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[Optimized Life]

AH FUCK I HAD A GREAT INSIGHT AND I FUCKING FORGOT IT AS MY COMPUTER WAS LOADING BECAUSE THIS SITE LOADS REALLY FUCKING SLOW TO FUCKING LOGIN FUCK I KNOW IT WAS GOOD BECAUSE U KNOW WHEN U GET THAT VIBRATORY WARM FEELING IN YOUR BODY 

PRACTICCAL INSIGHT THERES ALWAYS (SOMEWHAT DIVERGENT/INDIRECT OR OTHERWISE) AN ELEMENET OF PRAGMATISM AND THAT PARLY WHY IT FEELS "WARM" BECAUSE WHAT THE FUCKING POINT OF JUST "UNDERSTANDING REALITY" FOR ITS OWN SAKE, THAT WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU FAP TOO MUCH, FUCKING FAPPERS FUCK FAPPING IT RUINS YOUR FUCKING LIFE.

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1. ESTJ Integration - Essential For ENTPs (especially 8w7) >> "Work on your strengths is nonsense, they're already overpowered nothing to work on, but moreso entp strengths like a special suitcase without wheels, great build and weight sexy design and leverage potential, maybe there's a magic geenie in there, but there aint no fucking good wheels to carry them places, and ESTJ integration is the wheels, we need fucking wheels. 

2. Fucking forgot 

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ESTJ Integration 

Not just Integration - healthy and Obligatory overcompensation, psychotic level of overcompensation of ESTJ Integration necessary. 

That's the only way u become the rare ENTP who actually practically succeeds and doesn't sit aroudn with a box of wires and supplements and half read books and weird notes on your wall and deleted journals with $333 in your bank account at 40 years old. 

I'M MOGGING ALL THESE ENTPS WITH MY ESTJ INTEGRATION BITCH

• Intense discipline, never ever miss a fucking day 
• Jocko Willink 
• NO PORN NO FAPPING EVER, NO FAP.
• 90% FUEL AND LIFE FORCE DIET 
• WAKE UP EARLY EVERY FUCKING DAY AND JUMP OUT THE BED 
• PUSHUPS, MILITARY, GYM 
• WORK LIKE A FUCKING MAUL EVERY DAY 
• NEVER EVER HAVE UNDER $20K IN THE BANK 
• GOALS 
• METRICS 
• NUMBERS 
• SYSTEMS 
• And then I can fucking dance in the dark after

I HATE NOT HAVING POWER IM AN 8W7 IT MAKES ME SICK IT GIVES ME CORTISOL I WAS GETTING POWER BUT I LOST MY POWER GOT CHEATED GOT DISAPPOINTED LOST SOME POWER BACK TO SQUARE ONE GOD GIVE ME POWER GIVE ME FREEDOM GIME FUCK U MONEY FUKC U SOCIETY FUKC U I DO WHAT I WNAT IM AMPED UP ON CORTISOL THIS NOT HEALTHY NEED TO CALM DOWN POWER LETTING GO OHH NOOOO 

Edited Sunday at 07:13 PM by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

AHH FUCK I REMEMBERED THE IDEA ! 

Folding To Stress - Most Men Fold to Stress, They always fucking Fold to Stress 

I love this fucking word, "Fold", it jsut works it just clicks, u dont ever fucking fold in life 

u dont fold 

thats a second idea connected to 

just hte idea of not folding

and people will make u fold, "make" u fold its often more subtle, rarely by actual force, but the subtlety of it has its own potent "force". (Why you here at this club John? wat u doing here? Where's your friends? (John literally just moved to this city & decided to go out because he doesn't no anyone so how the fuck he gonna know people without going out alone lol),  (subtle tone & expression of judgment & condescension of the unconscious gaslighter). 99% of Johns (especially under 25) will fold in this situation because they're just too in their head and their emotions and then the insecurity and self consciousness bubbles up ect.. But what if John just didn't give a shit? in fact that kinda interaction made him get off on being out alone that night and he held his frame and kept going ... no gaurantee but sometimes god rewards that level of persistance, cute girl just randomly shows up at 1am & she actually doesnt care that johns alone, & wants to meet a mysterious foreigner. 

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The phrase “folding to stress” means giving in or breaking down under pressure—emotionally, mentally, or physically.

To “fold” here comes from poker slang, where a player folds (gives up their hand) when the pressure is too high. So in life, if someone folds to stress, it means they:
 • Can’t handle the pressure
 • Panic or shut down
 • Become overwhelmed and stop functioning effectively
 • Lose composure or control

Example:

“He always talks tough, but he folds to stress the moment things get difficult.”

DId Alexandre Pechersky fold to stress, or sit around and fucking masturabte, when he came to sobidor camp? He inmediately knew it was an iminent death camp, he played all the gaurds like a mastermind and did it without even losing his frame or dignity or socially appeasing them once, he built the plan he executed it lifted everyoine up in the proces,s, what a fucking hero man. 

Alright, no more ideation, I'm done now, i cant waste my time or got lost in my mind. 

1. Psychotic ESTJ Integration & Overcompensation (the wheels to my magic suitcase)

2. Never Fold to Stress 

3. Never Fold (To others), in life, EVER 

Done. No more actualized.org 

IM READY TO FUCK THE WORLD UP, FUCK SHIT UP SOCIETY IS FUCKED I WONT FOLD

Edited Sunday at 09:07 PM by Optimized Life

[Optimized Life]

Strength of Character is the only way : 

• NO folding to others 
• NO folding to stress
• No folding to your goals or commitments (Failing on goals or commitments isn't folding if you keep going, dont need to "quit fapping" the first week, need to try, get to day 1, fap, admit its hard, get to 20 days fuck it all up, admit its hard, go back, 4 days, fail again, get back up keep going until you're a no fap warrior)
• NO anxiety (anxiety comes, but can't fold to it, can't double down on it, you step on it, and keep walking)
• Perseverance 
• Boldness 

Its the most important thing

Until this is fully maxed out? Whats the fucking point, why would I write on here, why would i comment on anything, why would I even have children, there is no fulfilling life without maxed out strength of character, I admit this here, in a sense i regret ever journalling ever and not just fully maxing out my character first, but alas it is how it is and it seems I am doing both continously 

To building max strength of character, I dedicate my fucking life to it, i'll still fail often, thats the path, its never an easy ride 

I say this because im not mentally healthy right now, and whiilst that is not optimal or ideal functionally or spiritually, currently is is what is. It is no use for me to ask for an easy life or easy success, but to only be counterintuive, embrace the pain, almost enjoy it & get off on how much I can do despite being so fucked up and anxious and full of cortisol and betrayal and frustration, there's peace on the other side of success, change is coming, I shouldn't have taken a nicotine gum, something about it has ruined my brain today, but anyway, focus, War is the answer, Just go to war bro, might sound cringe, but its the best reframe for anything, anxiety, procrastination, hesitation, just go to war, but people who didn't mentally/spiritually/emotionally/visually catacpault themselves 3D in their mind and body into the War like i did for a week do not get this, it will go in one ear and out the other, "war" is just a wikipedia list of dry facts to them, it hasn't changed them like it did for me, I never gave a shit about learning facts to sound smart, it was about personal change and depth. 

 

Edit 14 hours later ..

I'M AWAKEEEEE 

I'M FUCKING AWAKEea

I had multiple awakenings in the last 1.5-2 years, but it all compounded in the last year, i'd say my inner game automatically improved 10*, but also my anger & hatred of society increased about 100*, i've also become more ruthless,  haven't even taken mushrooms yet. Awakenings overpower you but they're not easy to deal with, and the older it takes that you reached them the more painful it is, because theres more regret. 

NO FAP. I can't forget when I hit day 20, that magnetic ENFJ gaze, lightning strike 

How the fuck did go years without it man? How was i so stupid 

It's because i was being left brained, leo doesn't even follow his own advice "chimps masturbate a lot therefore no fap is dumb" type of nonsense logic, it's just fucking right brain theres no argument for it, just see the fucking energy and looks you get on day 20 (combined with other factors) & it's insane, it's fucking insane, leo lied, he fucking lied, and I fucking fell for it, 1 of the worst mistakes i've ever made.

No fap day 2 complete now, day 90 incoming 

 

Edited 7 hours ago by Optimized Life