I Only Feel Emotional Pain on Psychedelics

[LoneWonderer]

After around 25 trips on both Mushrooms and 5Meo Malt there has been nothing but emotional pain that comes up. Most of the time I'm not even aware what it's about. It's like I'm stuck and unable to go anywhere beyond. There has been no love, no awakenings, no visions, no wisdom imparted just sadness. Also I don't think I'm actually healing anymore. In the initial trips for sure crap was released but not anymore. I think the psychedelics just emphasize and shine light on the pain but there is no healing anymore. I don't know what must be done to break through this stage. More post session integration? Higher doses? Different substance? More trips? going on a long hiatus from psychedelics?

Edited 4 hours ago by LoneWonderer

[vibv]

It's an emotional blockade. Try to break through it without psychedelics.

How? Sit with those uncomfortable emotions. Make a meditation out of it. Sit until there comes a point where it's no longer unbearable, but weirdly 'OK'. That's the moment a breakthrough can happen. They will open up so to speak.

A low dose of mushrooms may help. But it's also very valuable to do it sober. There are certain emotions that can only be accessed sober and vice versa.

It's important to drop all hope of changing those emotions. It's a kind of acceptance that feels like literal dying at first,  that's the eye of the needle you'll pass through.

Edited 4 hours ago by vibv

[LoneWonderer]

14 minutes ago, vibv said:

It's an emotional blockade. Try to break through it without psychedelics.

How? Sit with those uncomfortable emotions. Make a meditation out of it. Sit until there comes a point where it's no longer unbearable, but weirdly 'OK'. That's the moment a breakthrough can happen. They will open up so to speak.

A low dose of mushrooms may help. But it's also very valuable to do it sober. There are certain emotions that can only be accessed sober and vice versa.

It's important to drop all hope of changing those emotions. It's a kind of acceptance that feels like literal dying at first,  that's the eye of the needle you'll pass through.

Thank you. Yes, this sort of feels what I need to be doing. I will put priority on focusing on the source in a sober state without judgement.