunity to live in the dream state and create.

That is the point of life, it is to create. Think about that, you can create ANYTHING that you want. That is so cool! Now go out and enjoy yourself!

I'm starting to think that this girl is actually a big distraction for me right now. Of course I want her, but there are so many things that I'm trying to get a handle on outside of my infatuation for her. Why can't I just focus on that first. You keep complaining that you have too many things going on, but you are creating this life for yourself. You are investing your time and energy into all of these things, don't you see that. 

This isn't neccessarily bad, you are vaiuable now, you value your own time, other people value your time, but god damn, theres too much going on to actually pursue a state of no mind. I have to go, byeeeeee.

Daily goals:

Wake up at 7:30 AM: 1

Make bed: 35

Take medication: 52

Shower: 52

Groom hair: 52

Brush teeth: 52

Floss: 2

Kriya yoga: 0

No porn: 3

No ejaculation: 3

No electronics before bed: 1

Brush teeth before bed: 5

Wash face before bed: 5

 

Weekly goals: 

Workout 3x: 4 (☑️

Give yourself a haircut: 0

Do laundry: 7

Clean room: 7

Clean car: 6

 

Things to do:

Get new card at L Bank

Set up high yield savings account

Pay tolls - idk how to pay it - I have a number to call to pay it off

Get new light bulbs - ACE hardware on Saturday of next week

Wash sandals - 

Cancel dance lesson with dan 

Edited September 11 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #220~ Fri Sep 11 '26

 

Daily goals:

Wake up at 7:30 AM: 2

Make bed: 36

Take medication: 53

Shower: 53

Groom hair: 53

Brush teeth: 53

Floss: 3

Kriya yoga: 0

Push ups & pull ups:

No porn: 4

No ejaculation: 4

No electronics before bed: 0

Brush teeth before bed: 0

Wash face before bed: 0

 

Weekly goals: 

Workout 3x: 4 (☑️

Give yourself a haircut: 0

Do laundry: 7

Clean room: 7

Clean car: 6

 

Things to do:

Get new card at L Bank

Set up high yield savings account

Pay tolls - idk how to pay it - I have a number to call to pay it off

Get new light bulbs - ACE hardware on Saturday of next week

Edited September 11 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #221 ~ Sat Sep 12 '26

Alright so I'm at an overnight dance training in upstate New York. I love a girl that I work with. I love being around her. I've been having insights into the ability to create whatever kind of life that I want for myself. This is actually quite profound. I. I can also understand that we all merge into a pool of infinite love when we die. This is so obvious to me now. Of course, this is why life is a dream and you can create any kind of dream that you want... because the foundation of reality is an infinite stream or pool of infinite love. Infinite love equates to infinite creation. 

Now here's the kicker and the thing to consider... do I want to devote everything to this job, do I want kids ina few years, do I want to hook up with a bunch of girls, do i want to get married, how important are my friendships, how much time do I want to devote to reading spiritual books, etc... there are so many things to consider and so many options. 

Daily goals:

Wake up at 7:30 AM: 3

Make bed: 37

Take medication: 54

Shower: 54

Groom hair: 54

Brush teeth: 54

Floss: 4

Kriya yoga: 0

Push ups & pull ups: 0

No porn: 5

No ejaculation: 5

No electronics before bed: 0

Brush teeth before bed: 1

Wash face before bed: 1

 

Weekly goals: 

Workout 3x: 4 (☑️

Give yourself a haircut: 1

Do laundry: 7

Clean room: 7

Clean car: 6

 

Things to do:

Get new card at L Bank

Set up high yield savings account

Pay tolls - idk how to pay it - I have a number to call to pay it off

Get new light bulbs - ACE hardware on Saturday of next week

Edited September 12 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #222 ~ Sun Sep 13 '26

Daily goals:

Wake up at 7:30 AM: 4

Make bed: 38

Take medication: 55

Shower: 55

Groom hair: 55

Brush teeth: 55

Floss: 0

Kriya yoga: 0

Push ups & pull ups: 0

No porn: 6

No ejaculation: 6

No electronics before bed: 1

Brush teeth before bed: 2

Wash face before bed: 2

 

Weekly goals: 

Workout 3x: 4 (☑️

Give yourself a haircut: 1

Do laundry: 7

Clean room: 7

Clean car: 6

 

Things to do:

Get new card at L Bank

Set up high yield savings account

Get new light bulbs 

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #222 ~ Sun Sep 13 '26

Daily goals:

Wake up at 7:30 AM: 0

Make bed: 39

Take medication: 56

Shower: 56

Groom hair: 56

Brush teeth: 56

Floss: 0

Kriya yoga: 0

Push ups & pull ups: 0

No porn: 7

No ejaculation: 7

No electronics before bed: 1

Brush teeth before bed: 0

Wash face before bed: 0

 

Weekly goals: 

Workout 3x: 0

Give yourself a haircut: 1

Do laundry: 7

Clean room: 7

Clean car: 6

 

Things to do:

Get new card at L Bank

Set up high yield savings account

Get new light bulbs 

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #224 ~ Wed Sep 16 '26

Daily goals:

Wake up at 7:30 AM: 1

Make bed: 41

Take medication: 58

Shower: 58

Groom hair: 58

Brush teeth: 58

Floss: 1

Kriya yoga: 0

No porn: 1

No ejaculation: 1

No electronics before bed: 1

Brush teeth before bed: 1

Wash face before bed: 1

 

Weekly goals: 

Workout 3x: 0 (☑️

Give yourself a haircut: 1

Do laundry: 7

Clean room: 7

Clean car: 6

 

Things to do:

Get new card at L Bank

Set up high yield savings account

Ship thing to friend

Record video

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #225 ~ Thu Sep 17 '26

My life has changed dramatically. I get girls now, I am a successful dance instructor, I experience glimpses of the infinite / what death is, I have a good head of my shoulders, I am valuable at work and as a friend and intimate partner, I feel myself letting go of ego or at least becoming more aware of it, my body is becoming more muscular, everything is really working out and its because I have put in the time over these past few years to really grow myself and take care of business. 

I am living consciously nowadays with intention, with heart and with soul. Congratulations to you, you are one of the lucky ones. Now its your duty since you have made it this far to help others get to where you have gotten to. That is why you have been blessed with all of these lessons. You are here to serve others, to help them learn what you have started. 

Daily goals:

Wake up at 7:30 AM: 2

Make bed: 42

Take medication: 59

Shower: 59

Groom hair: 59

Brush teeth: 59

Floss: 2

Kriya yoga: 1

No porn: 2

No ejaculation: 2

No electronics before bed: 2

Brush teeth before bed: 0

Wash face before bed: 0

 

Weekly goals: 

Workout 3x: 0 (☑️☑️

Give yourself a haircut: 1

Do laundry: 7

Clean room: 7

Clean car: 6

 

Things to do:

Get new card at L Bank

Set up high yield savings account

Ship thing to friend

Edited September 17 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #226 ~ Fri Sep 18 '26

 

Daily goals:

Wake up at 7:30 AM: 0

Make bed: 43

Take medication: 60

Shower: 60

Groom hair: 60

Brush teeth: 60

Floss: 3

Kriya yoga: 1

No porn: 3

No ejaculation: 3

No electronics before bed: 0

Brush teeth before bed: 1

Wash face before bed: 1

 

Weekly goals: 

Workout 3x: 0 (☑️☑️

Give yourself a haircut: 1

Do laundry: 7

Clean room: 7

Clean car: 6

 

Things to do:

Get new card at L Bank

Set up high yield savings account

Ship thing to friend

Practice Argentine Tango

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #227 ~ Sat Sep 19 '26

 

Daily goals:

Make bed: 44

Take medication: 61

Shower: 61

Groom hair: 61

Brush teeth: 61

Floss: 4

Kriya yoga: 0

No porn: 4

No ejaculation: 4

No electronics before bed: 0

Brush teeth before bed: 2

Wash face before bed: 2

 

Weekly goals: 

Workout 3x: 0 (☑️☑️

Give yourself a haircut: 1

Do laundry: 7

Clean room: 7

Clean car: 6

 

Things to do:

Ship thing to friend

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #228 ~ Sun Sep 20 '26

 

Daily goals:

Make bed: 45

Take medication: 62

Shower: 62

Groom hair: 62

Brush teeth: 62

Floss: 5

Kriya yoga: 0

No porn: 5

No ejaculation: 5

No electronics before bed: 0

Brush teeth before bed: 0

Wash face before bed: 0

 

Weekly goals: 

Workout 3x: 0 (☑️☑️

Give yourself a haircut: 1

Do laundry: 7

Clean room: 7

Clean car: 6

 

Things to do:

Ship thing to friend - do this on Monday 

 

Finances: 

Checking $3900

Money market $1,900

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #228 ~ Mon Sep 21 '26

Some of my streaks just keep rising and rising, congratulations. I am tired right now, all I want to do is fuckaround all day. I miss those days where I have nothing going on and I can just "rot" all day. At the same time, I enjoy being the man that is able to take care of business. 

I love a girl, I want to be with her. But I also have other desires that are motivating me. I have a friend with benefits that I am trying my best to help get her out of her comfort zone. 

My life is filled with contribution. I am able to make a real positive and lasting impact on the people around me. 

I never know how to feel when i watch porn and ejaculate. I am doing it much less which pushes me to go out there and hook up with girls. I made out with two different girls last week. I understand the feminine to a high degree and I express my attraction towards them authentically. After i ejaculate however, i am done, i dont feel the attraction anymore. I want to start masturbating without any porn, in this way I will get in touch with the sexual energy inside of my body. I think I want another book on circulating sexual energy... or I just need to practice. 

My kriya yoga practice has yet to materialize which is unfortunate. I see the immense benefits that i can get out of it but I have been unable to fit it into my schedule thus far. But that's okay, one thing at a time...

I want to sign up for a RASA session with Amanda Devi. If enlightenment is really the most important thing to me then I would prioritize it. I think I'm scared to do it but I really should just give it a shot, I have the money now. 

I also want to get a handle on my finances and my schedule. What am I doing with my time? How do I want my time to be allocated? What is most important to me? Should I put more time into reading books or should I put more time into getting certified at work. How much time do I want to spend hanging out with that girl? How about the other girl? How about time for yourself to relax? How about time for enlightenment? How important is money to you? All of these things require attention. 

Now, I have to get ready for work and give myself a haircut, clean my room, clean my car and maybe even do laundry. 

 

I can't wait for tomorrow when I hang out with my friend. I have some lessons but nothing too serious. I am going to drink a little bit right now to blow off some steam. 

 

Daily goals:

Make bed: 46

Take medication: 63

Shower: 63

Groom hair: 63

Brush teeth: 63

Floss: 6

Kriya yoga: 0

No porn: 0

No ejaculation: 0

No electronics before bed: 0

Brush teeth before bed: 1

Wash face before bed: 1

 

Weekly goals: 

Workout 3x: 0 

Give yourself a haircut: 1

Do laundry: 7

Clean room: 7

Clean car: 6

Pleasure yourself without porn 

 

Things to do:

Ship thing to friend - do this on Monday 

Check out Finances

Hang up things on wall

Re organize bed

Plessure yourself without porn 

 

Finances: 

Checking $3900

Money market $1,900

Edited Tuesday at 03:15 AM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #229 ~ Tue Sep 22 '26

Daily goals:

Make bed: 47

Take medication: 64

Shower: 64

Groom hair: 64

Brush teeth: 64

Floss: 7

Kriya yoga: 0

No porn: 1

No ejaculation: 1

No electronics before bed: 0

Brush teeth before bed: 0

Wash face before bed: 0

 

Weekly goals: 

Workout 3x: 0 

Give yourself a haircut: 1

Do laundry: 7

Clean room: 8

Clean car: 6

Pleasure yourself without porn: 

 

Things to do:

Ship thing to friend - do this on Monday 

Check out Finances

Hang up things on wall

Re organize bed

Pleasure yourself without porn 

 

Finances: 

Checking $3900

Money market $1,900

Edited Wednesday at 02:46 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #230 ~ Wed Sep 23 '26

I would first like to say that I have achieved lots of the success that I wanted in the material world, "dream" world. I get girls now, I really like one of them and I see a future with her, I am a smooth talker, I regulate emotions well, I win dance awards, the solos that I perform feel amazing, I am secure within my own body, I feel like a man, I am stacking money in my bank account, and I am able to zoom my perspective outwards to include the other people around me. 

All in all, the amount of growth that I have achieved has been remarkable. I've been making out with my co worker after work a few times a week, staying there until 2 am, this is something that I could only dream about a few years ago... let that sink in for a second. You have attracted or manifested this into your life. Congratu-fuckin-lations. 

The kicker here though is once I attained these things, I'm just like yeah okay, whats next? Its as if it doesn't even really fulfill me or make me feel any better. Where is in the past, I was thinking, if I could just get a girl, all of my problems would be solved, if I could just win this competition, all of my problems would be solved, if I could just teach 20 lessons a week, all my problems would be solved. And then you reach that point and your problems aren't solved at all. Your life is different now, its more fun, there is more freedom, you're living more of a life that you want, one thats more in line with your vision, but theres a lack of fulfillment or happiness. Its as if my mind is continuing and will always continue to find something wrong, something to fix. Am I destined to live a life forever unhappy? Forever looking for something that needs changing? Will I ever be able to sit with what I have and be content? 

Over this past weekend, we had a dance event and I performed more solos than any other teacher, I won the pro show (instructor with instructor performances) and 2 of my students got 1st place for their performances. And all I can think about is "so what?" Its not that big of a deal. Should I be soaking it all in? Is my ego afraid to gloat? Or is it more the fact that I can see that the accolades don't really mean anything and its more about the feeling when you're actually dancing? I'm not sure. 

What I do know for sure is that in general I feel like I don't have a good handle on my life right now. You can take a look at the above paragraphs and question how that could be true with all of the success that I am getting. But I feel like I'm drowning. I don't have a handle of finances, I don't have a solid morning routine, I don't have a solid workout routine. And I'm still really unorganized which makes me late to things. And I don't know when or how I am going to get out of this hole. And to put this into perspective, its just really funny because I am thinking all I have to do is get a handle on all of these things and then all my problems will be solved.... But as I stated above, thats not going to happen. Your problems are never completely solved. And I think thats a pill you are just going to have to swallow. Sorry.... 

Daily goals:

Make bed: 48

Take medication: 65

Shower: 65

Groom hair: 65

Brush teeth: 65

Floss: 8

Kriya yoga: 0

No porn: 2

No ejaculation: 2

No electronics before bed: 1

Brush teeth before bed: 1

Wash face before bed: 1

 

Weekly goals: 

Workout 3x: 0 

Give yourself a haircut: 1

Do laundry: 7

Clean room: 8

Clean car: 7

Pleasure yourself without porn: 

 

Things to do:

Check out Finances

Hang up things on wall

Re organize bed

 

Finances: 

Checking $3900

Money market $1,900

Edited Wednesday at 03:01 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #231 ~ Thu Sep 24 '26

Okay, so this kind of talk is long overdue. Heres the thing, you want things, right? You want things in this dream state...Right now, I do not have the time to contemplate things very much because I am so busy with all of these projects and activities. I've realized something recently, all this is doing is giving you OPTIONS. You have so many options to play around with. You can pursue enlightenment, you can pursue women and sex, you can pursue money, you can pursue having an incredible physique, you can become a master dance instructor, you can become a world champion dancer... do you see that you can have anything and EVERYTHING actually. You're going to have to be smart about it and have discipline, but you can have it all. 

Okay, lets take a good hard look at all of your options:

• Enlightenment: This is getting in touch with God, with the Truth of the Universe, it is the ultimate pursuit in this life. How much time would you like to spend a week pursuing this? 
• Finances: What would you like your finances to look like? How much would you like to be making? How much would you like to spend on food and entertainment? How much would you like to be saving? How much are you spending right now? How much are you making? This requires time to access
• Women: I have two women in my life right now. Which woman would you like to pursue a relationship with? The answer to that is obvious. What would you like to do with the other woman? How much time would you like to spend to spend with these girls? How quickly would you like to have sex with them? 
• Friends: I have a plethora of amazing friends that I can hang out with. How important are those relationships to you? How much time and money and energy would you like to give towards them? 
• Relaxation: How much time would you like to have a week where you have nothing going on, no obligations, no anything.. I feel like you do crave this, but I never get enough of it. 
• Being multi - orgasmic: I have a goal to be multi-orgasmic while having sex with women. I've experienced multiple full body orgasms while pleasuring myself, but never with an actual woman. This requires practice and I would like to practice without the use of porn
• Income: My income comes mainly from dance. I teach lessons on a weekly basis, which I get paid for. I participate in events which get me a big paycheck. I can get certified which will increase my rate per lesson, I can also DoorDash on the side although that sounds a little ridiculous with everything else that I want in my life
• A God-like physique: I want to have a God-like physique. I want to become stronger, a lot stronger while also keeping a lean, 6 pack abs type of body. This requires me to have a workout plan that I stick to on a weekly basis as well as having a meal plan that will help me reach my goals 
• Sleep: How much sleep do I need in order to function properly? 
• Expenses: How much should I be spending? I feel like I would benefit from having a budget so that I can keep myself in check
• Dance: I work 40 hours a week at the dance studio. Most of those hours are allocated towards teaching lessons. Outside of that, how much time can I afford to spend on working on certification, on working on competitions, on working on performances with other teachers, etc... thats another thing to think about
• House organization and cleanliness: How much time would I like to spend cleaning my room and making it organized. This is essential really. Having a clean and clear environment is what opens the door towards being clear headed and focused. 

 

Now, lets take a deeper dive into each area and figure out what I am going to do about this...

• Women: I feel like I've already found the person I'd like to spend the rest of my life with to be honest with you. Now its just a matter of how much time would I like to spend with her now. Also, what do I do with the other girl? How often am I hanging out with her? How much time do I devote towards these two girls? This also makes it easy, I don't have to go out there and look for a new girl. I am content with my current situation in this area. I would like to hang out with the girl that I'm not taking seriously every Thursday night after work and the other girl every Friday night after work. Lets just stick with that for now. Eventually, we will start hanging out on the weekends with each other, maybe even going on a trip together.
• Enlightenment: I would like to spend 20 minutes every morning doing Kriya Yoga, which is a breath-work meditation that moves you closer and closer towards the God within. It also quiets the mind, which helps with work and dealing with people. This has got to be a non-negotiable for me. Lets get that routine together. As far as reading spiritual books, I am unsure when I can fit that in, can I find time on the weekends? How about coming home after work and reading something? How about Tuesday and / or Thursday when I don't go into work until 4? Also when am I waking up every day, will it vary or should it be the same time every day? 
• A God- like physique: I tend to work out without a real plan or way to track my progress and I also don't meal plan, ever. If I could get a consistent meal plan going, my life would become so much easier and more efficient. When should I be working out? Do I like Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday nights? Can I fit in time on the weekend? I don't love banking on that... I'm not totally sure because I want to spend time on extra dancing during the day as well, but at the same time this is probably the most important thing to me right now, I want to get a habit going that is going to give me that God-like physique. 
• Finances: Lets take a look at your income and expeneses. I fuckin' hate doing this to be honest with you, but I also hate feeling so scattered when it comes to what I should be spending my money on. I actually have money coming now and a savings, you should be really proud of that. Just over a year ago, you were in lots of debt. You have dug yourself out of that hole. Now, its time to start building a castle. 
• Income: Honestly, things are growing naturally at the studio. This is because of all of the work I've put into my personal development, spirituality, and my work as dancer. Thats all great, but I can also get more certifications, which requires me to take time out of my week to work on becoming certified. On the bright side, the person I will be working with is my favorite girl in the world, so that won't be too bad, at least we are spending time together. I love the relationship that I have with here because I feel like we genuinely want whats best for each other, we're not taking from each other, we are providing value. 
• House organization and cleanliness: This is much more important than I had originally thought, this is the root of all things really. You want a clean environment, one that is organized and free of clutter. This is the foundation for which everything above can be accomplished with a clear mind. 

 

This weekend, on Saturday, I am going to get home from my dance lessons and I am going to take a good hard look at this again and I will come up with a plan moving forward. This plan may change, but it is going to be something concrete, one that creates a foundation for what I am trying to achieve. You only have so much time during your day, during your week, during your month, so allocate it smartly and decisively. 

 

 

Daily goals:

Make bed: 49

Take medication: 66

Shower: 66

Groom hair: 66

Brush teeth: 66

Floss: 9

Kriya yoga: 0

No porn: 0

No ejaculation: 3

No electronics before bed: 0

Brush teeth before bed: 2

Wash face before bed: 2

 

Weekly goals: 

Workout 3x: 0 

Give yourself a haircut: 1

Do laundry: 7

Clean room: 8

Clean car: 7

 

Things to do:

Check out Finances

Hang up things on wall

Re organize bed

 

Finances: 

Checking $3900

Money market $1,900

Edited 11 hours ago by Spiritual Warrior