Recent Diary Entry

[Aaron p]

DE - sunday 28th September 2025.

Notable. Yesterday Saturday 27th September, I was sitting with mum, a wave of fear washed over me. Mum felt it too. I go into the bathroom to face it. It moves around as I feel it nearly hunting. What feels like a dark energy. Something sentient with orders, but not evil, dark and beautiful as the night sky. It feels scary. I feel like something bad is going to happen, but it doesn't. I face it. It is very intimidating. Within a minute or two it travels towards me and I feel like something has turned and I absorb it. I lean back, knowing that I am facing a power. It feels like fear. The fear continues for a little longer and subsided gradually, like something has become me. I open up to my mother as I feel she can understand somehow and she can to a degree. After a brief conversation I feel very relaxed. Today I go to church. The grass embankment feels subtly... impossible and I try to understand what it means. I get a clear word from god, people around me know something I don't, like they know more about what is happening than I do, which is weird as fuck. Today is significant. I feel power, more spread out, consistent. Like bedrock. I see visions of things that I can't make sense of...machines in space, folding in on themselves. I see the earth, with metallic looking tech around it, massive metal arches. For a second I seen the entire earth disappear. I constantly hear, "you do not know what you are," and "you do not know how it ends." Also "what is happening is not what you think."

 

DE - 03/OCT/25

I am very happy right now. Something incredible is happening. Something large and powerful yet not unexpected. unbelievable, yet completely familiar. I feel, protected. I am receiving clues from god. Not from the sky, but from physical phenomenon in my perceptual field. I need to get this in writing while it's here. I know God has used me powerfully in certain situations before but this is something else. Something I'm noticing is the mischievous measures the devil puts in place to keep devilish systems from being broken like a self preservation mechanism that requires coordination and momentum to break. A breakthrough like no other. Fucking phenomenal. I think, as long as I do whatever god instructs me, I am unbeatable. As long as I am an instrument for the glory of the power of god and none other I'm protected, like the mob, except the good mob. I sense this demonstration has but made a start. This is the beginning of everything. Absorbing that scary energy a few days ago, waking up at 5am seeing everything around me moving, feeling like I only imagined that I sat up. This is real. I no longer feel like some kid who's trying to find purpose in spirituality and to have some kind of amazing enlightenment experience. This is something else entirely. It's almost like recently I've been doing an audition and the scary energy absorbing into me is me getting the job. What I'm talking about, is on the 27th of September 2025, I think what I absorbed was the spirit of God or some extra part of God, I feel like it has something to do with the future. Somehow others know this all to be true, more than I do. Probably got something to do with the demonstration. I've only been getting snippets, so I didn't actually get to see the demonstration with my own eyes. I hope it was good, I think it was, from what i was receiving. This has the stink of god all over it. Somehow, this all isn't a feature, but the primary mechanism. I feel like I'm absorbing them and their absorbing me. I do see visions of myself in the future, but I also know that anything I think I see is but a reflection of what will come in reality and a dim one at that. One thing I can see clearly, Im safe in god's hands. Very safe. Somehow safer than ever before. I can hear people who I am not close to, talking, a memory like an elephant. I can see them, one male panicking but relaxing afterwards. Paying attention to the details. I have never felt so comfortable, ever. It's fucking incredible too, god's telling me about politics and giving me the names of political figures and other stuff. I research them and they give me information. For example god gave me Louis lopes who is the step son of a royal family, he has a step brother who is royalty who has the same name. I feel privileged to be at the hand of God, the power that I have been allowed. I think I want to make the first focus for my newly revitalised meditations on fear, specifically the fear of awakening. One thing I've learned is I do not need to know how to cross the bridge, I just need to get there and God will make a way to cross. I need to have faith. And I need to remember to emphasize his love for me and mine for him, this is the strongest force in the entire universe.

[Someone here]

14 hours ago, Aaron p said:

And I need to remember to emphasize his love for me and mine for him, this is the strongest force in the entire universe.

Goosebumps 🥹