New Chapter in My Life: Habits and Disciplines

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #20

I have hit a point where my internal motivation has really hit a wall. I've stopped caring about sticking to these habits. This is frustrating, but I understand that it is all part of the process. Yesterday, my alarm went off at 7:30 and I stayed in bed for another hour. When I woke up, I didn't have enough time to workout or meditate. Luckily, I did find time to do the funniness affirmations so that streak is still going. When I got home, I smoked weed again with my roommate, I allowed myself to watch some of the "pro" dance routines from our last event on my phone as I'm laying there trying to go to sleep, and I didn't finish the "I have an abundance of sex" affirmation. When I get high, my mind becomes an infinite imagination loop and I find it very difficult to push the "I- thought" back down to the heart.  

Now, on the bright side, I am sticking to my no porn or ejaculation streak (20 days), which is really impressive and has a very positive impact on my life. I've also eaten 150 g of protein for 19 days straight, that is quite an accomplishment, and I can see the results in the mirror, I am noticeably more ripped and its only been 3 weeks... Imagine what I will look like by week 20... week 50... and so on. 

I am also very frustrated with how far I have to go to make my dreams come true. That is the issue with being honest about "current reality" and the "desired result," you have to become aware of how far it is that you have to go to get what you want.. that is hard.

The biggest thing that I want right now is to just be able to authentically express my appreciation and love for the feminine creatures of this Earth. This is all I want really, and it starts with putting myself out there and talking to them, telling them how beautiful they are. On a more positive note, I have successfully infiltrated a world filled with beautiful women, which is through the dance studio. There are gorgeous women everywhere I look and I get to dance them. One thing that does make me special is that I LOVE women, I really do, I absolutely adore them... Which makes it frustrating that I don't have a girl of my own that I can share vulnerabilities with. Now I KNOW that I will get out of this hole and get laid and then get a girlfriend, I just don't have it yet, but I am going to figure this out, no matter what..

Another highlights is that I am significantly more focused while at work and I am in a significantly better mood, which makes my lessons go better, I think this happens because I am more organized in my life and I feel like I am finally being honest about my life and my goals, which frees up so much gunk in my head and allows me to be fully present while I'm with my students. I really do have the most amazing job in the world. The only thing that is holding me back is this girl situation, I HAVE to start approaching women and dealing with this. There is no way around it, I have to put myself out there and move through this. Otherwise, I will ALWAYS be frustrated. The suffering will never get any easier unless I tackle this problem head on.

I am going to go to Boston on Saturday and attempt to hit on girls again. I will find a parking lot that is a lot cheaper and my plan is to ask 10 beautiful women where the Prudential Center is. Then by that time, I should feel warm enough to be able to hit on girl that I find attractive. Try to make this like a game that is fun. I also have to watch my finances and I will bring a bagged lunch so that I don't have to buy anything when I'm out there. Lets fucking go dude. You can do this! I believe in you! The farther along on the habits and disciplines journey that you go, the easier being uncomfortable will get for you. 

You know what is really frustrating... I find myself really hating my dance partner.. and you know why... its because I find her beautiful and gorgeous and funny and perfect and I want to express that to her. The issue is that I don't know how and I also don't want to complicate things, and also she used to date my co worker and friend. Lots of complicated things in terms of that. I feel like the solution to this frustration is to hit on other women because how could I express my appreciation and sexual interest towards her if I can't do it to random women on the street. It all stems from fear. I just haven't had the courage to put myself out there and risk being awkward and getting rejected. This is ALL that I want in life, I just want to reach a point where I am comfortable cold approaching women and facing rejection. And you know what... A lot of the things that I've gone through over the past 2 years has made me prepared for this right here... I have performed over 50 solos in front of an audience, I have danced 500+ "entries" in front of people, I have competed at a Dance O Rama, I had a girlfriend who I had sex with. I've hooked up with my roommate. I've asked and danced with 1,000+ women. I see myself getting more attention from women. I am much more comfortable in my own skin. I have gone on streaks with no porn and no ejaculation for 30+ days on multiple occasions, I almost pulled a REALLY hot girl back from the club, (but I was so nervous that I put the address wrong into my phone and then she said she was too tired lol.) I am being honest about my desires. Keep being honest. Keep pushing for what you want and all of your dreams will come true. Remember, the journey is the fun part. Once you get everything that you want, now what? This is what makes this part of your life exciting is that you can work on yourself from the ground up. You can create and turn yourself into whatever you choose... And NOTHING is stopping you from doing that. So be clear as to what you want. Be very fucking clear. And don't be swayed by emotional states. Continue down your path, sticking to your habits, to your beliefs. BE YOURSELF. BE YOURSELF AND KNOW THAT THATS GOOD ENOUGH. BE SECURE WITH YOURSELF. 

 

11.19.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0
• Brush teeth streak: 20
• Floss streak: 20
• Shower streak: 3
• Meditation streak: 0
• Push ups / pull ups streak: 0
• Funniness affirmations streak: 18

Night time routine goals:

• Sexual abundance affirmation: 0
• Brush teeth streak: 10
• Wash face streak: 10
• No electronics before bed streak: 0

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 20
• No ejaculation streak: 20
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 19
• No alcohol streak: 18
• No weed streak: 0

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1
  • Chest: Done
  • Legs: 
  • Back: 
• Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

 

Edited November 21 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #21

Another tough day for me, my alarm wasn't even set so I woke up at 8:30 am. From there, I journaled and then I brushed and flossed, showered, ate something and then headed out the door for dance practice. So no meditation or push ups and pull ups so far. I was driving around near where I work finishing up my funniness affirmations and feeling very down about myself. During the "free talk" exercise part of the funniness affirmations exercise, I start to say inspiring things to myself such as "I am going to do whatever it takes to make my dreams come true," and "I am going to make a huge impact on people" and "I don't care what people think about me" this motivated me lots and I decided to head to the gym because my dance partner told me that she'd be late for practice. 

I head to the gym with a new surge of energy. I head into the locker room, I love taking my shirt off nowadays because I think that I look really hot, that is also motivating, too see what I have been able to sculpt through my hard work. I head into the workout area and pump out the push ups and pull ups. Then I do some calf machine exercises and a couple sets of leg presses. Then I have to meet my dance partner so I couldn't finish the "legs" workout. This means that I am going to have to finish it today and then do the back exercises this weekend or vice versa if I am going to keep my weight lifting streak alive. 

Dance practice was good, I was very motivated to make our routines feel good as I am remembering my intention to win a dance competition. It's important to know the reason that you are doing something, this is what makes it feel worth it to you. We also have a competition in D.C. in a couple of weeks that we are getting ready for. Then I had another dance practice with my other dance partner to work on "certification" which is getting more advanced patterns down in preparation for a test that will get us a raise. They both went well, very productive dance sessions. This is from 12-2 and 2-4, then I start the work day.

I am honestly already tired, we have a meeting and then the lessons start up and I teach from 5:30 straight through until 10 pm. This is tiring but fun. I can really feel the lack of meditation as I am doing group class, my awareness of the present moment and surroundings is not at an optimal level. But I have come a long way as a teacher. I am able to go into almost any situation and be comfortable enough to teach. I still feel insecure about what I am teaching when there are students there that have been there for 5+ years and I've only been here for 2. I am trying to work on this, the idea is to just teach them, expose yourself to teaching them, curve into the uncomfortably of it, that is unfortunately the only way to deal with this. 

Lessons all go really well (we are prepping for a "solo night" that is tomorrow.) I had a lot of fun with one of my long time students, working on "walking with conviction" and we got to perform my favorite solo for some of the other people in the studio. I do need to vent about the last lesson of the night though. I have this one woman that takes 2-3 lessons a week so she is a very involved student and wants to get really good, but she comes in stoned off her ass and this day in particular, she was so fuckin' high dude it was insane. She couldn't follow anything and had no idea what was going on, it was as if I was teaching a toddler how to dance. All 3 solos that we have to perform tomorrow felt like shit when running through them. All of them, every one felt awful. She's just like a zombie, no emotion and awareness is at a -5. It's frustrating because she is actually really good sometimes, but not when she's stoned out of her gord. I think I need to talk to her about this, but I don't know how. 

Anyways, I am going to really try to put a smile on my face while dancing with her tomorrow as this is not about me, this is about her. And as long as she's happy with the performance then that should be good enough for me. I just don't understand why she thinks it's socially acceptable to come into a high end ballroom dance studio stoned off her ass... But I digress.

I have 15 solos tomorrow, I've never done so many. This is great for me, it has pushed me to grow a lot as I have to remember all 15 routines. And both myself and my student get to practice being out there on the floor together, performing in front of people. 

Note: I unfortunately only ate 137 grams of protein yesterday so I feel as though I have to reset the counter back to 0. 😭

 

11.20.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0
• Brush teeth streak: 21
• Floss streak: 21
• Shower streak: 4
• Meditation streak: 0
• Push ups / pull ups streak: 1
• Funniness affirmations streak: 19

Night time routine goals:

• Sexual abundance affirmation streak: 0
• Brush teeth streak: 11
• Wash face streak: 11
• No electronics before bed streak: 1

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 21
• No ejaculation streak: 21
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0
• No alcohol streak: 19
• No weed streak: 1

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1
  • Chest: Done
  • Legs: 
  • Back: 
• Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

 

 

No body is coming to save you!

You've always had the power to save yourself

You think it's over? Nah champ, it's just getting started..

I don't care how many times you've failed..

You were built for impact and impact doesn't come easy..

It's forged in pressure, born from pain, shaped in silence

You get to take control now, you get to write the next chapter

You've got to stop making excuses for why it hasn't happened yet

You're not stuck, you're just scared, and that's okay

Everyone's scared... But fear isn't your enemy, comfort is

Comfort will convince you that average is okay

That good enough is good enough

But deep down, you know it's not

You weren't made to be average, you weren't made to coast

You were made to dominate

That dream you had, it's still alive, it's just waiting for you to believe in it again..

Edited November 21 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Interlude: Flow State

I am going to post one more thing because I can't help myself, then I'm going to get in the shower and start my day. Here is a video of a man in a flow state, he's not thinking, he is purely vibing, purely in the present moment, words are just rolling out of his mouth, he's not insecure about it, he is in the zone, in his bag, in his element. This is what makes life exciting. These moments right here. Consciously and deliberately trying to enter these states is the name of the game. So turn off your fucking brain, enter a challenging situation and see if you can flow through it. That is the key, the situation has to challenge you, it has to challenge you just enough to make it so that you are out of your thinking mind, so keep challenging yourself, doing hard things and you will feel the sweet spot and the future you will thank yourself for it

 

Edited November 21 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #22

 

I fuckin love this instrumental from Frank Oceans album Blonde, it is so good! 

 

We just had an in studio solo dance event last night and it went really well! I danced 15 times I think, which is the most I've ever done. My students were really happy and they did very well. I'm excited to talk to them about it next week. I FUCKIN LOVE my job. That is something that I was able to start manifesting for myself a long time ago. I had a crappy desk job and I always knew that I was meant to do something more. And pretty soon I am going to become a "world champion" rhythm dancer and bring my students along on the ride with me.

On the not so chill side, I am starting to allow gaps in my morning routine on a consistent basis. I have started to take off the disciplinary hat and allow my mind to get it's way. I'd like to crack a whip on this right away..

This is what I want my day to look like: I wake up at 7:30 am, make my bed, grab my towel, I walk up stairs ( I don't care how tired you are, don't make coffee) I brush my teeth and floss and then head up to the top floor to shower ( wash body with soap daily and shampoo every other day)  then I come back down to the downstairs bathroom and oil and trim my beard, style my hair and put on deodorant. Then I head downstairs to change into workout clothes. (1st floor is my room, 2nd floor is bathroom without shower, 3rd floor is bathroom with shower.)

Now it's 8:00 am and it's time to journal and eat breakfast. I grab my computer and walk upstairs to the kitchen. I make myself a protein shake and I drink it while I am journaling about my habits yesterday. 

Then, at 8:30, I head back downstairs, sit down on the floor with a pillow under my butt and a blanket over my body and do my 30 minute meditation session. 

At 9:00 am I put the blanket back onto the bed and I start my push ups and pull ups. I do push ups until failure, give myself a 2 minute break, then pull ups until failure. I do 3 sets of these and I am recording how many reps of each set.

When that's over, it is 9:30 am and I can leave the house for the day OR I can do whatever I want. I could lay in bed again and read some spiritual books if I wanted to, everything that I need to do for the morning is out of the way, now I can focus on other things.

If I can actually stick to this routine for a long period of time, my self efficacy will sky rocket and I will feel so much more powerful, I will feel like I can grab life my the balls and accomplish ANYTHING. I can't wait for that feeling to manifest. 

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Now it's time to talk about some of the habits from yesterday. I got back on track with waking up at the same time every day. I also haven't missed brushing teeth and flossing and the funniness affirmations since we started. I missed the meditation session and the push ups and pull ups again. This has been a struggle recently. In general, I usually do everything I need to do right up until I need to meditate. This is causing a lot of resistance from my mind because it is the most emotionally challenging part of the routine. When I can overpower the mind and get it to surrender to this habit daily, that will be a real accomplishment. 

Next, I am struggling to implement the sexual abundance affirmation to my nighttime schedule while driving home, but it is new, I'll figure it out. I almost always brush my teeth and wash my face, nice job on that, and there is no excuse for using electronics past 11pm. Stop doing this. 

Next, my "whole day" goal of no porn has reached 22 days. I've never tracked this before but I think this is the longest I've gone or close to it. That is great! You are really growing in that area. I would be so happy with myself if I kicked that habit for good.

Okay, now we have to get into a lengthy topic, which is ejaculation.

I did ejaculate last night while I was hooking up with my roommate. So this is a positive experience actually because 1. I had a sexual encounter, which is what I'm working on and 2. It highlighted my inability to control my sexual energy while with a partner. When I masturbate by myself, I have very good control of whether or not I ejaculate, and actually, I never ejaculate without intent, I am always able to stop myself before keeling over, which is an accomplishment in it of itself. 

What happened with this girl is actually quite embarrassing, I was in the heat of the moment, I was grinding on her from the back and I literally came in my pants 🤦‍♂️. I was surprised at how little control I was able to have over my sexual energy. It is COMPLETELY different while with an actual person because she is so hot and she is right in front of you... Oh man, I got a lot of work to do on this one. 

After that happened, I fingered her for a while which seemed to give her multiple orgasms, although I would like to ask her if those are orgasms or not.. it seemed like it, her body is twitching and she's moaning and breathing heavily. Women seem to be able to have so much more pleasure during sex because they can just let go and enjoy the ride lol. 

The big thing here is that I just don't have the sex experience to be able to control the ejaculation while with someone yet. The place that I would like to get to with this is I want to be able to be inside of a woman for 20 minutes straight and have COMPLETE control over my sexual energy and ejaculation, circulating the sexual energy throughout my body, that is truly where I would like to get to with this. In this way, I am able to last as long as I want and I don't exert any energy by releasing my semen. 

Okay, how am I going to achieve this goal, 1. I need to practice by myself in which I attempt to last 20 minutes straight of masturbation without ejaculation 2. Read the book The Multi Orgasmic Man and do the exercises in the book ( this has helped me be able to control the ejaculation process but I still haven't been able to have multiple or full body orgasms during sex, which I would really like to experience) 3. Continue to have as many sexual experiences as you can possibly have, with this current girl as well as with new women. 

That took a while... Okay, next I am back on track eating 150 g of protein, no more alcohol is great and I am commiting to the no weed streak. I didn't do my workouts yet for the week, which means that I have to finish it up on Saturday and Sunday if I want to keep the streak alive, not ideal but I have to do it. 

 

11.21.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 1
• Brush teeth streak: 22
• Floss streak: 22
• Shower streak: 5
• Meditation streak: 0
• Push ups / pull ups streak: 0
• Funniness affirmations streak: 20

Night time routine goals:

• Sexual abundance affirmation: 0
• Brush teeth streak: 12
• Wash face streak: 12
• No electronics before bed streak: 0

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 22
• No ejaculation streak: 0
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1
• No alcohol streak: 20
• No weed streak: 2

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1
• Chest: Done
• Legs: 
• Back: 
• Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Edited November 22 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #23

I had a great day yesterday, I fulfilled on all of my morning routines, had dance practice with my competitive partner, organized my room so that it can fit 8 people in it for "Dungeons and Dragons" with my friends on Sunday, took a nap, and then hung out with my friends in which I DID NOT partake in any alcohol or drug consumption. Nicely done!

Having 11 pm as the cutoff for no electronics is not the best measurement for this goal, as we were watching movies until midnight last night, I think I should just say "no phone after 11 pm"... although I don't want to allow myself to watch movies when I'm alone in bed so I'm just going to have to do my best with this one... But I don't want to break my streak just because I was hanging out with my friends and watching movies on the weekend.

I didn't do a good job weight lifting this week, only hitting 1 out of the the 3 weight lifting sessions, oh welll... this just means that I have to organize my life better in order to accommodate for this habit. 

 

11.22.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 2
• Brush teeth streak: 23
• Floss streak: 23
• Shower streak: 6
• Meditation streak: 1
• Push ups / pull ups streak: 1
• Funniness affirmations streak: 21

Night time routine goals:

• Sexual abundance affirmation: 1
• Brush teeth streak: 13
• Wash face streak: 13
• No electronics before bed streak: 1

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 23
• No ejaculation streak: 1
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 2
• No alcohol streak: 21
• No weed streak: 3

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1
• Chest: Done
• Legs: 
• Back: 
• Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Edited November 23 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #24

I feel like I have a very good handle on what I want to do on a daily basis, at this point its just about training my mind to execute. This week I am going to try really hard to get the weekly goals accomplished. I am going to weight lift 3 days this week, on Monday during my dinner break (Legs) , on Tuesday before I go into work (Chest), and then on Saturday before I go into Boston (Back). I would also like to have a better handle on the food that I am going to be eating for the week. This will give me less stress as a lot of the times, I am going day - by - day trying to scrounge up enough protein. And I will also go to Boston on Saturday and finally get that tracker started of approaching women. Remember, I want to approach 500 women by the end of 2026.

Things to do this morning (outside of morning routine):

• Call doctors
  • Schedule with Hiroo, reschedule with Walden and Hagberg
• Put clothes away
• Make a goals list and put it into my wallet

 

Here is a reminder of some of my goals: (I'd like to make a list of this on a notecard and put it into my wallet): 

• I have a fulfilling intimate relationship, one that pushes me and helps me grow into a more mature and loving person, starting in January of 2027
• I have a house with a private, fenced in back yard, deck and porch in the back on June, 2030
• I own an Arthur Murray dance studio in June of 2035
• I abide in a constant no- thought state in August of 2027
• Become a world champion dancer:
  • I win a "Future Champs" dance competition in June of 2026
  • I win a "Rising Stars" dance competition in June 2028
  • I win an "Open" dance competition in June 2030
• I approach and hit on 500 women by January 2027

 

11.23.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 3
• Brush teeth streak: 24
• Floss streak: 24
• Shower streak: 7
• Meditation streak: 2
• Push ups / pull ups streak: 0
• Funniness affirmations streak: 22

Night time routine goals:

• Sexual abundance affirmation: 2
• Brush teeth streak: 14
• Wash face streak: 14
• No electronics before bed streak: 2

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 24
• No ejaculation streak: 2
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 3
• No alcohol streak: 22
• No weed streak: 4

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0
  • Legs: 
  • Back: 
  • Chest
• Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Edited November 24 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #25

I absolutely bodied the day yesterday. I did everything on this list, every single fuckin' one AND I did my leg workout at the gym. 

This is my favorite part of my morning routine because I get to journal and collect my thoughts. I've recently realized that my mind is so fuckin' scattered, I have almost zero control over the "I-thought." Given my goal of abiding in a constant "no-thought" state within 2 years, I am going to have to start taking ownership of that, reading books and figuring out how to send the "I-thought" back down to the heart, which is where it came from. 

I would also like to start writing down my yearly goals on a daily basis. In this way, there is no emotional pull, I do what I have to do in order to meet my goals, and it really is that simple.

My plan for approaching 500 women next year is that I am going to continue to drive up to the city every single weekend. I will eventually figure out how to summon up the courage to approach. Just keep trying things until something works. Keep fuckin' trying. There is SO MUCH resistance to doing this for me because of past traumas, but I will deal with this and become an authentically attractive man, it is just going to take time. Staying true to the daily habits that I have set for myself will also help with this because my self -efficacy will continue to increase, which will make me feel stronger and make me feel like I CAN approach these girls. I know I got this. 

 

 

My Goals: 

• I have a fulfilling, healthy, conscious relationship in January of 2027
• I have a house with a private, fenced in back yard, deck and porch in the back on June, 2030
• I own an Arthur Murray dance studio in June of 2035
• I abide in a consistent no- thought state in August of 2027
• I win a “Future Champs” dance competition in June of 2026, a “Rising Stars” dance competition in June 2028 and an “Open” dance competition in June 2030
• I approach and hit on 500 women by January 2027
• I have sex with 10 women by January 2027
• I gain 10 pounds of lean muscle by January 2027

 

11.24.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 4
• Brush teeth streak: 25
• Floss streak: 25
• Shower streak: 8
• Meditation streak: 3
• Push ups / pull ups streak: 1
• Funniness affirmations streak: 23

Night time routine goals:

• Sexual abundance affirmation: 3
• Brush teeth streak: 15
• Wash face streak: 15
• No electronics before bed streak: 3

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 25
• No ejaculation streak: 3
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 4
• No alcohol streak: 23
• No weed streak: 5

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0
  • Legs: Done
  • Back: 
  • Chest
• Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #26

Personal Journal:

Yesterday was a good day. I woke up at 6:30 am, showered, journaled and meditated. In between these activities, my mind tricked myself into scrolling on my phone for 40 minutes. Unfortunately, this forced me to cut out the push ups and pull ups from my morning routine. This kind of behavior really needs to stop if I am going to be serious about my spiritual pursuits and my physique goals.

Then I went to my moms house to babysit for my two nieces. They are absolutely adorable and I love them so much. However, abouttwo hours in, they were fighting over this cute little rocking chair so I took the rocking chair away. This set off the 4 year old and she cried for "mommy" for a solid 15 minutes until she finally came downstairs. Its times like these that dissuade me from wanting kids. There are lots of other things that I can focus on in life that would bring me more happiness and joy, such as becoming the best instructor / dancer / dance studio owner or pursuing a constant no - thought state. 

I actually got to take a nap after my babysitting gig. I'm not sure how I feel about naps because I could push through the tiredness and just grind out more productive things, but I was really tired and I felt like I deserved some rest, I dont know. Then, I packed my suitcase as I will be housesitting the next few days for my friends' dad. This is good money for me, I love these little side hustles. Next, I went to the gym and did a chest workout. I completed 2 out of the 3 weight lifting exercises that I was supposed to do, which I know is not technically what I vowed to accomplish, but I feel like I am in no position right now to end streaks because I didn't finish them completely. I am GOING to the gym and the goal here is to build consistent habits and I did make the effort so I will count this as a win. 

I then went to work and I had a nice day teaching and working on my dancing. Its funny, after writing down my goals of winning these dance competitions over the next several years, I have been using my time in the studio to work on my craft almost every opportunity I get. Goal setting really does do wonders for your motivation. Some other wins today are: I taught a good group class in a dance that I don't know very well, I helped out a student with his salsa turns and I asked him if he wanted to take a lesson with me (he said no, but at least I asked), I also asked one of our long time students who is in a wheelchair if he wanted to take a lesson with me (he said maybe.) The thing is that if I don't ask these people to take a lesson with me, then they might feel like I don't want to teach them, so instead of being insecure about the no... just ask... just ask for what you want and see what they say. Its the EXACT same thing when approaching women. If you don't approach them, then they are going to think that you're not interested in them, you are going to be making their day by complimenting, by saying " I want to meet you and get to know you," Understand this, and this will have a huge impact on you. 

I ended the day going to a brewery with a few of our dance friends (about 10 of us). It was someones birthday, I wrote her a funny and nice card, I drank a non alcoholic beer, we danced, and we ended the night going to a bodega and getting a sandwich. I remember standing outside the bodega, it was raining, but we were kept dry underneath the extended roof of the building. Looking out into the road, chowing down on a sandwich with people that I am very comfortable with, it was a lovely moment. 

Nice job yesterday. My life has turned into something really enjoyable. I am so proud of what I have built for myself.

Its really fun to see the streak numbers rise. I also added "I am completely debt free by April 1st, 2026." to "My Goals" list. 

 

My Goals: 

• I have a fulfilling, healthy, conscious relationship in January of 2027
• I have a house with a private, fenced in back yard, deck and porch in the back on June, 2030
• I own an Arthur Murray dance studio in June of 2035
• I abide in a consistent no- thought state in August of 2027
• I win a “Future Champs” dance competition in June of 2026, a “Rising Stars” dance competition in June 2028 and an “Open” dance competition in June 2030
• I approach and hit on 500 women by January 2027
• I have sex with 10 women by January 2027
• I gain 10 pounds of lean muscle by January 2027
• I am completely debt free by April 1st, 2026

 

11.25.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 5
• Brush teeth streak: 26
• Floss streak: 26
• Shower streak: 9
• Meditation streak: 4
• Push ups / pull ups streak: 0
• Funniness affirmations streak: 24

Night time routine goals:

• Sexual abundance affirmation: 4
• Brush teeth streak: 16
• Wash face streak: 16
• No electronics before bed streak: 0

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 26
• No ejaculation streak: 4
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 5
• No alcohol streak: 24
• No weed streak: 6

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0
  • Legs: Done
  • Chest: Done
  • Back
• Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #27

Happy Thanksgiving!

 

My Goals: 

• I have a fulfilling, healthy, highly conscious intimate relationship in January of 2027
• I have a house with a private, fenced in back yard, deck and porch in the back on June, 2030
• I own an Arthur Murray dance studio in June of 2035
• I abide in a consistent no- thought state in August of 2027
• I win a “Future Champs” dance competition in June of 2026, a “Rising Stars” dance competition in June 2028 and an “Open” dance competition in June 2030
• I approach and hit on 500 women by January 2027
• I have sex with 10 women by January 2027
• I gain 10 pounds of lean muscle by January 2027
• I am completely debt free by March 21st, 2026

 

11.26.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 6
• Brush teeth streak: 27
• Floss streak: 27
• Shower streak: 10
• Meditation streak: 5
• Push ups / pull ups streak: 0
• Funniness affirmations streak: 25

Night time routine goals:

• Sexual abundance affirmation: 5
• Brush teeth streak: 17
• Wash face streak: 17
• No electronics before bed streak: 1

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 27
• No ejaculation streak: 5
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 6
• No alcohol streak: 25
• No weed streak: 7

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0
  • Legs: Done
  • Chest: Done
  • Back
• Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Edited November 27 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #28

I am starting to have serious resistance to all of these goals that I have. Its as if I feel like I just want to roll over and die so that I don't have to deal with the struggle of it all. 

Yesterday was Thanksgiving and I am also dog sitting this week so things were a little bit different. I woke up at the correct time, brushed and flossed and showered and then skipped my meditation and workout (I just didn't have the discipline to make myself do it, my mind said "no, not today" and I listened.) Unfortunate... 

I then went to my family's for Thanksgiving. On the way up there, I listened to the spiritual book "1,000" in which they are talking about levels of consciousness. It was a humbling wake up call to hear that I am barely at level 300. Levels 200-299 LOC Zone is called "The Sun Peaks over the Mountain" and is filled with con men and George W. Bush and is characterized by an egocentric boldness, the truly human self starts to emerge. It has a level of courage and confidence and manipulation that allows for the human to make headway and gain success within the world, but is lacking real empathy. These people are not evil but they are out of touch with their bodies and their emotions, they are out of touch with love.

The next LOC range is 300-399, "The Domain of Earnest Enthusiasts," which is characterized by "deep displays of sincerity, surrender, acceptance, willingness, receptivity and allowing." A person in the 200s range believes that a non-aggressive posture is laughable, he has created an adversary within his own mind, and has projected it out into the world, "It is I who strikes first out of self defense." At level 300 and above, another dimension is added. The subconscious presumption of an invisible attacking adversary is reframed in favor of a new option of non-resistance to defuse an approaching situation when a potential opponent appears. This is a major milestone, deep caring passion, true tenderness and a new form of acceptance of the current moment have emerged.

Some examples of people within this range are Tonya Harding, Junior Sea, and Margaret Thatcher. All three of these individuals exhibited tremendous passion and vitality. They were forces of nature driven by deep reservoirs of emotion not accessed by most people. They were vulnerable, their emotions visible, emotions were the wind that filled their sails. 

The heart is starting to open and soften, it is the birth of everything higher, true vulnerability has arrived and the capacity to cry both for self and for others permeates the body. Prior to this, hard-hearted was the way to be, crying was for sissies, now the heart is softening and crying is fully accepted as whatever is true within the humans present experience is fully accepted. 

Intense emotions are uncovered, cultivated, celebrated and channeled. Passion, coupled with vitality, produces life-changing results. Unique greatness is now possible. There is desire to become a good person, make an impact, do your job well, inspire others, love your family, and obey the law. 

Passion, love, emotion, this is the way of the LOC 300s. Here begins the long walk to true humility, loving service and total surrender to God. 

LOC 400 to 499 is "The Kingdom of Brilliant Thinkers" in which the internal dialog between the hard head and soft heart emerge. I am not going to cover this as I have a lot to do in order to transcend LOC 300-399. 

My goal is to use passion and intense emotions to push me towards achieving my goals and sticking to my habits. Next year, the year 2026 will be the year of my transcendence through "The Domain of Earnest Enthusiasts." I will attack everything I put my mind to with passion and and full acceptance for what is in front of me. I will create beautiful solo routines in which I fully embody the characteristic of the dance. I will push myself every step of the way until I am ready to transcend into LOC 400-499. Then things will get very interesting...

This is an 7 year plan that I have created for myself to achieve consciousness level 1,000: 

• 2026: Experience growth from LOC 300-399
• Achieve LOC 400 by January 2027. 
• 2027: Experience growth from LOC 400-499
• Achieve LOC 500 by January 2028
• 2028: Experience growth from LOC 500-599
• Acheive LOC 600 by January 2029
• 2029: Experience growth from LOC 600-699
• Achieve LOC 700 by January 2030
• 2030: Experience growth from LOC 700-799
• Acheive LOC 800 by January 2031
• 2031: Experience growth from LOC 800-899
• Acheive LOC 900 by January 2032
• 2032: Experience growth from LOC 900-999
• Achieve LOC 1,000 by January 2033

 

My Goals: 

• I have a fulfilling, healthy, highly conscious intimate relationship in January of 2027
• I have a house with a private, fenced in back yard, deck and porch in the back on June, 2030
• I own an Arthur Murray dance studio in June of 2035
• I abide in a consistent no- thought state in August of 2027
• I win a “Future Champs” dance competition in June of 2026, a “Rising Stars” dance competition in June 2028 and an “Open” dance competition in June 2030
• I approach and hit on 500 women by January 2027
• I have sex with 10 women by January 2027
• I gain 10 pounds of lean muscle by January 2027
• I am completely debt free by March 21st, 2026

 

11.27.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 7
• Brush teeth streak: 28
• Floss streak: 28
• Shower streak: 11
• Meditation streak: 0
• Push ups / pull ups streak: 0
• Funniness affirmations streak: 26

Night time routine goals:

• Sexual abundance affirmation: 6
• Brush teeth streak: 0
• Wash face streak: 0
• No electronics before bed streak: 2

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 0 (was 27)
• No ejaculation streak: 0
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0
• No alcohol streak: 26
• No smoking weed streak: 8

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0
  • Legs: Done
  • Chest: Done
  • Back
• Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

 

As you can see, several of my streaks have ended, I am going through a rough patch, so to make myself feel better, I would like to write down some accomplishments as I continue to move forward: 

Accomplishments: 

• 26 days streak of no alcohol
• Have seen severe downside of smoking weed and I don't see the point of doing it anymore
• Eaten 150 g of protein for 26 out of the past 28 days
• Physical physique has noticeably improved
• Journaled everyday for 28 days straight
• I haven't scrolled on my phone while in bed for at least 90% of the nights over the past month - I used to do this every night
• I have done the "Funniness affirmations" for 26 days straight
• I have done push ups and pull ups for at least 75 % of days over the past month (That is very good! I've never done that before)
• I am REALLY trying to create a consistent mediation habit
• Flossed for 28 days straight (That is awesome! )
• I have woken up no later than 7:30 am for 26 of the past 28 days (I've never done that before)
• I've been reading a lot more and starting to become much more organized and focused and driven in my life

Edited November 28 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #29

Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk I am really struggling. I'm waking up at the right time but I have NO motivation to start my day. I don't know if its because I'm living in a different environment right now (I'm housesitting for my friend), or if its that I am not working right now so nothing is keeping me honest. 

I'm getting high, I'm eating pie, I'm taking naps, I'm not meditating, I'm not working out. 

On the bright side, this journaling process is making me aware of the rut that I am in. 

Massive Goals: 

What are some massive goals that you have for yourself:

1. Have a successful YouTube channel documenting my life
2. Be a successful ballroom dancer, winning competitions and making $100,000 a year
3. Make a large impact on a large group of people
4. To help people raise their consciousness levels
5. To raise my level of consciousness to 1,000
6. To read every book thats on Leo's book list
7. To understand what happens when we die before actually dying
8. To have a jacked and shredded physique
9. To have sex with at least 30 different women
10. To be fully expressive in any situation that I put myself in
11. To own and run a meditation center

Thank you God for allowing me to create these things in my life. I am scared but I will do everything in my power to make them come true

 

My Goals: 

• I have a fulfilling, healthy, highly conscious intimate relationship in January of 2027
• I have a house with a private, fenced in back yard, deck and porch in the back on June, 2030
• I own an Arthur Murray dance studio in June of 2035
• I abide in a consistent no- thought state in August of 2027
• I win a “Future Champs” dance competition in June of 2026, a “Rising Stars” dance competition in June 2028 and an “Open” dance competition in June 2030
• I approach and hit on 500 women by January 2027
• I have sex with 10 women by January 2027
• I gain 10 pounds of lean muscle by January 2027
• I am completely debt free by March 21st, 2026
• I have $10,000 saved up by January 2027
• I reach LOC 500 by January 2027

 

11.28.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 8
• Brush teeth streak: 29
• Floss streak: 0 (I didn't have floss with me cuz houesitting)
• Shower streak: 0
• Meditation streak: 0
• Push ups / pull ups streak: 0
• Funniness affirmations streak: 0

Night time routine goals:

• Sexual abundance affirmation: 0
• Brush teeth streak: 1
• Wash face streak: 1
• No electronics before bed streak: 3

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 0 ( I did it again)
• No ejaculation streak: 0 (Also did it again )
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1
• No alcohol streak: 27
• No smoking weed streak: 0

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0
  • Legs: Done
  • Chest: Done
  • Back
• Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Goals for the month of December:

• Cold approach 10 women by December 31st 2026
• Meditate 30 days straight
• Wake up at 7:30 am 30 days straight
• Work out (push ups and pull ups) 30 days straight
• 20 lessons / week

Edited November 29 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #30

Yesterday was okay, I'm definitely going through a little rut... but I didn't get HIGH! Ben, I am sooooo proud of you! .... Wait a minutes, I did get high this morning, never mind... This journey is messy and I look forward to slaying more demons. And remember... lifes greatest leaps are usually taken right after out greatest stumbles.. cheers to that being true..

The thing that we're missing at this juncture is the fact that I have for example spent 27 out of the past 28 days completing my funiness affirmations, which is REALLY impressive and I've spent 26 out of the past 28 days not looking at porn.. again compared to what I used to do, this is REALLY impressive. I'm thinking that maybe I should track it like that, in which I track how many total times I completed the streak per month, then I will have a realistic way of tracking my progress. 

I have switched up the order of things in my morning routine. As soon as I wake up, I am going to meditate while in bed. This meditation is honestly the most important thing to me because it is whats going to lift everything else up in my life. The more I meditate, the more clear my head will be, which means the more organized I will be, which means the more opportunities for success I will have. The more I meditate, the closer to enlightenment I become. The more I meditate, the happier I will be. The more I meditate, the more awareness I will have in all situations going about life. The more I meditate, the closer I am to experiencing the "Field of Love." 

I would also really like to take my "massive goals" and create a plan for them year by year and month by month, in this way, I will be "chunking it down" and making things much more manageable. 

Massive Goals: 

What are some massive goals that you have for yourself:

1. Have a successful YouTube channel documenting my life (body transformation videos, cold approaching women videos)
2. Be a successful ballroom dancer, winning competitions and making $100,000 a year
3. Make a large impact on a large group of people
4. To help people raise their consciousness levels
5. To raise my level of consciousness to 1,000
6. To read every book thats on Leo's book list
7. To understand what happens when we die before actually dying
8. To have a jacked and shredded physique
9. To have sex with at least 40 different women
10. To be fully expressive in any situation that I put myself in
11. To own and run a meditation center
12. To access the "Field of Love" 

Thank you God for allowing me to create these things in my life. I am scared but I will do everything in my power to make them come true

 

My Goals: 

• I have a fulfilling, healthy, highly conscious intimate relationship in January of 2027 -  I am going to take this one out, I don't want a serious relationship right now and I don't know when I will... I want an intimate relationship with MULTIPLE women, MULTIPLE, I want to play around in the field, lets simplify this, take this goal completely out of the equation... The goal is to have sex with x amount of women this month, x amount of women this year, etc... 
• I have a house with a private, fenced in back yard, deck and porch in the back on June, 2030 - I do still want this and I want it soon, maybe I can push for having this in 2028, that will REALLY push me
• I own an Arthur Murray dance studio in June of 2035 - I do definitely want this as this is the most lucrative career path and it gives me the most financial and scheduling freedom that I can have, it sucks that this will take 9 years but I do think its a realistic time horizon - I'd like to break this goal down year by year to see what I have to do on a yearly basis and then by a month to month basis
• I abide in a consistent no- thought state in August of 2027 - This is something that I got from Ramaji's book, Who am I? Meditations - I do want this and I think this is a good time table, although we may want to push it back towards the end of 2027 as the middle of the year seems weird to me 
• I win a “Future Champs” dance competition in June of 2026, a “Rising Stars” dance competition in June 2028 and an “Open” dance competition in June 2030 - I do still want this, and I have seen that documenting this goal has really pushed me while I'm in the studio to work on my dancing more
• I approach and hit on 500 women by January 2027 - Great goal and it coincides with recording my pick up successes and putting them on the Internet to inspire other young men
• I have sex with 10 women by January 2027 Great goal, this will push me and I DEFINITELY want this
• I gain 10 pounds of lean muscle by January 2027 Great goal, will push me and I DEFINITELY want this 
• I am completely debt free by March 21st, 2026 Great
• I have $10,000 saved up by January 2027 Great
• I reach LOC 500 by January 2027 Awesome

 

11.29.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 9
• Brush teeth streak: 30
• Floss streak: 1 (I didn't have floss with me cuz houesitting)
• Shower streak: 1
• Meditation streak: 0
• Push ups / pull ups streak: 0
• Funniness affirmations streak: 1 

Night time routine goals:

• Sexual abundance affirmation: 1
• Brush teeth streak: 0
• Wash face streak: 0
• No electronics before bed streak: 0

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 1
• No ejaculation streak: 1
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 2
• No alcohol streak: 28
• No smoking weed streak: 0

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0
  • Legs: Done
  • Chest: Done
  • Back
• Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Goals for the month of December:

• Cold approach 10 women by December 31st 2026
• Meditate 30 days straight
• Wake up at 7:30 am 30 days straight
• Work out (push ups and pull ups) 30 days straight
• 20 lessons / week

 

 

[Spiritual Warrior]

Interlude: A Pep Talk for Tomorrow: Lock In

For tomorrow, I am going to meditate first thing in the morning because I believe its a good idea, but I am NOT going to meditate on the bed. Fuck that. Get your ass out of bed. That is what the alarm is for. Sit down on a fuckin' chair and do your meditation. DO NOT let the feeble mind take control of you. YOU are in control. 

LOCK IN. 

 

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #31

11.30.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 10
• Brush teeth streak: 31
• Floss streak: 0
• Shower streak: 2
• Meditation streak: 1
• Push ups / pull ups streak: 0
• Funniness affirmations streak: 2

Night time routine goals:

• Sexual abundance affirmation: 2
• Brush teeth streak: 1
• Wash face streak: 1
• No electronics before bed streak: 1

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 2
• No ejaculation streak: 2
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 3
• No alcohol streak: 29
• No smoking weed streak: 0

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0 ( I missed my back exercise again this week, thats 2 weeks in a row 2/3 though)
  • Legs: Done
  • Chest: Done
  • Back
• Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Goals for the month of December:

• Cold approach 10 women by December 31st 2026
• Meditate 30 days straight
• Wake up at 7:30 am 30 days straight
• Work out (push ups and pull ups) 30 days straight
• 20 lessons / week

[Spiritual Warrior]

Interlude: My MASSIVE Goals

Through my personal development work, I have started to become acutely aware of the fact that I can literally dream up anything that I want in this life. Dream it up, as big as you can possibly stomach and then let go and enjoy the ride. There is no more thinking small. I am GOING to make all of my dreams come true. Here is a list that I started of things that I want in my life as well as action steps to getting there, as big goals need to be chunked down into smaller and more achievable goals first. 

1. Start a Youtube Channel and get 1 million subscribers
   1. Post video about body transformation
   2. Post a day in the life vlog, talking about my morning routine
   3. Post vlogs of dance partner and I traveling and dancing
   4. Post vlogs of me hitting on women
   5. Post analysis videos of me hitting on women
2. Donate $100,000 to charity
   1. Pay off debts by March 2026
   2. Save $10,000 by the end of 2026
   3. Save $30,000 by the end of 2027
   4. Save $50,000 by the end of 2028
3. Become a world champion ballroom dancer
   1. Enter Washington DC Dance O Rama in 2025
   2. Enter Seattle Dance O Rama in 2026
   3. Enter Boston Dance O Rama in 2026
4. Have a nice home with a pool and outdoor bar
   1. Pay off debts by March 2026
   2. Have $10,000 in savings account by the end of 2026
   3. Have $30,000 in savings account by end of 2027
   4. Have $50,000 in savings account by end of 2028
5. Give your mom and dad money that they can buy a bigger house with. I want the world for them and I am going to make their old age as painless and enjoyable as I possibly can. 
   1. Have $50,000 in savings account by end of 2028
   2. Have $200,000 in savings account by end of 2030
   3. Have $1,000,000 in Savings account by end of 2032
6. Have sex with over 50 women ( I like this right here, the end result is having sex. That is the genuine reason that I am approaching all of these women. This will also help with 
   1. Approach and hit on 1 women this week
   2. Approach and hit on 10 women by by the end of the month
   3. Approach and hit on 100 women by the end of March 2026
   4. Approach and hit on 1,000 women by the end of 2026
7. Weigh 160 pounds with six pack abs within 2 years
   1. Gain 10 pounds of muscle in 2026
   2. Gain 10 pounds of muscle in 2027
8. Last for an hour while being inside someoneHave a full body orgasm
   1. Practice stimulating yourself with out porn
   2. Practice raising the energy up your spine
   3. Play around with the raising of energy during meditation sessions
9. Abide in the “Field of Love” for a year straight
   1. Finish reading “Field of Love” 
   2. Try to drop the “I-thought” back down to the Heart as much as possible
   3. Last 5 minutes in the “Field of Love”
   4. Last an hour in the “Field of Love”
   5. Last a day in the “Field of Love”
   6. Last a week in the “Field of Love”
   7. Last a month in the “Field of Love”
10. Reach LOC 1,000
    1. Finish reading the book 1,000
    2. Reach LOC 500 by March 2026
    3. Reach LOC 600 by the end of 2026
    4. Reach LOC 700 by March 2027
    5. Reach LOC 800 by the end of 2027
    6. Reach LOC 900 by March 2028
    7. Reach LOC 1,000 by the end of 2028
11. Own an Arthur Murray dance studio
    1. Be a Front Department manager by January 2028
    2. Run an Arthur Murray dance studio by January 2029
    3. Own my own Arthur Murray dance studio by January 2030

 

Thank you God for allowing me to create these remarkable things in my life. Thank you God for giving me the courage to make all of my dreams come true. 

 

 

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #32

12.1.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 11
• Brush teeth streak: 32
• Floss streak: 1
• Shower streak: 3
• Meditation streak: 2
• Push ups / pull ups streak: 1
• Funniness affirmations streak: 3

Night time routine goals:

• Sexual abundance affirmation: 3
• Brush teeth streak: 2
• Wash face streak: 2
• No electronics before bed streak: 0

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 3
• No ejaculation streak: 3
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 4
• No alcohol streak: 30
• No smoking weed streak: 0

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0 ( I missed my back exercise again this week, thats 2 weeks in a row 2/3 though)
  • Legs: Done
  • Chest: 
  • Back
• Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Note: I did not cold approach anyone yet, but a girl actually hit on me at the gym. I got her number and I've been texting her. This is a nice start to this journey. 

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #33

I have a new rule for myself which is to not use my phone while I am doing my morning routine. No phone whatsoever, even through meditation, I am at a point in my awareness of time that I can just sit there for roughly 20-30 minutes, and I have enough flexibility in my schedule to accommodate if I go over the time. The reason that I am going no phone is because I tend to scroll and scroll and scroll and scroll while I am supposed to be "eating frogs" every morning. "Eating frogs" is a term used in a book by Brian Tracy called "Eat that Frog" in which he states that you should eat your biggest and ugliest frogs first, which just means whatever is most important for you and would cause you the biggest consequences if you don't finish them ... That is why I start my day off with meditation and a work out and showering and funniness affirmations, I am getting these things out of the way right off the bat. I actually want to add some sort of phone restriction for myself that I track, I'm just not sure what that should be just yet. 

I also have a plan to stop smoking weed, but I have one joint left in my possession. We are going out after work for one my colleagues birthdays. I am going to ask my buddy if he wants to smoke the joint with me. These joint sessions are always great bonding experiences for our friendship so I am going to do that as my last day and then I will stop smoking, which is what I truly want. 

The last thing I want to talk about is my girl plans. I am texting this one girl, I am going to try to go out salsa dancing with her on Thursday night. Then I will ask her to get coffee or tea with me on Saturday morning, whether she comes out on Thursday or not. Then, I will hit on somebody while at the airport on Saturday. My dance partner and I are going to be competing in Washington D.C. that day, I am so excited! 

 

Heres a reminder of your goals for this month:

Goals for the month of December:

• Cold approach 10 women by December 31st 2025
• Meditate 30 days straight
• Wake up at 7:30 am 30 days straight
• Work out (push ups and pull ups) 30 days straight
• 20 lessons / week
• Read 3 books (Field of Love (pg. 56/200), Eat that Frog! (halfway through), 1,000 (pg. 130/700)

12.2.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 12
• Brush teeth streak: 33
• Floss streak: 2
• Shower streak: 4
• Meditation streak: 3
• Push ups / pull ups streak: 2
• Funniness affirmations streak: 4

Night time routine goals:

• Sexual abundance affirmation: 4
• Brush teeth streak: 3
• Wash face streak: 3
• No electronics before bed streak: 1

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 4
• No ejaculation streak: 4
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 5
• No alcohol streak: 31
• No smoking weed streak: 0

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0
  • Legs: Done
  • Chest: 
  • Back
• Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Edited Wednesday at 02:02 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #34

What a weird day yesterday. I woke up on time, did all of my morning routine except push ups and pull ups and then went to dance training. Training went fine, then I went to the gym to get my push ups and pull ups in, that went well, I got a nice video of myself posing in the mirror, which will go in my body transformation YouTube video. I then went back to work and I taught a really good lesson for one of my students. It feels so good when I teach well. Then I taught with a co worker of mine, we are doing a Christmas themed solo and I started to feel a little bit off on that lesson. 

Then, my mood started to go downhill, it felt like I didn't care about anything and my body kept becoming tense, I could not relax into the mind and body and I didn't have the drive to interact with anybody except my work bestie. I tried to release this emotion but I couldn't. I started to feel doubt in myself, "how can I accomplish all of these goals if my mood is like this..." "Why are my lessons so low this week, Im never going to become successful here," so many gunky and gross thoughts running through my head... 

I had one last lesson with a long time student in which I shared a plan for her so that we can get her ready for an upcoming dance event in January. I also shared a plan to get her to go to what's called a "dance o rama" on which she is competing at the highest level, this will be in May of this upcoming year in Texas. This is the direction that I want to take my career, I want serious students that want to be competitive ballroom dancers. This will make me good money and also push them to grow to the absolute highest peak of their potential. I want to compliment this woman more, she needs encouragement, let's light up her world every chance you get. Look at the positives when you are dancing with her, not the negatives.

To add another layer to this weird day, my dance partner texted me and asked me to call her at around 4:30 "when I get a chance." She's never said that before, I call her later but she doesn't pick up. Then she texts me and says that she's "at urgent care." I try calling her again but she doesn't pick up. She's been having pain in her gums, I think that they're inflamed, but I can't really get details out of her, she doesn't want to talk about it. For the past week, when I meet her for dance practice, her head is always down at first, being super quiet and tells me that she's not doing well. She's also always super insecure about how she looks, always looking at herself in the mirror even though she genuinely looks beautiful every day that I see her, no matter what her state is. Anyways, once she starts dancing, she is fine, she is laughing and I can't tell that she's in pain anymore. I know for a fact that I brighten her day up, which is a pretty cool feeling. Anyways, I texted her this morning to ask how she is feeling, she hasn't responded yet. 

We have a dance competition in Washington DC this weekend so I do feel for her and I genuinely care about her well being but this is not a good time for all of these ailments, and the things is I don't even understand what she's going through because she doesn't open up about it. She's clearly in pain and not in a good head space... Should we just not go to DC... I don't know maybe. I just have to talk to her. 

I also do have to think about the possibility that she may have feelings for me, which is stirring up emotions that she is unable to handle and these bottled up emotions are transforming into physical pain and self sabotage. I have feelings for her as well by the way, how could I not, she is amazing and beautiful and funnynand sexy ... but I also have a massive goal of hitting on thousands of women and having sex with over 50 so developing intimacy with her right now doesn't really matter to me, but at the same time I do genuinely love and care about her as a person. If I ended up marrying her in the end, that would be a very cool ending to my love story, but I can't be anyone's boyfriend until at least the end of next year, as I am very excited to finally fulfill on this "hoe phase" of my life. 

It's just strange that these ailments are all coming right before a big competition and I just wish I understood it better. I hope she's doing okay. 

Anyways, towards the end of the day, my mood is completely shifted, I have very low energy and no level of authentic expression, I felt like a half dead person. This continued into after work where we all had a drink for our co workers birthday ( my drink was non alcoholic of course.) I couldn't wait to leave as I felt so in authentic and unsatisfied. I finally get to go home, I smoke a joint on the way home, which I am trying to stop doing. 

I laid in bed high as fuck, my mind is racing with thoughts, which I felt like I had very little control over. I finally go to bed and I wake up the next morning at 7:30, I snooze my alarm and end up waking up at 9 am and that brings us to right now, 10:16 am on 12.4.25. 

I want to take this morning to figure out my routines and disciplines and goals for TOMORROW and the future. I am not going to be able to save today until I can get a handle on everything moving forward as this whole thing is a long term process. I also have dance practice at 12 with my dance partner, although she is not answering me so maybe it will be canceled, (that would be great honestly, I want to figure some things out.) 

Okay, so there are a few things that are going on. The first is that I have a good handle on my long term goals, which is awesome! This really helps on two accounts, it gives me a direction for my life, which makes petty annoyances obsolete because all of this work is being done for a higher vision, I don't care so much about what someone thinks about me or some crappy emotional state.. so that is awesome.. however, what comes with these massive goals is self doubt, as fear arrives through my thoughts with tenacity. It is difficult to shift the mind set when the mind has so much fear and doubt in itself. This is difficult, I'd love to find an exercise to shift that narrative in my mind in the moment that it's happening. 

I have a lot more that I'd like to journal about but I do have to get going as I guess my dance partner is doing okay and we are going to practice. The goal for today is to set myself up to achieve my goals in the FUTURE. Don't worry so much about the goals that you have for today, this is a long term project, just do your best. 

 

12.3.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 13
• Brush teeth streak: 34
• Floss streak: 3
• Shower streak: 5
• Meditation streak: 4
• Push ups / pull ups streak: 3
• Funniness affirmations streak: 0

 

Night time routine goals:

• Sexual abundance affirmation: 0
• Brush teeth streak: 4
• Wash face streak: 4
• No electronics before bed streak: 0

 

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 5
• No ejaculation streak: 5
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 6
• No alcohol streak: 32
• No smoking weed streak: 0

 

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0
• Legs: Done
• Chest: 
• Back:
• Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

[Spiritual Warrior]

 

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #35

Before I address the habit tracker, I would like to point out a few noticeable improvements in my life over the past month, since I've started this journey. 

1. My emotional state is SIGNIFICANTLY better. I am accessing moods that are joyful and peaceful and filled with love that I have not accessed before. I would contribute this to the growing accountability through this journal and reading books such as The Field of Love and What am I? Meditation
2. I have managed to become significantly less needy with women. As soon as I set the goal to have sex with 50 women and approach 1,000, all of a sudden, the need for the women that are already in my life to desire me almost completely disintegrated... Because my vision is much, much, much higher than any one girl. That has been the key for me. And non-neediness is VERY attractive and good for your mental health, nice job. 

As you can see, my tracker has taken a hit recently and I am not prioritizing hitting these habits. And you know what, I think it's precisely because I'm doing so much better and seeing progress that I stop feeling inspired to keep the habits going... Even though the habits are exactly what has allowed me to embrace this attractive non neediness and to access super joyous and peaceful moods. DO NOT allow yourself to coast, you are far from done. Let's get a move on and keep pushing towards your goals. 

 

12.4.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0
• Brush teeth streak: 35
• Floss streak: 0
• Shower streak: 6
• Meditation streak: 0
• Push ups / pull ups streak: 0
• Funniness affirmations streak: 1

 

,Night time routine goals:

• Sexual abundance affirmation: 0
• Brush teeth streak: 0
• Wash face streak: 0
• No electronics before bed streak: 0

 

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 6
• No ejaculation streak: 6
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0
• No alcohol streak: 33
• No smoking weed streak: 0

 

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0
• Legs: Done
• Chest: 
• Back:
• Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

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