New Chapter in My Life: Habits and Disciplines

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #200 ~ Thu Aug 20 '26

Its vacation day! I'm  heading out on a work trip! Last night, I couldn't sleep. I felt like I was experiencing the infinitude of the universe. I accessed a state that was incredible. I am turning more and more God-like day by day. 

I didn't get to sleep until 4 am last night. My mind kept turning with fantasy after fantasy, mostly about women. It was fun, tantalizing even, but now I am tired af. 

I just got picked up and we are heading to one of our coworkers houses to eat protein pancakes and eggs and drink coffee. I am excited for that. Hopefully the coffee and food will wake me up. 

I'm so tired I can't even think straight.  But I am here to have fun. 

 

Is this what it feels like to have everyone want you? I have to hurt someone. Or maybe not. Everyone wants my attention. Do I have enough to give? This is fear talking. This is insecurity. Of course you have enough to give. 

 

These women are all over me this weekend. Is this real? Do they actually like me or do they just enjoy the attention that I'm giving them. But isn't that what I enjoy as well is the attention that they give me? Of course. Of course you do so don't be a hypocrite. 

 

I can see myself becoming more God like every second of every day. I am allowing myself to zoom out and think big picture. What is the best thing for everyone, in the here and now and for the future. I'm doing well, don't get that twisted.

 

What else can I even do right now? You're doing well. But I want more. I want to become something, I want to experience God realization, true God realization. All of these social games that I'm playing, chasing women, chasing sex, chasing happiness, yeah it's all great, but the mystery of life and reality, that is what is going to beat the sweetest fruits and I can see that. But then of course, be kind to yourself because of you're not, then you won't be kind to others and they won't be kind to you. We are all One. 

Daily goals:

Shower: 31

Groom hair: 31

Brush teeth: 31

Floss: 1

Take medication: 31

Drink protein shake: 0

Make bed: 14

Kriya yoga: 0 

No porn: 4

No ejaculation: 4

Eat 150 g of protein: 3

No electronics after 11pm: 5

Brush teeth before bed: 4

Wash face before bed: 4

 

Weekly goals: 

Workout 3x: 2 (☑️☑️☑️

Give yourself a haircut: 1

Meal prep 2x a week: 0 (☑️

Do laundry: 4

Clean room: 4

Clean car: 3

Edited yesterday at 08:50 AM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #201 ~ Fri Aug 21 '26

Daily goals:

Shower: 32

Groom hair: 32

Brush teeth: 32

Floss: 2

Take medication: 32

Drink protein shake: 0

Make bed: 15

Kriya yoga: 0

No porn: 5

No ejaculation: 5

Eat 150 g of protein: 0

No electronics after 11pm: 6

Brush teeth before bed: 5

Wash face before bed: 5

 

Weekly goals: 

Workout 3x: 2 (☑️☑️☑️

Give yourself a haircut: 1

Meal prep 2x a week: 0 (☑️

Do laundry: 4

Clean room: 4

Clean car: 3

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #202 ~ Sat Aug 22 '26

I want you to start respecting yourself. Respect your own boundaries. Find a way to tell people when you need something, when you need space, when you're not okay with what they did, etc... 

You are loved, but it starts from yourself, self love, self respect, put yourself on a pedestal. You are important. 

There is a romance brewing with a girl here, I'll explain later. 

It's difficult to balance time and energy investe in yourself while also finding time with others. You want to spend time with these other people that make you feel good but at the same time have your own boundaries, have your own beliefs and stick up for yourself. 

In a bigger picture too, you are trying to become more and more God- like. But of course this starts with self love. Self love equates to infinite love. Love yourself first and love for everyone else will follow. 

The biggest problem with becoming romantic with someone is there is now an attachment to that person, you have an egoic attachment to their attention, you want them to want you, you want to spend time with them, they affecting your emotional state, etc.... this is all a challenge though of course, regulating those emotions and becoming aware of the egos attachment towards this person. 

Okay, I need to get my kriya yoga in, I love to procrastinate. 

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I did have a really good session of kriya yoga, it really is such a god send. It makes me aware of what's going on around me. 

I really want to start showering as soon as I wake up and then getting right into kriya yoga and then getting ready for my day. 

What would that look like? 

1. Wake up at 8 am

2. Shower and groom 

3. 8:30 practice kriya yoga - this needs to be 

Daily goals:

Shower: 33

Groom hair: 33

Brush teeth: 33

Floss: 3

Take medication: 33

Drink protein shake: 0

Make bed: 16

Kriya yoga: 1

No porn: 6

No ejaculation: 6

Eat 150 g of protein: 0

Brush teeth before bed: 6

Wash face before bed: 6

 

Weekly goals: 

Workout 3x: 2 (☑️☑️☑️

Give yourself a haircut: 1

Meal prep 2x a week: 0 (☑️

Do laundry: 4

Clean room: 4

Clean car: 3

Edited 2 hours ago by Spiritual Warrior