New Chapter in My Life: Habits and Disciplines

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #130

One of the things that I've been realizing recently is one of the most important skills in life is learning how to let go. Letting go of thoughts, emotions, attachments to people, attachments to a specific environment, a job, a dog, a cat. Learn to let go and you will live a peaceful life because nothing is permanent, everything is going to end or change in some way so the sooner you can bite that bullet, the sooner you can start living a more care free and impactful life.

 

3.11.26

Morning Routine:

Make bed: 0

Journal: 129

Brush teeth streak: 129

Floss streak: 1

Shower streak: 103

Meditation streak: 12

Approaching women visualization: 3

Abundance of sex affirmation: 3

Funniness affirmation: 11

Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 11

Free talk exercise: 11

 

Night time routine goals:

Brush teeth streak: 4

Wash face streak: 4

No electronics before bed: 0

 

"Whole day" goals:

No porn: 4

Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0

No alcohol streak: 132

 

Total number of women cold approached: 5

Edited Thursday at 02:33 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #131

I want to continue to be productive at all times and to embrace the silence and to meditate as much as possible. Congratulations on 13 days straight of meditation, I can't remember the last time that I've hit that streak. Good job. I want to continue to date new women, feeling things out with them, dancing with new dance partners, approaching more women, sticking up for myself more, feeling independent of the opinions of others, doing things that make me uncomfortable, pushing myself to be more successful at the dance studio, continuing to have a mature understanding over my emotions and thoughts. 

In romantic life, I feel like I'm throwing darts at all of these women in my life and whoever is actually down I am going to become intimate with. To me, this takes the romantic side out of it as I'm essentially going to be hooking up with whoever is down. This rubs me the wrong way as I really enjoy the romantic side of life and it doesn't seem that romantic when I'm shooting my shot with everyone. I don't know... at the same time, I'm really not experience enough in the dating field to have an opinion on this, I have to go down the path in order to understand it, this is just my immediate emotional reaction. What I do know for a fact is that I am living in a situation of scarcity with women, which makes me needy and dependent on the women in my life right now - this has got to change. 

 

3.12.26

Morning Routine:

Make bed: 1

Journal: 130

Brush teeth streak: 130

Floss streak: 2

Shower streak: 104

Meditation streak: 13

Approaching women visualization: 4

Abundance of sex affirmation: 4

Funniness affirmation: 0

Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 0

Free talk exercise: 0

 

Night time routine goals:

Brush teeth streak: 5

Wash face streak: 5

No electronics before bed: 0

 

"Whole day" goals:

No porn: 5

Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0

No alcohol streak: 133

 

Total number of women cold approached: 5

Edited Friday at 12:50 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #132

I want to be the best version of my self that I can be. I want to have emotional mastery, able to overcome any emotionally difficult time that comes my way. I want a girl in my life that I can take care of, that appreciates what I do for her. I want to have an honest relationship with the Truth. 

3.13.26

Morning Routine:

Make bed: 2

Journal: 131

Brush teeth streak: 131

Floss streak: 3

Shower streak: 105

Meditation streak: 14

Approaching women visualization: 5

Abundance of sex affirmation: 5

Funniness affirmation: 1

Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 1

Free talk exercise: 1

 

Night time routine goals:

Brush teeth streak: 6

Wash face streak: 6

No electronics before bed: 0

 

"Whole day" goals:

No porn: 6

Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1

No alcohol streak: 134

 

Total number of women cold approached: 5

 

 

 

Edited Saturday at 11:01 AM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #133

 I don't need anyone or anything to keep me happy. I am comfortable "just being" being one with the universe. Being one with the moment. Surrendering to the moment. Surrendering to the body. 

Breathing in. Breathing out. I want to be a yoga instructor. This will help with my dancing and I will be around more women. More women around me, the more experience I get being around them, the more women you meet, the better there is a chance to meet a girl and get intimate with her.

I want to have sex. I want to experience what it's like to be inside a woman. I feel I have a weird relationship with women. I feel lots of shame. Lots of shame about my sexuality. I am very possessive. I didn't like myself when I was in a relationship. It gets too heavy. Emotions are flying everywhere. Sometimes you can't handle it. I love her dad for some reason. He takes care of business. I have to win her dad over. That is the secret to this womans heart. 

This girl acts like she's schizo. She doesn't remember anything. Like how? Is it the alcohol,? Im having a hard time understanding. Are you going to be honest with yourself for once? Then of course, Im not comfortable enough with it. Life is about embracing, surrendering, an ever lasting letting go that has to take you down the hill and into the valley with the sharpness of breath. 

 

3.14.26

Morning Routine:

Make bed: 3

Journal: 132

Brush teeth streak: 132

Floss streak: 4

Shower streak: 106

Meditation streak: 15

Approaching women visualization: 6

Abundance of sex affirmation: 6

Funniness affirmation: 2

Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 2

Free talk exercise: 2

 

Night time routine goals:

Brush teeth streak: 7

Wash face streak: 7

No electronics before bed: 0

 

"Whole day" goals:

No porn: 0

Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0

No alcohol streak: 135

 

Total number of women cold approached: 5

Edited yesterday at 02:18 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #134

3.15.26

So I had a dance event on Friday into Saturday. These events are great, don't get me wrong, I get paid, I enjoy them immensely, and they never fail to grow and inspire me. But they are so tiring. I got back from the event and I was exhausted, of course I had to spend time with my family for my birthday so I couldn't even relax. Sometimes I do things for other people even when I don't feel like it. The next day, I had another family thing in the morning which I didn't want to go to, but it wasn't too bad. My dad gave me $400 for my birthday as he knows I'm going through it financially right now. I got hit with an $800 hospital bill taking care of some tests before my heart surgery. I cannot believe how much they charge at these hospitals, its really ridiculous. 

I still don't have a good handle on my money situation. Luckily, I will be getting a big paycheck for this event we just did, but at the same time I still have a lot that I need to do. I have to start earning another income, I don't think theres any way around it. Its funny, I was listening to Trump on the radio and I was really trying to give him an open mind as maybe hes not so bad after all, but then he started talking, calling someone "pathetic," "not a smart man," and I was like oh.... Okay yeah this is one underdeveloped motherfucker... and he is leading this country, no wonder I'm struggling so much right now. 

Anyways my dance partner really wants to practice but I still need to shower and meditate so I won't be able to get anywhere until AT LEAST 11:10.

I also feel weird about this DM that I sent to a male dance instructor. So we have this "sam sex" competition at an event in August, all that means is that you partner up with someone that is of the same gender and create a routine to dance to. But now I'm thinking that maybe he thought that I was asking him something weird, of course I don't know how it came off, I'm not him - trying to not let that worry me. 

I'm also not in a good workout routine and I have another dance practice tomorrow morning, but I can get the routine back on track while also getting my food prepped... see this SHOULD have already been done though.. that is the frustrating thing. ugh.... oh well.. just do what you can.  

For some reason, when Sunday comes, I don't feel like getting my shit organized even though I know it would benefit me. My mind becomes lazy and doesn't want to deal with it, and I allow it to have its way.

 

Morning Routine:

Make bed: 4

Journal: 133

Brush teeth streak: 133

Floss streak: 5

Shower streak: 107

Meditation streak: 16

Approaching women visualization: 0

Abundance of sex affirmation: 0

Funniness affirmation: 3

Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 3

Free talk exercise: 3

 

Night time routine goals:

Brush teeth streak: 8

Wash face streak: 8

No electronics before bed: 1

 

"Whole day" goals:

No porn: 0

Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0

No alcohol streak: 136

 

Total number of women cold approached: 5

Edited yesterday at 02:17 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #135

3.16.26

I LOVE this book that I'm reading called A Million Thoughts by Om Swami. The girl that I'm dating texts me constantly, like bro give me some space. I feel obligated to text back quickly because she texts back in literally mintues every single time. I just don't need that much human interaction. I like my space, my alone time. I am still high right now. I smoked a joint this morning despite having to go into work later. I do love my job so much. So much that I want more than anything to make a career out of it. I feel bad taking my co workers students, building lessons with them, but at the same time "I am ruthless, I do whatever I need to do in order to make it here and get ahead. 

One of my students wants to go to a dance o rama. But my boss would rather them go to vienna. But I want them to go to dance o rama. It is going to cost her $18,000. Isn't that insane?! I want to talk to the student about it. She must have the money for it, no problem I just can't even imagine. That is literally half my paycheck for the year. 

Anyways, how did I do yesterday?

 

Morning Routine:

Make bed: 5

Journal: 134

Brush teeth streak: 134

Floss streak: 6

Shower streak: 108

Meditation streak: 17

Approaching women visualization: 1

Abundance of sex affirmation: 1

Funniness affirmation: 4

Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 4

Free talk exercise: 4

 

Night time routine goals:

Brush teeth streak: 9

Wash face streak: 9

No electronics before bed: 2

 

"Whole day" goals:

Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0

No alcohol streak: 137

 

Total number of women cold approached: 5