How deep can you go with full sobriety?

[decentralized]

I’m curious. 
My doctors say I had psychosis from psychedelics and must never do them again. I say I realized I am God. But there are still some things I have not figured out yet, let’s call them psychosis. 
I believe I will reincarnate after I’m dead so I try to do good deeds as much as possible. Now that my energy is back I started again with meditation and I’m also practicing tai chi. I wonder how deep we can go without taking psychedelics. I’m trying to clear my karma so I can go even deeper in my next life. Might sound funny to some of you but I don’t believe I will be able to do psychedelics again in this lifetime, not even cannabis. A part of me believes I should be completely fine with not taking any of them again. I heard someone say “full sobriety is the real trip” I want to discover how true is that. Maybe after my karmic knots which put me in this situation resolves, life will put me in a situation where I can do it again, as being a different me. 

[decentralized]

 

[theleelajoker]

My own experience is that you can go pretty deep with meditation. Once, during a retreat, LSD-like deep, just without the visuals. 

When I did ayahuasca the last time, I remained surprisingly sober. Wasn't the stuff itself, as the shaman doing it got very high and after I felt "too sober" I even asked for a second potion. Yes I felt it but it was much less then I expected. The message I took from this trip was "don't try to get into these higher artificially created states, live your life fully with your everyday awareness" 

Some weeks ago, I had a very strange encounter that I felt strongly recommend me to quit weed. 

The conclusion I take from these experiences for me: 

1. A LOT is possible without psychedelics. Really, a lot. 
2. The goal for me seems not to reach these extraordinary states, but to simply integrate, to express, to live with who I am and what I know, with the level of being I am right now
3. Have fun

Btw, I am getting close to doing a support/discucssion group for people that are being told about psychotic experiences because I think its a heavily misunderstood concept in the west

Edited 20 hours ago by theleelajoker