Who or what or how or where is God?

[z3rolight]

@Mellowmarsh    The universe is coordinated by a force, that's for sure. Who administers the cells and organs in your body... coordinates them? Your breath is the breath of God! If He withdraws His grace, His breath; you would no longer be alive. Everything that is alive remains alive... everything transforms. Death, the end, is not so important. But the journey of this life. Maybe life is a movie directed by God, but it also depends on each actor what attachments he has... on his pride and his evolution in consciousness! I think it is important to live more according to instinct, to be yourself without a mask, being original. The fact that you have realized that life is a movie, then the emotions, the deep sufferings that man experiences are not true and the questions: Who am I!? Where do I come from!? How am I created!?. The pain is no longer important!. No?.Because the movie unfolds in its unfolding course before you discover it, it unfolds in front of you before you discover that everything is beautiful and satisfying. Like emotions, thoughts, sufferings are not real. So what is left for you to do in life?.Except to be insensitive to negative emotions because they are not real and to watch life that beats the movie.

[Mellowmarsh]

@z3rolight Noted, and appreciate you’re reply.

 

My life is still a dream I have awakened up to, by simply being born. Like waking up from a deep dreamless sleep to a lucid awareness of what can only be described as being a dreamscape reality.

[krazzer]

@Mellowmarsh The problem is that "God" is just a word, a concept.

People gave it a certain meaning. Other people give it another.

From the absolute standpoint, you could say that what some people mean by god is the absolute itself.

But you have to be able to clearly see the absolute for yourself to understand how this is true on a non-intellectual level.

[theleelajoker]

 @Mellowmarsh

On 28.5.2025 at 9:47 AM, Mellowmarsh said:

My life is still a dream I have awakened up to, by simply being born. Like waking up from a deep dreamless sleep to a lucid awareness of what can only be described as being a dreamscape reality.

Yeah feels like that for me, too. Got me some time to adjust to it (and adjustment is oc still ongoing as long as I am alive)

Quote

 It’s hard to function like most people seem to do in life. Everyone acts like everything is normal. But I think everything is anything but normal. For me, life is terrifying. Being born just to die, just to suffer pain and heartbreak and misery.

Yeah that was strange for me too, for a long time   This feeling of  wanting to say to others "Really, you don't think sth is strange? Really, don't you notice how nothing is "normal"?

Re the terrifying part: Been there. My experience: These feelings come. These feelings go. Something better arrives : )

Quote

What’s wrong with me?

My oppinion: Everything is absolutely OK with you  

I would say that some people are just more sensitive, more observant, more connected and thus experience reality differently. But it's not you being "wrong" in any way.  Maybe it's the others just not being fully there at this level of experience (which is not "better" or "worse" - just different)

Edited Wednesday at 04:38 PM by theleelajoker

[Mellowmarsh]

@theleelajoker @krazzer

 

Thankyou. Good stuff. 🙂

[Xonas Pitfall]

It's pure awareness. It's hard to explain unless you've had a direct experience (usually on psychedelics).

Imagine your entire current reality - everything you see, hear, feel, and think. Notice how all of it is contained within your perception? That container - the one that holds the present moment - is consciousness. It's awareness. It's absolute purity. It's nothingness. It's God.

Think of it like this: if I wanted to build a container to hold a ball, what kind of container would it be? Probably round, maybe flexible, maybe firm enough to support the ball's weight.
Now, imagine I want to hold water - I'd need a watertight vessel.
For fire, maybe a lantern or a fireproof bowl.
To hold sound, I’d need a space that could echo or absorb vibration.
Now think bigger - what kind of container could hold anything? Not just one object, but infinite objects. Not just things, but time, space, experience, emotion - the entire reality you're perceiving right now.

That container would have to be absolutely formless yet capable of taking any form. It would have to be infinitely adaptable, unbounded, and ever-present. That container - the one that is always there, holding your experience no matter what it is - is awareness. It's the ultimate observer. It's God.

The most direct access to God is through your mind, through your perception. Strip away everything around you - your surroundings, your thoughts, even your sense of self. Just focus on the raw ability to perceive, to witness, to simply be aware. That silent observer behind it all - the one that's just there, holding every experience - that pure experiencer is God.

[Xonas Pitfall]

One of the realizations I had after my trips was this: I used to think God was something out there - like some divine object I'd see or some presence that would reach out to me, or I’d somehow reach out to it. But that thinking is flawed. If God is truly omnipotent and omnipresent, then God has to be here, right now, always.

So I started asking myself - what’s the one thing that has been with me through my entire life?

It’s not my room or environment - those always change.
It’s not my body - even my hands and skin have changed and aged.
It’s not my personality - that evolves constantly.
It’s not my thoughts - they come and go.

The only thing that’s been constant is that sense of being. The “you-ness.” The awareness. The background observer that’s experienced every single moment of my life.

And when you look closely, that presence has all the qualities we associate with God: always here, always aware, untouched by time. Not saying that other things aren't God, too. But the most direct, purest access to God is that.

[Mellowmarsh]

24 minutes ago, Xonas Pitfall said:

It's pure awareness. It's hard to explain unless you've had a direct experience (usually on psychedelics).

I’ve had a direct experience of this at the age of 7 years old. . it was a spontaneous “ah ha” moment for me, and I don’t even know why this happened to me at such a young age. I suppose I was just born to be a deep thinker, but I was also super sensitive to people’s energies, I could sniff them out so easily, it felt terrifying at times.

 

From then on in, I had to mingle with the matrix, just to fit in. Although I felt different, I still had to act like everyone else, but I couldn’t help thinking that there was something not quite right about the world and the way humans conducted themselves, but instinctively kept that kind of thinking to myself because everyone seemed to be ok with the way things were. So I just went along with the rules that had been put in place that were designed to produce a civilised society. 
 

I have never used or taken psychedelics, or any other mind altering drug of any description. I like to feel sober and clear headed. I’m also quite allergic to certain medical medications. I tried alcohol, but even that made my body vibrate in a horrible sensation, and I once tried smoking cigarettes, but even those made me dizzy and feel quite sick. So I was always scared to put substances in my body. I’ve never experienced the trips often talked about on here.

 

The way I became fully integrated with pure god awareness was through the process of extreme pain and suffering. 
Yes, I’ve experienced immense pain and suffering in my years of being alive, nearly being murdered twice.

 

I feel God as existence itself. I trust only in the power that’s animating my living experience of being alive.

What ever brought me here will take me home. I’m now fearless in the sovereignty of my own being which I understand to be in the driver’s seat while I get to enjoy the passenger seat effortlessly. That’s been my awakening experience anyway.

 

 

[theleelajoker]

On 4.6.2025 at 7:10 PM, Mellowmarsh said:

I suppose I was just born to be a deep thinker, but I was also super sensitive to people’s energies, I could sniff them out so easily, it felt terrifying at times.

I know many people that are very sensitive to energies just as you describe.  Sometimes I have the feeling that EVERYBODY has the potential to be that sensitive to what is going on. But it's goes against such a strong conditioning that is is buried very deep, many layers of resistance.

Took me quite a while and many experiences to realize how sensitive I actually am as well. And with women I experienced that some are aware of this sensitivity, but many do it very intuitively without knowing that they are reacting to energies instead of the superficial reality. The men I know are more aware but seem kind of afraid to talk about it. 

Anyone also with the impression that this sensitivity to energy is just something that can be accessed by anyone?

Quote

From then on in, I had to mingle with the matrix, just to fit in. Although I felt different, I still had to act like everyone else, but I couldn’t help thinking that there was something not quite right about the world and the way humans conducted themselves, but instinctively kept that kind of thinking to myself because everyone seemed to be ok with the way things were. So I just went along with the rules that had been put in place that were designed to produce a civilised society.

Sounds familiar. But I never was that conscious about it, I think most of my life it was a silent rebellion against living like most people without me knowing what exactly I rebell against. It becomes more clear now as I get older (late 30s now).

What pisses me off is that I felt "wrong" for not fitting in, for being different, e.g. not caring about money, conflict and status like many others, always questioning what's wrong with me. And I see others do the same - feelings of shame, guilt, being wrong, not belonging, feeling out of place, disliking oneself for being different and suppressing one's own sensitivity and feelings. Maybe it's one of the reasons why the world is waking up very slowly - nobody likes to feel that way.  Right now it seems to me that society does not reward sensitivty but rather prefering to drown in distractions.

[Mellowmarsh]

@theleelajoker 👍I  totally understand what you are saying.

 

Thanks for the feedback.

[theleelajoker]

2 minutes ago, Mellowmarsh said:

@theleelajoker 👍I  totally understand what you are saying.

 

Thanks for the feedback.

And thank your for posts. You made me aware of some things I was not / only superficially aware of. And you give me motivation to actually take some action to improve the situation for me and others

[Mellowmarsh]

13 hours ago, theleelajoker said:

Anyone also with the impression that this sensitivity to energy is just something that can be accessed by anyone?

I would think so. Especially since we’re all formed of the same atoms. 
 

 But I also think some people suppress their feelings about certain energies because we’re conditioned to be kind.

 

Its hard to tell someone you don’t like them because you are picking up really bad vibes from them for whatever reason you might not even know especially if you’ve only just met them.

 

 

[Mellowmarsh]

@theleelajoker Thank you too for sharing some thoughts with me. 🙂

[theleelajoker]

2 hours ago, Mellowmarsh said:

1. I would think so. Especially since we’re all formed of the same atoms. 
 

 2. But I also think some people suppress their feelings about certain energies because we’re conditioned to be kind.

 

3. Its hard to tell someone you don’t like them because you are picking up really bad vibes from them for whatever reason you might not even know especially if you’ve only just met them.

 

 

1. Yeah so we are at least two people having this impression  

2. Yeeees, definitely! You think you have to play the "nice guy" or "nice girl" and to keep in that conditioned role. Once I saw a kid ask a man "why do you have such a big nose?" Very childlike, innocent question born out of curiosity. The man laughed and was not bothered at all. But the kid's mum was like "ahhhhh you can't ask people this [to the kid]. I am very sorry for my kid asking you this!" [to the man].  Don't know if the kid feels safe to ever ask a question like this ever again.

And there is fear of being disliked. One of my ex-gf had a really hard time expressing criticism towards me. But when she did, I was happy because I felt that she is right. I even felt a relieve, a feeling of "OK I really needed to hear that" and was grateful she told me sth I was not aware of before. So it's actually hurting two sides when not expressing things - one person is stuck with the enery, and the other does not experience what needs to happen. Of course, what is expressed has to be authentic and not some conditioned ego BS

3. Yeah, I was like that a lot before. Being influenced easily by behaviour of others, picking up bad vibes. It can be tricky to be open to reality in some way (accepting things as they are) and still being somewhat detached. Over time I learned techniques to go to a place in my mind where I simply not give a fuck   

It's not working everytime 100% and instantaneously. But it's a skill that is "trainable" and even going 50%, 60%, 70% of this path brings so much more freedom and joy 

Edited Friday at 01:20 PM by theleelajoker

[Mellowmarsh]

@theleelajoker Great genuine authentic stuff, thanks for sharing that. It’s like, just be yourself, the real fictional character 😂👍

Brings this song to mind.

 

 

 

[Mellowmarsh]

I’ve just this minute thought about this …why God cannot be seen.

 

Try the mirror trick. 

Notice as you look into a mirror, the mirror never smiles first. 

So you are not the image you see of yourself in the mirror. 

You are actually invisible.

This is the pure magical beauty of the absent presence of God.