New Chapter in My Life: Habits and Disciplines

[Spiritual Warrior]

@croonprince appreciate the support brother! ✊

[Spiritual Warrior]

I am going to be so good at game and attracting women into my life

I feel the fear and I do it anyways

I am a chick magnet

I have full body orgasms and can last in bed for hours

I have multiple women clamoring for my attention

I am a responsible and organized and mature individual

I have everything that I've asked for

I share things on the Internet, things that are going to help humanity grow

I have an amazing wife, we are building an empire together

I attract high quality women into my life at every turn

I cannot wait to see what kind of man I turn into 

[Spiritual Warrior]

Okay, so I have a plethora of things to work on. Firstly, I really want to get back on track with this habit tracker. I just want to be clear headed and highly conscious and for everything to be clean. I want to be on top of things, to have a REAL handle on my life and my schedule and my environemnt. I don't think I've ever actually experienced this, is it even possible? I'd like to think that it is. Okay, but where does it start. What are you going to start with? 

First, what do you want big picture?

 

Women / Dating:

1. I want to have an abundance of sex with an abundance of women. 

2. I want to have a highly conscious girlfriend

3. I want to have a highly consious wife that I can build a life with

 

Living situation:

1. Clean and organized room 

2. Apartment that I can bring girls back to

3. House with a backyard and back porch

 

Physique:

1. Consistent workout schedule / Meal Plan

2. Bulked up muscles

3. Shredded physique with very little fat, looking like a Spartan Warrior

 

Dance:

1. Successful dance instructor (30 lessons / week, winning competitions)

2. World champion dancer ( Fully expressive, blows everyone out of the water)

3. Run a dance studio

 

I posted a video on YouTube documenting my desire to start cold approaching women. Check it out below! 

 

Here is another video of the audiobook for The Book of Not Knowing:

 

 

Edited April 2 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #141

Okay, so I am finally getting things in order at the crib. My room is FINALLY clean. It's been messy for WEEKS. Not ideal. Now, it's time to start setting up your life for efficient and effective growth as well as happiness. 

Yesterday, I posted a video documenting my intentions to embark on a cold approaching journey. I am very excited to see where that goes. This is a positive step in the right direction for me. 

Now, id also really like to set up a gym routine so that I am holding myself accountable and going to the gym. I also want to create a routine in which I am working on my dancing and/or choreography at certain times throughout the work day, I want to devote some time to working with Izzy on certification dance training, devote some time to work with Sarah on a bolero solo, and also devote some time for cold approaching as well as dates throughout the week. 

Okay, so there's lots that I would like to balance. Let's start out with the work schedule and see how we can fit things together. Actually, let's start with today:

I go into work at 1 o'clock, but I have to dog sit this weekend and I am going to get paid $200. This means that I have to get there by 12 o'clock so that I can walk the dog for 30 minutes before I leave, which means I have to leave here by 11:30. I can eat what my friends dad left in the fridge for me before I leave. I am going to pack up some chicken and bring that minute rice and that's what I'm going to eat today. Eventually, I want a consistent meal plan that I create myself. 

Okay, so that takes care of that, so you're gonna work and then you'll come back to his house and go to sleep there. I would love to bring my kindle with me. What am I going to do about the porn watching? I have changed my view on semen retention. I am not quite sure if it really benefits me to hold in my semen all the time, I think I need to ejaculate, but I'm not sure. What should I do? Well you definitely want to last a long time, I wish you could just masturbate without stimulation because you're trying to use your phone less. Can you try that tonight? Try to masturbate without any external stimulus and see how that goes. The ultimate goal is to be able to last as long as possible and to have full body orgasms. This requires mindfulness and lots of it and also an awareness of the energy channels within your body, yes let's try that tonight and hopefully we can create a schedule. 

I think i want to start selling some of my books and my MacBook. There are plenty of books that I am not currently using that I could make some money on and my MacBook would certainly sell. Let's look into that tomorrow. I also have a dance practice tomorrow with Sarah, this is our first one together. This means that I have to leave Shane's by 10 o'clock am. 

And I also want to start working out. I REALLY want to start tomorrow because it's been so long, but that means I have to create a meal plan for myself, maybe I should buy one of those mini scales so that I can weigh out my portions... Maybe. I have an entire rotisserie chicken is the thing. And I have some kombucha. I would love to bring my blender to make protein shakes but then I don't have the ingredients that I need which means I'd have to wake up early tomorrow. God damnit I wish I was off tomorrow so that I can figure it out. I mean you are off, it's just that life is always moving, so get your shit together during these small lapses in responsibility. Okay fine...

So in reality when I'm back at home I want to have some chicken thighs and some protein shakes and some rice and some bean salad to get me through the days, but while I'm dog sitting I will have to live off of rotisserie chicken and kombucha and minute rice. 

Okay, so I would really love to get a meditation habit going. This is of the utmost important. What else is supper important to you? Making the bed and showering and journaling. And I also want no electronics before bed. 

 

4.2.26

Morning Routine:

Make bed: 1

Journal: 11

Brush teeth streak: 150

Floss streak: 1

Shower streak: 124

Meditation streak: 0

 

Nighttime Routine Goals:

Brush teeth streak: 1

Wash face streak: 1

No electronics before bed: 0

 

"Whole day" goals:

No alcohol streak: 154

 

Dating Goals:

Total number of women cold approached: 6

Edited April 5 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Interlude: Crazy Girl ~ 4.4.26

I want to live on a ranch. With chickens and cows. That is how I want to settle down. And out of all the girls that I've met, you truly are my favorite.

You can create whatever scenario you want for yourself. This is overwhelming actually. Insanely overwhelming. But YOU have the power. You and your thoughts. 

But right now, I want something else.. I want a sexually charged toxic relationship. One that is going to burn me to the core. I want that. I want a crazy ass girl. So come on out crazy girl, I'm ready for you. 

 

Dramatic Girl

The world is vast

Unapologetic

I wish you well

 

Take off the mask

No more disguise

I see your lies

A problem girl

 

Her day ones know

Her family knows

She has her vices

Who am I to judge

 

She's tucked away

Somewhere remote

I've been enlightened

The sweetest hope

 

 

 

Edited April 4 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #142

 

Our culture seems to be sex - obsessed. Why is that? Sex is directly tied to our survival mechanism. What is a survival mechanism? A survival mechanism is what keeps us alive. It is what keeps our heart beating. It keeps the breath in motion, in and out, in and out. 

What is something that threatens your survival as a human being? Being banished from my tribe - I am dependent upon others to survive, I therefore have to act in a certain way in order to get along with others. This makes social situations of the utmost importance to me. I don't want to embarass myself and be disapproved of because it will threaten my survive as this human being form. 

What is a human beings' form? He is in this body. He is experiencing things. With a mind and hands and feet and a heart. He can think for himself and control his actions. He can think one thing or another. He can read this book or that book. 

Where do the thoughts come from? They appear out of thin air. I don't see them coming, they just come. They appear in my mind for processing. But I don't really process them or even witness them, I allow them to run my body, this body that I identify with. 

I am trying to witness my thoughts, but I tend to get wrapped up in them more often than not. How do I rid myself of these thoughts? 

You can't. You need them in order to survive. But how do you know that? If I am hungry, my thoughts tell me to eat, I see a picture of food, I see some milk and an omelet. But this is not what tells me to eat, its the feeling or sensation in the body that lets me know if something is awry... So maybe I should steer more towards FEELING the body instead of having so much energy inside of my head.

I REALLY want to start masturbating without external stimulation. 

 

4.3.26

Morning Routine:

Make bed: 2

Journal: 12

Brush teeth streak: 151

Floss streak: 0

Shower streak: 125

Meditation streak: 0

 

Nighttime Routine Goals:

Brush teeth streak: 0

Wash face streak: 0

No electronics before bed: 0

 

"Whole day" goals:

No alcohol streak: 155

 

Dating Goals:

Total number of women cold approached: 6

Edited April 5 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #143

When does the rubber meet the road? And what does that even mean? The rubber hits the road when you are truly ready to take your first step on this journey. Of course, you are already on your journey, and as a matter of fact you really can't get off. You are cruising down this road until the Creator tells you its time to get off. 

 

What do you want more than anything? I want to have good game. I want to be able to attract an abundance of women into my life all by myself. I want to teach on average 20 lessons a week, consistently. 

 

Who are the solid students that I have once I get back from surgery? Daniela, Mike, Mary Ann, Jackson and Tina, Pam L, Tanya, Katie, Kiyah.. And that is really it. 

 

What are you mad about right now? You are living the dream. You are building a life that is fulfilling and that you are ver proud of. Whats the issue? I just feel like these other teachers are getting more opportunities than me. Okay, first of all, thats really not true at all. But I feel like the outsider, with so few lessons and I've been here a long time, its embarrassing. Dude shut the fuck up. Okay, you know what, could you release this feeling? Yes, but I don't want to. You want to stay mad? Yes... Its serving a purpose.. What purpose is that? If I am being treated unfairly, I want to know so that I can take action. How are you being treated unfairly? The success at this dance studio is COMPLETELY up to you. You can be frustrated with the lack of pay all you want, but their is a path to making more money, you just need to be strategic and understand that this requires strategy and hard work. Do you feel better now? A little bit. Now, I will ask again, can you release the way you are feeling? Yes, yes I can. Would you release it? Yes, I release it. 

 

"I don't want any of them to succeed. I want my self and only myself to succeed." That is the thought that just ran through my head. Embarrassing huh? Why do I think like this? I care about these people, why do I not root for their success. For some reason, I think that there success has a detrimental effect on my success, which actually doesn't even make any sense. We lift each other up, not tear each other down. But I'm still feeling frustrated, and you know what? Thats okay. Lean into it, let it fuel you. Thats what we're going to do today. 

 

 4.4.26

Morning Routine:

Make bed: 3

Journal: 13

Brush teeth streak: 152

Floss streak: 0

Shower streak: 126

Meditation streak: 1

 

Nighttime Routine Goals:

Brush teeth streak: 1

Wash face streak: 1

No electronics before bed: 1

 

"Whole day" goals:

No alcohol streak: 156

No doom scrolling: 0

 

Dating Goals:

Total number of women cold approached: 6

Edited April 5 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #144

Ahhhhh fuck dude. I have no discipline. How do I get that? I want to be disciplined. I want to be organized. I want to understand my own mind and emotional state. I want to get enough sleep. I want to feel well rested and happy. I want to do things when they're supposed to get done. 

Tomorrow morning, I am going to wake up at 7:30 am and jump in the shower. Then I am going to meditate until 8:30. Then I am going to eat breakfast and journal, then make sure that I am ready to head off to work, then I leave at 9:30 am and get to my dance training at 10:00 am.

I allow my mind to do whatever it feels like. That is my problem right now. Stay disciplined so that you can accomplish your goals. 

I am going to prioritize women that are actually a positive force in my life. This one girl is NOT a positive force, she is a fuckin' mess, stay away from her, shes a crazy bitch.

 

4.5.26

Morning Routine:

Wake up at 7:30 am: 0

Make bed: 4

Journal: 14

Brush teeth streak: 153

Floss streak: 0

Shower streak: 127

Meditation streak: 2

 

Nighttime Routine Goals:

Brush teeth streak: 2

Wash face streak: 2

No electronics before bed: 2

 

"Whole day" goals:

No alcohol streak: 157

No doom scrolling: 1

No Instagram:

No YouTube:

No Photos App:

No Spotify:

No smoking weed:

 

Dating Goals:

Total number of women cold approached: 6

 

Things to Do:

• Call Mariott Albany to get vest
• Call insurance to see if they cover this "consultation call" 
• Cash in Disney shares - get birth certificate from dad

 

Finances:

Week of 4/6:

Checking: 245.68

Spending so far: $75/100

Important: $819 taken out of account on 4/13 - I will not have enough to pay for this if I don't do anything about it soon

 

Workout Regimen: 

Workout 1: Push (Monday)

Barbell Bench Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps

Incline Bench Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 95/8 95/9 115/6

Dumbbell Bench Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

Triceps Pushdown 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 40/8 40/6 40/6

Workout 2: Legs (Tuesday)

Barbell Squat 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 45/17 95/8 95/8 115/6

Leg Curl 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 75/8 60/11 75/8

Leg Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 140/10 180/7 180/7

DB Lunge 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 15/11 15/10 15/12

 

Workout 3: Upper (Thursday)

Seated Dumbbell Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps

Seated Cable Row 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps

Close-Grip Bench Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

DB Rear Lateral Raise 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

 

Workout 4: Pull (Friday)

Barbell Deadlift 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps

One-Arm Dumbbell Row 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps

Lat Pulldown 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

Alternating DB Curl 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

 

Goals in life: 

First tier (5 year goals): 

• Have a shredded physique
  • Workout 3-5 days a week
  • Eat 150 g of protein a day
• Win dance competitions
  • Compete in as many dance competitions as possible
  • Get a coaching once a week
  • Practice as much as I comfortably can
• Become a “player” that has sex with lots of women
  • Go out to Boston every weekend and talk to women 
  • Go out salsa dancing Thursday, Friday, Saturday nights
• Have a Youtube channel in which I talk about masculinity and I approach women “in the field”
  • Start recording yourself talking about things
  • Start recording yourself going out and talking to people
• Have full body orgasms while having sex, last for at least 30 minutes
  • Get in touch with energy fields while meditating
  • Masturbate without stimulation and last as long as possible
• Buy a cute little house with a porch and outdoor bar
  • Save up money and continue to grow income through dance and YouTube 

Transition phase (5-10 years):

• Marry the girl of my dreams

Second tier (10 year goals): 

• Become an Arthur Murray dance studio owner
  • Build lessons and events as quickly as possible
• Reach LOC 600 (non-dual state)
  • Meditate every morning and read spiritual books every night 

Third tier (20 year goals):

• Open up a meditation center
  • Daily meditation and save up money
• Write books about Truth and enlightenment
  • Daily meditation and reading spiritual books 
• Reach LOC 1,000
  • Daily meditation and reading spiritual books

Edited Tuesday at 06:53 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #145

4.7.26

Morning Routine:

Wake up at 7:30 am: 1

Make bed: 5

Journal: 15

Brush teeth streak: 154

Floss streak: 1

Shower streak: 128

Meditation streak: 3

 

Nighttime Routine Goals:

Brush teeth streak: 3

Wash face streak: 3

No electronics before bed: 3

 

"Whole day" goals:

No alcohol streak: 158

No doom scrolling: 2

No Instagram: 1

No YouTube: 1

No Photos App: 1

No Spotify: 1

No smoking weed: 1

 

Dating Goals:

Total number of women cold approached: 6

 

Things to Do:

Call Mariott Albany to get vest

Call insurance to see if they cover this "consultation call" 

Cash in Disney shares - get birth certificate from dad

 

 

Finances:

4/8

Checking: $669

Spending so far: $81/100

Upcoming expenses: 

$819 taken out of account on 4/15 and I 

$60 for ferry and food on 4/11

$100 for groceries on 4/12

$50 for gas on 4/12

Total expenses: $1029

Total in checking account: $1169

This means that I can pay my taxes with $140 to spare, a very small window. 

 

Workout Regimen: 

Workout 1: Push (Monday)

Barbell Bench Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps

Incline Bench Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 95/8 95/9 115/6

Dumbbell Bench Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

Triceps Pushdown 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 40/8 40/6 40/6

 

Workout 2: Legs (Tuesday)

Barbell Squat 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 45/17 95/8 95/8 115/6

Leg Curl 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 75/8 60/11 75/8

Leg Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 140/10 180/7 180/7

DB Lunge 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 15/11 15/10 15/12

 

Workout 3: Upper (Thursday)

Seated Dumbbell Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps

Seated Cable Row 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps

Close-Grip Bench Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

DB Rear Lateral Raise 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

 

Workout 4: Pull (Friday)

Barbell Deadlift 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps

One-Arm Dumbbell Row 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps

Lat Pulldown 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

Alternating DB Curl 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

 

Goals in life: 

First tier (5 year goals): 

Have a shredded physique

Workout 3-5 days a week

Eat 150 g of protein a day

Win dance competitions

Compete in as many dance competitions as possible

Get a coaching once a week

Practice as much as I comfortably can

Become a “player” that has sex with lots of women

Go out to Boston every weekend and talk to women 

Go out salsa dancing Thursday, Friday, Saturday nights

Have a Youtube channel in which I talk about masculinity and I approach women “in the field”

Start recording yourself talking about things

Start recording yourself going out and talking to people

Have full body orgasms while having sex, last for at least 30 minutes

Get in touch with energy fields while meditating

Masturbate without stimulation and last as long as possible

Buy a cute little house with a porch and outdoor bar

Save up money and continue to grow income through dance and YouTube 

 

Transition phase (5-10 years):

Marry the girl of my dreams

 

Second tier (10 year goals): 

Become an Arthur Murray dance studio owner

Build lessons and events as quickly as possible

Reach LOC 600 (non-dual state)

Meditate every morning and read spiritual books every night 

 

Third tier (20 year goals):

Open up a meditation center

Daily meditation and save up money

Write books about Truth and enlightenment

Daily meditation and reading spiritual books 

Reach LOC 1,000

Daily meditation and reading spiritual books

 

Good luck 😜

Edited Wednesday at 06:39 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #146

I am now going to take a break from certain people in my life. I am not going to text them, I am not going to waste my mental energy on them as they give me nothing in return. I am efficient and effective in my mental chatter and in my behaviors and actions. I am a man that holds space. I am a man that is happy and independent from outcome. I don't need you. I hold space on my own. I don't fidget, I stay centered and grounded. I love myself with all of my heart as well as the entire human species. I wish you the best. I understand your selfish behaviors because I know you don't know any better. You hurt others out of your own hurt and I am sorry, I feel your pain and I hope you get past it. 

4.8.26

Morning Routine:

Wake up at 7:30 am: 2

Make bed: 6

Journal: 16

Brush teeth streak: 155

Floss streak: 0

Shower streak: 129

Meditation streak: 4

 

Nighttime Routine Goals:

Brush teeth streak: 4

Wash face streak: 4

No electronics before bed: 4

 

"Whole day" goals:

No alcohol streak: 159

No doom scrolling: 3

No Instagram: 2

No YouTube: 2

No Photos App: 2

No Spotify: 2

No smoking weed: 2

 

Dating Goals:

Total number of women cold approached: 6

 

I am going to do this stuff today 

Things to Do:

• Call Mariott Albany to get vest
  • She is going to call me back in an hour
• Call insurance to see if they cover this "consultation call" 
• Cash in Disney shares - get birth certificate from dad
• Call Geico to make sure policy will not be canceled
• Change lights on car

 

Finances:

4/9

Checking: $629

Spending so far: $101/100

Upcoming expenses: 

$819 taken out of account on 4/15 

$60 for ferry and food on 4/11

$100 for groceries on 4/12

$50 for gas on 4/12

Total expenses: $1029

Total in checking account: $1103

This means that I can pay my taxes with $74 to spare, a very small window. And then I will have to pay $20 for a dance coaching and then over the weekend I have to pay $100 for groceries and $50 for gas and $30 for Korean BBQ. This puts me in the negatives at -$126. This means that I will have to work for my parents or do some doordash or both so that I can make ends meet. Which day or days can I work so that I can make this shit work?

So the struggle will be from 4/15 to 4/21. I will have $74 in which on Saturday I will have to pay for Korean BBQ which is $30. Hold on a minute, there is also a $90 charge paying back health bills ... fuck... that

 

Workout Regimen: 

Workout 1: Push (Monday)

Barbell Bench Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps

Incline Bench Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 95/8 95/9 115/6

Dumbbell Bench Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

Triceps Pushdown 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 40/8 40/6 40/6

 

Workout 2: Legs (Tuesday)

Barbell Squat 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 45/17 95/8 95/8 115/6

Leg Curl 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 75/8 60/11 75/8

Leg Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 140/10 180/7 180/7

DB Lunge 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 15/11 15/10 15/12

 

Workout 3: Upper (Thursday)

Seated Dumbbell Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 30/12 30/12 35/7

Seated Cable Row 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 70/9 85/15 100/11

Close-Grip Bench Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 95/10 95/14 105/11

DB Rear Lateral Raise 3 sets x 6 to 8  reps: 15/10 15/11 15/10

 

Workout 4: Pull (Friday)

Barbell Deadlift 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps

One-Arm Dumbbell Row 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps

Lat Pulldown 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

Alternating DB Curl 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

 

Goals in life: 

First tier (5 year goals): 

• Have a shredded physique
  • Workout 3-5 days a week
  • Eat 150 g of protein a day
• Win dance competitions
  • Compete in as many dance competitions as possible
  • Get a coaching once a week
  • Practice as much as I comfortably can
• Become a “player” that has sex with lots of women
  • Go out to Boston every weekend and talk to women 
  • Go out salsa dancing Thursday, Friday, Saturday nights
• Have a Youtube channel in which I talk about masculinity and I approach women “in the field”
  • Start recording yourself talking about things
  • Start recording yourself going out and talking to people
• Have full body orgasms while having sex, lasting at least 30 minutes
  • Get in touch with energy fields while meditating
  • Masturbate without stimulation and last as long as possible
• Buy a cute little house with a porch and outdoor bar
  • Save up money and continue to grow income through dance and YouTube 

Transition phase (5-10 years):

• Marry the girl of my dreams

 

Second tier (10 year goals): 

• Become an Arthur Murray dance studio owner
  • Build lessons and events as quickly as possible
• Reach LOC 600 (non-dual state)
  • Meditate every morning and read spiritual books every night 

 

Third tier (20 year goals):

• Open up a meditation center
  • Daily meditation and save up money
• Write books about Truth and enlightenment
  • Daily meditation and reading spiritual books 
• Reach LOC 1,000
  • Daily meditation and reading spiritual books

 

Final thoughts:

You are going to see me transform from a caterpillar into a gorgeous butterfly that understands reality better than most human beings. That is happier and content with everything that is going on in his life. Continue to follow this journal and you will see someone that turned his life from something mediocre to something truly extraordinary. Stay tuned.

Edited Thursday at 07:55 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Interlude: my emotional state and thoughts right now - 4.9.26

I don't give a fuck about anything or anyone right now. I actually hate everybody right now. Contrast this emotional state to yesterday in which I was in such a happy mood, I loved everybody, I was fully present, fully expressive and hopeful for the future. A complete 180 degree turn and this is one day later.

Working out will help and I am at the gym right now. 

My current emotional state is not ideal, but... I will say that it is MUCH better than a nihilistic, what's the point in anything emotional state, I've experienced that many times. 

My current emotional state is that of I want to get shit done, everybody get the fuck out of my way, I don't fuck with ANY of you. 

This drives you to be task focused and tackling shit, but it makes you not a please t person to be around. Hopefully I can turn this around before my lesson starts for the day, and if not, that's okay, your lesson will be very task focused, which is still beneficial. 

Okay, let's get our work out in. Ready. Go. 

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #147

I am so fuckin pissed off right now.. And really for no reason at all. I woke up at like 4 AM this morning and Im just laying there allowing my mind to go crazy. Everything feels unfair. But its your job to release your emotional states so that you can get the things done that you want to get done. Stop falling victim to emotional states that fluctuate and that are going to hold you back from accomplishing your goals. I hate my co worker right now because shes doing better than me and this one couple that I thought really liked me wants to work with her instead of me. Why am I so selfish? Why does she trigger me so much. I fuckin hate this girl and she doesn't deserve it. Fuck this. Fuck that. I HATE EVERYTHING right now. And three days ago, I was in such a loving state... strange... very strange... 

I think the mind has a tantrum when things start to change in his life. The I-Self is a little bastard that can't handle change, he loathes it and he takes his problems out onto the world. Continue to create difference between your true Self and the I-thought and you will be able to see him for who he truly is, a scared little gremlin that is terrified of death. 

What should I do when I wake up at an ungodly hour? Should I just get up? Should I lay there and wait to fall back asleep? Honestly I think I should just get up, get your ass up and shower and then come back and meditate. I really want a meditation chair. 

Morning Routine:

Wake up at 7:30 am: 0

Make bed: 7

Journal: 17

Brush teeth streak: 156

Floss streak: 0

Shower streak: 130

Meditation streak: 5

 

Nighttime Routine Goals:

Brush teeth streak: 0

Wash face streak: 0

No electronics before bed: 0

 

"Whole day" goals:

No alcohol streak: 160

No doom scrolling: 4

No Instagram: 3

No YouTube: 3

No Photos App: 3

No Spotify: 3

No smoking weed: 3

 

Dating Goals:

Total number of women cold approached: 6

 

Things to Do:

• Call Mariott Albany to get vest
  • She is going to call me back in an hour - they dont have it
• Call insurance to see if they cover this "consultation call" 
• Cash in Disney shares - get birth certificate from dad
  • I got the birth certificate, now I have to go back to West Hartford to cash it - maybe on Monday? 
• Call Geico to make sure policy will not be canceled
• Change lights on car

Things I want:

Meditation chair 

Receive for mouse 

 

Finances:

4/10

Checking: $427

Spending so far: $101/100

Upcoming expenses: 

$819 taken out of account on 4/15 

$60 for ferry and food on 4/11

$100 for groceries on 4/12

$50 for gas on 4/12

Total expenses: $1029

Total in checking account: $1103

This means that I can pay my taxes with $74 to spare, a very small window. And then I will have to pay $20 for a dance coaching and then over the weekend I have to pay $100 for groceries and $50 for gas and $30 for Korean BBQ. This puts me in the negatives at -$126. This means that I will have to work for my parents or do some doordash or both so that I can make ends meet. Which day or days can I work so that I can make this shit work?

So the struggle will be from 4/15 to 4/21. I will have $74 in which on Saturday I will have to pay for Korean BBQ which is $30. Hold on a minute, there is also a $90 charge paying back health bills ... fuck... that

I NEED to get those shares deposited at Fidelity in WEHA or I will not be able to pay my bills. 

 

Workout Regimen: 

Workout 1: Push (Monday)

Barbell Bench Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps

Incline Bench Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 95/8 95/9 115/6

Dumbbell Bench Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

Triceps Pushdown 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 40/8 40/6 40/6

 

Workout 2: Legs (Tuesday)

Barbell Squat 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 45/17 95/8 95/8 115/6

Leg Curl 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 75/8 60/11 75/8

Leg Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 140/10 180/7 180/7

DB Lunge 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 15/11 15/10 15/12

 

Workout 3: Upper (Thursday)

Seated Dumbbell Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 30/12 30/12 35/7

Seated Cable Row 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 70/9 85/15 100/11

Close-Grip Bench Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 95/10 95/14 105/11

DB Rear Lateral Raise 3 sets x 6 to 8  reps: 15/10 15/11 15/10

 

Workout 4: Pull (Friday)

Barbell Deadlift 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 95/10 115/8 135/6

One-Arm Dumbbell Row 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps 40/R10 L11

Lat Pulldown 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 100/10 100/10 115/7

Alternating DB Curl 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

 

Goals in life: 

First tier (5 year goals): 

• Have a shredded physique
  • Workout 3-5 days a week
  • Eat 150 g of protein a day
• Win dance competitions
  • Compete in as many dance competitions as possible
  • Get a coaching once a week
  • Practice as much as I comfortably can
• Become a “player” that has sex with lots of women
  • Go out to Boston every weekend and talk to women 
  • Go out salsa dancing Thursday, Friday, Saturday nights
• Have a Youtube channel in which I talk about masculinity and I approach women “in the field”
  • Start recording yourself talking about things
  • Start recording yourself going out and talking to people
• Have full body orgasms while having sex, lasting at least 30 minutes
  • Get in touch with energy fields while meditating
  • Masturbate without stimulation and last as long as possible
• Buy a cute little house with a porch and outdoor bar
  • Save up money and continue to grow income through dance and YouTube 

Transition phase (5-10 years):

• Marry the girl of my dreams

 

Second tier (10 year goals): 

• Become an Arthur Murray dance studio owner
  • Build lessons and events as quickly as possible
• Reach LOC 600 (non-dual state)
  • Meditate every morning and read spiritual books every night 

 

Third tier (20 year goals):

• Open up a meditation center
  • Daily meditation and save up money
• Write books about Truth and enlightenment
  • Daily meditation and reading spiritual books 
• Reach LOC 1,000
  • Daily meditation and reading spiritual books

Edited yesterday at 04:01 AM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Interlude: projects for when I'm recovering from surgery ~ 4.10.26

I want to read all of Susan cook Greuters paper on ego development. I want to continue to make a visual book summary of Thick Face Black Heart. I want to continue to have a routine that I follow to the tee. I want to continue to meditate daily maybe even pushing for an hour or so. I want to create a system for building lessons, projects for students. Above all else, I want to be disciplined and organized and stick to routines and hold myself accountable. I want to do leg exercises and core exercises, ones that will not effect my sternum. I could absolutely shred out my legs. 

It's funny because I have a no YouTube habit tracker yet I am putting YouTube videos in my journals. I am a hypocrite. 

Right now, I am getting an ego backlash from all of the changes that I am making. Again, no more doom scrolling, no more YouTube, no more Instagram, no more Spotify, all of these things are getting tossed out the window and my mind doesn't like that. I also want to get in the shower at 7:30 am every day. Again, my ego does not like that. 

Edited Friday at 09:28 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #148

 

Morning Routine:

Wake up at 7:30 am: 0

Make bed: 8

Journal: 18

Brush teeth streak: 157

Floss streak: 0

Shower streak: 131

Meditation streak: 6

 

Nighttime Routine Goals:

Brush teeth streak: 1

Wash face streak: 1

No electronics before bed: 0

 

"Whole day" goals:

No alcohol streak: 161

No doom scrolling: 5

No Instagram: 4

No YouTube: 0

No Photos App scrolling: 4

No Spotify: 4

No smoking weed: 4

 

Dating Goals:

Total number of women cold approached: 6

 

Things to Do:

Call insurance to see if they cover this "consultation call" - will call Monday 

Cash in Disney shares - go to West Hartford on Monday to cash in shares

Change lights on car

 

Things I want:

Meditation chair 

Receive for mouse 

 

Finances:

4/11

Checking: $383

Spending so far: $141/100

Upcoming financial events: 

-$40 for ferry and food on 4/11

-$100 for groceries on 4/12

+$50 on 4/13 for internet 

-$819 for taxes on 4/15

+$474 income on 4/15

As it stands I will be at -$52 on Wednesday, not good. I also found out that I have until May 28th until my global holdings payments end. I originally thought that they ended in March. Let's put that in the calendar. You should also put in your health care bills, $90 a month. 

Workout Regimen: 

TOTAL WORKOUT SETS COMPLETED FOR WEEK OF 4/6: 12/16 - That's pretty good! 

Workout 1: Push (Monday)

Barbell Bench Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps

Incline Bench Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 95/8 95/9 115/6

Dumbbell Bench Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

Triceps Pushdown 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 40/8 40/6 40/6

 

Workout 2: Legs (Tuesday)

Barbell Squat 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 45/17 95/8 95/8 115/6

Leg Curl 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 75/8 60/11 75/8

Leg Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 140/10 180/7 180/7

DB Lunge 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 15/11 15/10 15/12

 

Workout 3: Upper (Thursday)

Seated Dumbbell Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 30/12 30/12 35/7

Seated Cable Row 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 70/9 85/15 100/11

Close-Grip Bench Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 95/10 95/14 105/11

DB Rear Lateral Raise 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 15/10 15/11 15/10

 

Workout 4: Pull (Friday)

Barbell Deadlift 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps: 95/10 115/8 135/6

One-Arm Dumbbell Row 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps 40/R10 L11

Lat Pulldown 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps: 100/10 100/10 115/7

Alternating DB Curl 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

 

Goals in life: 

First tier (5 year goals): 

Have a shredded physique

Workout 3-5 days a week

Eat 150 g of protein a day

Win dance competitions

Compete in as many dance competitions as possible

Get a coaching once a week

Practice as much as I comfortably can

Become a “player” that has sex with lots of women

Go out to Boston every weekend and talk to women 

Go out salsa dancing Thursday, Friday, Saturday nights

Have a Youtube channel in which I talk about masculinity and I approach women “in the field”

Start recording yourself talking about things

Start recording yourself going out and talking to people

Have full body orgasms while having sex, lasting at least 30 minutes

Get in touch with energy fields while meditating

Masturbate without stimulation and last as long as possible

Buy a cute little house with a porch and outdoor bar

Save up money and continue to grow income through dance and YouTube 

 

Transition phase (5-10 years):

Marry the girl of my dreams

 

Second tier (10 year goals): 

Become an Arthur Murray dance studio owner

Build lessons and events as quickly as possible

Reach LOC 600 (non-dual state)

Meditate every morning and read spiritual books every night 

 

Third tier (20 year goals):

Open up a meditation center

Daily meditation and save up money

Write books about Truth and enlightenment

Daily meditation and reading spiritual books 

Reach LOC 1,000

Daily meditation and reading spiritual books

Edited 10 hours ago by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Interlude: another approach ~ 4.11.26

I managed to make what I would call my 7th approach today. I was on a train heading to Long Island and a girl sits next to me. We talk the whole ride, I actually missed my stop because I was so engrossed in the conversation. Before I got off, I said "I had a lot of fun talking to you, do you want to hang out sometime." 

She said, "no, we live far away from each other," In a feeling bad sort of way. (We don't actually live that far away from each other, it's only 45 minutes.) So she doesn't want to see me again. 

Immediately I am triggered emotionally, trying to play it off like I'm not hurt by this. Luckily, I had to get off the train rather quickly so I didn't have to experience the emotions I was feeling while right next to her. 

I just don't understand whats wrong with me. Why do these women not even give me a chance? It's times like these that I doubt myself and feel inferior and not worthy of a partner. This shit hurts. At the same time, I know this is the path that I have to go down. My creator has a reason for putting me into these situations and emotional turmoil.

I am taking a ferry to visit my sister right now, I'm just going to experience the emotional state that I'm in and read some of my book, A Million Thoughts. 

I also had a really good idea, I want to do a 20 minute reading session and then a 20 minute meditation session and go back and forth with that. 

You will get past this emotional state, keep your head up champ. 

The next step for you is to be able to have the emotional mastery to let go of the emotional state that the rejection put you in and move on immediately. Try it. Ready. Go. 

Edited 10 hours ago by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Interlude: just took some shrooms and I am really into mindfulness and upgrading my physique ~ 4.11.26

I'm not exactly sure where my life is heading but as you can see from my daily posts lately I have very specific and long term goals. Will I actually achieve them? I will let my Creator be the decider of that. All I can do is continue to paddle my little boat down the stream. Wish me luck! 

This is me and my niece