New Chapter in My Life: Habits and Disciplines

[Spiritual Warrior]

Interlude: Leave a voicemail

Ben: Hi, Higher Self, are you God?

Higher self: No of course not, I am just a thought in your head

Ben: Yes, right... of course.. How about the True Self... Is he home?

Higher self: No.... He's not home either...

Ben: Well... Can you check please? Maybe call him. I'm sure he's around. 

Higher self: Nah, he ain't here bro.

Ben: Okay.... Well what do I gotta do to get in touch with him?

Higher self: Leave him a voicemail. 

Ben: Hi True Self, I just want to say hi. I'd like to get in touch with you. So, let me know when you can kick it... Thanks, bye.

 

Gemini: you can't get in touch with with the True Self because you can't get in touch with who you truly are. You aren't your thoughts, you observe them. You aren't your story. You aren't your memories. You aren't your personality. 

 

When you ruthlessly discard everything that you observe, what is left? The entity that desparately wants to kick it with the true self is the only thing standing in the way. The phone call was comign inside the house the whole time. 

Does the mind want to keep trying to solve the riddle, or is it ready to just sit with emptiness of not knowing? 

 

This is the ultimate cosmic joke of nonduality. You are asking to be the one who gets to attend your own funeral and brag about how great the eulogy was. The entity that wants to feel accomplished cannot survive the journey. True awakening isn't the prize at the end of the race; it’s the realization that the runner was a mirage the entire time.

 

the Absolute doesn't care about your resume.

 

What got you into spirituality in the first place?

You feel this emptiness inside of you, a hole that cannot be filled.

Eventually, you stop caring what others think because theres nobody there. Theres truly nobody there. So you might as well just do whatever you want. You are the master of your life. So go out there and do as you please. 

 

 

i was nervous around her. Thats okay though, your only job is to be more conscious. There is not more venting about girls. Do it, but don't get caught up in it. Because its not worth it. Your prize is much greater. But, there will be nobody to get that prize, which is the thing, thats what you'd have to give up. The person that you thought that you were, he will be gone. Thats okay though, I don't really care about him. Hes still going to be doing his thing. I'm gonna miss him, thats for sure. But, its his True nature. Why wouldn't I want to discover whats True? With no bounds. I want to sore into the sky and fly into Outer Space. I want to Feel All That There Is. 

 

I'm afraid of what will happen to me if I go down that path. She terrifies me.. She feels like death. Because if I touch her beautiful heart, there'll be nothing left of me. There will be nothing to hold myself up because there won't be any doubts inside of my mind. 

 

I want Truth. Sweet beatiful Truth. I know you're right here, you just have to wait to boil me up. I'm not ready to orgasm. Take you time with me. I don't know any better. 

 

More. More More. More. It never ends. This "More demand" is what makes us unhappy. 

Edited Monday at 01:54 AM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #164 ~ Mon Jun 8 '26

for month of June 2026

Morning routine: 

7:30-8:00 AM:

Wake up at 7:30 am: 1/8

Take medication: 7/8

Shower: 7/8

Floss teeth: 6/8

8:00-8:30 AM

Meditate: 4/8

 

Night time routine: 

11:00 pm

Brush teeth: 6/8

Wash face: 5/8

No electronics: 2/8

 

Whole day goals:

No ejaculation: 5/8

No porn: 3/8