im on to somethin: psychedelics is kindve like...

[kavaris]

Like, when you accidentally have had your hand on the button that reads: "Press this to trip", thats like what i remember the psychedelic exp being like, as like, this thing that you feel yourself literally pressing (and then later, forgetting. Much like how automated heart pumping or breath-having is like a realization exp you are having when youve pressed upon realization, that which you forget you are having once forgotten)

Somewhere in the process you forget that you were pressing the button, or what it was that even got you to, beyond a vague notion. You might in fact also forget that you were tripping, or atleast, the specific circumstances surrounding. and then the trip feels like it is building from/and off of— a sortve sequence of thoughts you had — that which all seem to pertain to the moment you are in... but , its more than that, cause its like, the thing that got you to that point is itself a riddle you cant quite recall—so too are the thoughts you are generating thereafter, as, its almost algorithmic; like, for every 10 or 20 thoughts that spin up, another 5 thoughts back in the thought buffer are getting lost in space

And, you are constantly forgetting things you were so deeply invested in mentally, nd physically that its like, breaking reality and the moment you are/were in; its almost like, a test of how much patience you can have whilst you are having the exp, cause its mostly like, surviving this event: having thoughts that come to mind that neverend, and only seem to grow in both (1) there proximity to each other (like how finite the thoughts are from one another) as well as (2)  how many there are in the global time of all thoughts that could/nd would ever occur

And lastly, these thoughts are like, reality constructs that work for you/against you, cause they are playing into literal reality too, like they make the mechanisms happen, and are a little criss-crossed w/, well, its the thoughts themselves that are crissed crossed, and how anything you think or feel  (anything in the experience) is connected visually, or vice versa, where visuals are connected and communicated within, which means you see what you feel literally, and you feel what you see; And it applies to all forms and senses alike.

iuno theres something weird in the sentiment, its like a *right on the tip of the tongue*, like, not just for like the nature of reality as it is, but specifically for *where it came from, and where its going*, like, you can smell your pre-school experience as it is, as if you are there. And thats what i mean bout bein criss-crossed, cause you are like, pre empted experiencing—through time and space, such that material reality is also no longer following the standard library of code, but rather is runnin a new experimental crazy town

Edited June 13 by kavaris

[Davino]

It's super nice you're trying to grasp this by yourself. Luckily we are not the first ones trying to do so. I explain it basically by understanding consciousness and its states. These two videos will give you a nice foundation to go on developing your sense making about psychedelic trips:

The second one is more profound and addreses the question for all experience from psychedelics, dreaming, meditation, yoga etc. but the first one is more tailored to psyhcedelic states and gives the tipical traps and right framework to make sense of tripping.