New Chapter in My Life: Habits and Disciplines

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #52

Okay, I am going to attempt to redo my post from yesterday as I think it will be constructive to recap it. The first thing I did was overhaul the habit tracker. So heres the thing, I started this journal with a lot of grinding and brute forcing my way into completing tasks. Now, this worked for a while and it was a great way to start things off, however, I've been reading lots of books about "letting go" such as Ask and It Is Given, The Sedona Method, and The Field of Love and I am starting to realize that life is only a grind if you make it a grind. You can in fact work hard in a totally peaceful state without any clenching and grinding involved whatsoever. And this is the much more spiritual way to live and it leads to a happier life. So let go, you are not in control anyways, the Universe has a plan for you that is unfolding. 

Next, I'd like to write down my top 3 goals in life, these should be ones that I simply cannot live without, do this quickly as these should be intuitive answers:

1. Reach LOC 1,000
2. Write books about Truth and Enlightenment
3. Win dance competitions

 

Here are some extra goals, but they are less important than the ones listed above:

• Have a highly conscious girlfriend / wife
• Express my attraction towards women in an authentic and direct way
• Have a cute house with a man cave in the basement, a pool, outdoor bar
• Create a self - help YouTube channel talking about masculinity and following my career as a dancer and how to hit on girls (I really want to inspire young men to express their attraction towards women in a confident and direct way) 
• Have an absolutely shredded physique (chiseled chest, 6 pack abs, broad shoulders, massive back, trunks for thighs, bulging forearms and biceps, defined calves, and a muscular butt)
• Access a no - thought state, in which I am flowing without using my mind
• Read every book on Leo's book list
• Help grow my students in LOC
• Make 6 figures off of just dancing

 

Interlude: Contemplating how to make a positive impact on other men

Next, I want to explain a story that happened a couple of weeks ago that I would like to contemplate:

I walk into a salsa club and there is a girl that I know there and she is with a man. I walk up to them and the girl's attention immediately reverts to me. She is attentive and laughing at me without giving him the light of day. We flirt with each other for the rest of the night as the other guy has to sit back and watch. Now, it is my true desire to yes get good at attracting women, which I am practicing in this situation, but I would also like to have a positive impact on this young man that was talking to her. Lets take a look at what happened from his perspective so that I can better understand his situation. This will be in 1st perspective from his perspective. Ready, go:

I think to myself "wow, this cute girl is giving me attention, this is awesome! Maybe I'll even get laid tonight." But then, a charismatic guy walks up to her and starts talking. He's barely even paying attention to her, yet her eyes are all over him, and she is laughing at everything he says. Whats so special about this guy anyways! And why doesn't anybody love me for me! Maybe when we start dancing, I can win her back. The night goes on and she continues to be all over this man, what a dick! Fuck that guy! He's not even that good looking! He tells me he doesn't drink, what pompous prick! He says that its because "He values being clear headed and alcohol doesn't help with that." Ughhhhhh this guy sucks, how about you live a little! I watch them leave together and I get in my car. Now I am thinking thoughts like "Why doesn't anyone love me, why doesn't anyone desire me, what's wrong with me? I'll never be loved again." 

Now, the reason I can explain this man's mindset with such conviction is because I USED TO BE HIM. I was frustrated with my lack of success with women for YEARS and YEARS and YEARS. It was EXTREMELY painful. And this allows me to have GENUINE and DEEP empathy for these men. And I want to help you because you deserve to be LOVED. You deserve to have all of the sex that you desire, and for that matter, all of the money and happiness and wellbeing that you desire. 

The problem with this guy is he was sooooooo low energy, there wasn't an ounce of fun and expressiveness to him. The reality is that if he is going to attract a girl of this quality, he has to work on his social skills and expressing himself in an authentic manner. So get out of your head and do some things that are going to challenge you, you don't even have to hit on women at first, just do difficult shit, do shit that scares you, and I promise you will get used to curving into the scary situations and you'll realize that they're really not that bad. So take every opportunity to push yourself out of your comfort zone and I assure you that this will lead you to all of your desires being met. Good luck to you. I love you. 

 

Now, I would like to explain my thought process when it comes to changing the habit track, lets take a look, shall we....

12.21.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am I decided that I am going to take out "wake up at 7:30 am" because I started it to develop discipline within myself, which definitely had a positive impact on me. Heres the thing though, waking up at a certain time doesn't have a positive impact on my life in it of itself, and it was causing me a great deal of stress waking up every day at that time. The more efficent and wise thing to do is to wake up at whatever time that allows me to fit in the habits that I REALLY prioritize. 
• Brush teeth streak: 54 KEEP
• Floss streak: 3 KEEP
• Shower streak: 25 KEEP
• Meditation streak: 0 KEEP - this is probably the most important one when you look at the goals that you have for your life and should be done as soon as possible
• Funniness free talk exercise: 3 I have decided to take out "I see funniness everywhere" as I believe I've exhausted this one, meaning this thought pattern has been instilled within me, I don't need to beat myself over the head with it anymore. I am definitely going to keep the free talk exercise, in which I talk with absolutely no filter for 10 minutes. The other affirmation was "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" - I am leaning towards getting rid of this one too, but I will keep it around for a little while longer
• Sexual abundance affirmation: 3 This one is EXTREMELY important to me as it is probably one of my authentic desires, to have an abundance of sex in this lifetime, its just something that I NEED to experience and I just haven't yet, and after about a month of using this one, I have felt the shift in my psyche and outside reality and I am very excited as to where this will lead

Night time routine goals:

• Brush teeth streak: 5 KEEP
• Wash face streak: 5 KEEP
• No electronics before bed streak: 1 KEEP

 

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 3 KEEP - theres no need for porn, especially since this was an addiction, let this go
• No ejaculation streak: 3 KEEP for now, I may transcend this but there is noticeably more energy within my body when I go long periods of semen retention, which helps with my goals
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 3 KEEP - you have to do this
• No alcohol streak: 52 KEEP
• No smoking weed streak: 8 KEEP

 

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 5 days a week streak: 0 This whole thing is new, so I have done a great job of doing push ups and pull ups every day, probably doing between 80-90% of days since I started. However, I want to get BIG and I feel like just doing push ups and pull ups is not going to help with that, also I have twigs for legs and I really want trunks so I decided that I am going to go to the gym every morning before I go into work and get these exercises done. If I miss it in the morning, which hopefully I wont, then I will go in at night
• Monday: chest 
• Tuesday: legs
• Wednesday: push ups and pull ups
• Thursday: legs
• Friday: back